Malynnskie

You said you loved me
With all your heart
But why?
Oh, why?
Did you let us fall apart?

1. Do you sleep in your bra? If other people (Besides family) are sleeping over, then I do
2. Do you like noodles? YUSSS
3. Do you enjoy drama? like plays? nope
4. Are you a girly girl? Is enjoying the sound of screams from people dying in online games considered girly?
5. Small or large purses? BACKPACK
7. Are you short? 5'8"
8. Do you like somebody? ..... My boyfriend
9. Do you care if your socks are dirty? YUS
10. Do you like Halloween? Uh-der
11. Favorite time of year? When all the bugs die.... WINTER BABY!!!!
12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? In a movie theater
13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? NERP
14. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? Yeah, and it's kinda tearing me apart.
15. Do you call anybody by their last name? Sorta
be honest;
1. What color is the bra that you're wearing? Black
2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys? Doesn't matter.
3. Longest relationship? From mid April till.... I don't know... Still in a relationship.
4. Do you have a best friend? YUSS
5. Have you ever had your heart broken? Yeah...
6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery? I like myself.
7. Do you like your life? I don't LOVE it :/
8. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? YUSS
9. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? More girls since guys don't like me :(
10. How long have you had a facebook? Since fourth grade.
11. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face? Yeeeaaah....
12. What are your biggest fear(s)? Being alone :/
13. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? Too many times I'm afraid.
14. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind? Yep.
15. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater"? Depends
16. Have you ever had a good feeling about something? YEUP
17. Do you ever wish you were famous? Not really
18. Are you currently missing someone? Love you Cameron!
19: What are you doing right now? .... Really?
which type?
Cowboy or Gangster? Neither
Face or Body? Personality and face and body....
Sweet or Sexy? ....
Contacts or Glasses? Um...
yourself;
01. Eyeliner or Mascara? BOTH
02. Pink or black? Black
03. Pumps or flats? CONVERSE SUCKERS
04. Skirts or pants? Pants... Always
05. Socks or leggings? Socks
06. Hoodies or jackets? Jackets
07. Heels or sneakers? CONVERSE
08. Straight or curly hair? Straight
09. White or black? White 10. Smoothies or lattes? Monster
11. Diet or regular sodas? Monster
12. Water or daiquiris? What is that? Water of course!
13. Pearls or diamonds? SAPHIRES
14. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen? Andy Beirsack
15. iPod or cell phone? Cell
16. Friends or family? Both
17. Lip gloss or lip stick? Lip stick
18. Manicure or pedicures? Pedi
19. Tank tops or beaters? What?
20. Big sunglasses or small? Neither
21. Sunglasses or purses? Neither
in a guy;
1)Funny or Serious?. Funny
2)Romantic or Daredevil? Romantic
3)Dark Eyes or Light Eyes? Don't care
4)Long Hair or Short Hair? Preferably short
5)Curly Hair or Straight Hair? Doesn't matter
6)Hockey Player or Football Player? Hate sports. But my boyfriend plays lacrosse so...

Sometimes
I think of that special necklace
Where a belt is the chain
And I am the charm
Hanging
From the wooden beam

She sees the world in perfect logic,
But she doesn't understand.
Sitting quietly on her bed,
She cries because of the demand.
She finds comfort in being alone,
But truely wants to be held.
Deep in her being,
She was once a child,
Before her demon swelled.
She has gone too far,
Walked too long.
In the Valley of Death,
You can still hear her song.
She is not dead nor breathing,
But all the chaos is here.
If you follow in her path,
Your end will soon be near.
She is soft to the touch,
Sweet to the breath.
But beware by nightfall,
As soon as the lights go out,
She starts to lose it all.

I wish my tears could fall
Fall lighter than a glimmering snowflake
But they fall hard and loud
Wanting you to hear them
I scream for you to listen
But you insist to listen to your head
Not your heart
And that’s the problem
You need to get rid of your anger
Before it gets rid of you
The real you
The one I fell in love with
A fairytale ago
But now I know loving you was a mistake
I’m sorry for wasting your time
But it was time wasted well for me
Because I felt good for once
But who likes a liar?

If I just hold in the truth 
They don't have to know
If I feed them the lies
They won't ask for a show
When words aren't enough
To prove that I miss it
I'll just listen to others
And it will bring me back a bit
I'll be mean to myself
Until the pain clear
I'll starve myself
Until I disappear
I'll bruise myself 
Until I can't hide it
I'll keep it a secret
Until you fight it
I don't like being happy
I've reached its max
It seems as though depression is my addictive drug

Where are you? Why did you leave me? You said you would always be there for me. Now it’s a lie. It’s all a lie. You were once the truth out screaming these lies. But now you are one. We made a promise. We made an oath. That we would fight through this thing together. But then you left. You disappeared. Now I fight alone. Me against it. Me against the world. Me against myself. Me all alone. We could have won. You didn’t have to jump. You didn’t have to give up. You didn’t have to fail. You didn’t have to die  But it was your own choosing. Your own reasoning. But all my fault

The Angel
There she stands before me
In her bright and shinning way
Arms open in a loving embrace
Wings unfolded, glimmering
Her gentle voice soothes my spirit
“Come with me.”
She whispers
I touch her hand and disappear
I am at the pearly white gates
My family is on the other side
The angel is talking to a man
A man of great power and might
She turns around to look at me
She is frowning
I am falling
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than the speed of light
Down, down, down I go
It is hot and dark
I hear screams and crying
I see bleeding people
I see the devil

The Dark
I am alone and afraid
Its utter silence pierces my chest
It’s not really here
Yet it is smothering everything
I grab at the black curtain that is surrounding me
But it refuses to leave me alone
It starts playing tricks on me
Messing with my thoughts
I smell sweet herbs
Cloves, burnt sugar, cinnamon, and spice
Its claws latch onto my spirit
Then torn right out of me
I don’t know what it is that is here
But I am afraid
I am afraid of the dark

I quit this league
This team where no ones free
I'll set down my weapons
Just so I can breathe
I've spent my whole life hoping for tomorrow
When all that ever comes is the pain before the sorrow
What happened to the times
When we were free to be ourselves?
Now we're all locked up
With our hopes up on the shelves
We create all these wars just to be equal
But when they say it's over
I know that there's a sequel
What will we say 
When the kids want to understand? 
That our world is perfect? 
Will we let them know our plan?
We judge everyone
Based on all their looks
We know every crease
And until the day comes
There will never be peace