Lovingtheunique

Hey my name is Lucy,
Leyanne was my best friend,
I know most people will see this quote and scroll down,
Because its so long,
But to those who keep reading,
Thankyou.
In the night last night she slipped away,
We had begged her to take the heart but she refused,
She said she wanted to die with dignity not with a stolen heart,
She put up a strong fight,
She always had been a fighter,
Right through this she had stayed strong and not once have I seen her complain about her illness,
She wanted me to post this,
She told me before she died,
That every one on here deserved to know,
What was really wrong with her,
Why when people asked what heart disease she had she wouldn't tell them,
When she was a kid she was beat by her dad,
He had a mental illness and couldn't control his actions as much as normal people could,
One day he hit her so hard in her tiny chest that her ribs splintered,
One of them slightly damaged her heart,
She told people she had a disease because it was the easiest,
Most painless way to get around what she was going through,
She fought all thorough every thing that had happened to her,
But last night she couldn't hold on any longer,
She was rushed into hospital yesterday,
The doctors wanted her to go into immediate surgery because they had just got a heart,
But in her notes she had refused,
So they did nothing,
They left her to die in peace,
But when she came round she asked for me,
So the doctors let me in,
And she said to let her mom know she was coming,
That she wouldn't be long before she came to join her,
In heaven,
She told me to tell her mom that,
And not to be sad that she was leaving,
But to be happy,
Because in her life she had never had a good time,
A good child hood,
That where she was going,
She could be happy,
And not live with the regrets,
And the pain,
And the longing,
And she died holding my hand,
And even when she was gone I sat there next to her,
Praying for her to get to her mom,
And thats why I posted this,
So you can do the same,
Please pray for her,
That she reaches her mom,
Because they both died because of one man,
And now they need to be together,
So please,
Pray for her....
Help her get to heaven,
And stand by her moms side,
Once more.

♥

This is to everyone who was amazing when I told them what I was going through
Last night I was rushed into hospital. I had been on witty infact and collapsed, I could only sort of hear anything and everything seemed faded and distant. I could see my mom crying above me and my little sister standing in the door, clutching the door frame while the paramedics rushed in. My dad was sitting on my bed, having rushed in from his home with his new wife. I felt as though I was looking over myself from the ceeling and seeing what was happening to me. Then I saw my nan infront of me, I swear, holding her arms out to me, calling for me to join her. She said she was happy and she wanted to see me again, that she missed me and that what I was doing was right. I was in surgery all night and only now have I been allowed on the rooms computer. I pulled through this time, but the doctors don't think i can do it again. Before I would have probaly cried alot and changed my mind about accepting the heart.
But now I'm not afraid of death, its not a bad thing, it happens to every one and I think now I am ready to die.
Thankyou
♥

The moment
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When  you  get  bored  of  witty

I have maybe a couple of months to live
I need a new heart and my doctor says that I am too weak to survive more than four or five months at the most. This is not a sympathy quote, I don't want you to comment saying you are so sorry and give me advice of how to stay strong. I have people who will support me and I don't hate myself, I don't need your pitty. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry, because when the moment comes and I recieve a heart I will  become a murderer and I don't want that so I'm not going to accept it, I know that means the end, but if it means that I don't have to pray for some other child to die then I'm willing. I mean death is only then end of a story. So what if the story ends quickly, some of the best stories have been only a few pages long.

I know not many people will read this and that doesn't matter but please just acccept my decision and understand that I just came on witty to say hello and now I'm saying bye.
♥