Lukas_has_a_new_Witty

It's weird how easy it would be to die.

It's been raining a lot lately in Illinois, there was a huge storm last week that knocked my power out for a bit. I know it's stupid I keep talking to you about the rain but that's just what stuck out in our conversations. It's been over a year since I was on your profile, and I haven't talked to Meggie really at all. I miss how it used to be with the three of us commenting on each other's profiles, always seeing one another's conversations. Speaking of, I was looking through all my old comments and saw our whole argument of if I was pretty or not, and when you tried to make me feel better about my dad situation even though yours was worse. I look at those whenever I'm upset and it makes me feel better, but then worse. I miss you a lot, Lukie.

I really need someone to talk to.

So I'm engaged.

Alexander Lukas.

The sadder I am, the happier I'll act.

Maybe I should just go.

I rolled my at him today,and he laughed. It was nothing like mason laughing at my eye rolls. Ive gotten so mean. I think the winter has ended and taken home in my chest. I love you,come back soon. And bring him with you

I want to hate him. I wish you could help me through this luke. im so angry but ive tried and i cant be angry at him and this is so

I wasnt enough,luke

I'm blacking out again. I need my medication. But I can't afford it. I just keep blacking out.

I wish you knew.

Hey. I feel like I can't talk to anyone, about anything. I try, but no one understands, and I don't understand anyone. Its kinda hard. Nothing is working like I expect it to. But Grace is funny as hell. I like her. I'm glad I'm here with her. I messed up a lot this year, you know, since last time we talked. Gracie and I were friends a while. I really liked her lots. But I'm not good with people, so we don't talk anymore. She's been posting about some older guy. I hope he doesn't hurt her. If he does I'll skin him. But I wouldn't know if he did hurt her, anyway. I regret that. Leon and I haven't talked in a while, he' rock bottom and he just can't move. its scary. I regret not being able to help him. But I'm not a completely lost cause sometimes, of course, you wouldn't know that. But I'm glad I got to tell you. I'm glad I got to make sure you know I'm trying, even when I fail. That's all that would've mattered to you. Alright, peace out, I love you.

I love you

I always try to imagine what you would say to the stories I tell you and the questions I ask. More likely than not probably something sassy that would make me laugh

You're so silly

Luke,
You mean a lot to me, you know that? You were my first love < 3 Lukie, Mace told me a while ago that you told him if you ever died to take care of me. And he is < 3 he's doing a really good job, Luke. He makes me happy. Happier than anyone else ever could < 3 He makes me wanna be alive. He makes it easier to breathe. I love youu.

I've recently found that it's possible to be happy all on my own. It feels like you. Minus you. I miss you lots,luke. So much. I hope you like the balloons I sent you. I tried to fit as much writing on them as I could,I'm not sure if you could really read all of it,but the most impostant part was "I love you". I can feel you with me all the time,you know,and that's probably why I've become so content. I couldnt feel you before. But I found you in the things I love the most. You were always one of my favorite people. You're very captivating. I'll try to be back soon,love you

He wont let me help, Lukas. He won't let me in. He's pushing me away.

My family's missing Luke. I dont even know what to do. He's all I have and I'm a stranger to him. Please help me. Help him remember. Please.. I love him so much,you know that,I don't know what I'll do if he can't ever remember me. We had all those plans. Im a mess without him