If
your heart is always breaking,
cause the world is just not fair.
When you're at your worst your friend's the first one
there.
If someone moves in 'round the corner,
and you want to show him you care.
So you give him all your last month of vacation,
and all of the time you can spare.
But then on the first day of classes,
he acts like you're not even there..
Then he doesn't know.
He'll never know what it means,
to be a friend.
<3
Last night, there was a candle light
vigil held at my school for my principal last year who passed
away.
After the basketball
game, we watched a video and lit the candles, then we had a
silent walk out to the track. I walked with a big group of my
friends, and the guy I like, Ryan, happened to be one of them.
Everyone gathered on the football field, and I ended up standing
next to Ryan. We were in the front. There were some speakers
sharing memories and stuff, all representing different groups.
Tyler, who wrote a poem, and Alex, representing the present
students, are like my brothers. They both live on my street and
I've always been really close to them. Then, David, my cousin
who I'm really close to, represented the alumni of our
school. They all cried. Watching 3 guys who I'm super close
to cry like that, hurt. On top of being in a sad environment in
the first place. By the time Alex started crying, I broke down.
Ryan looked at me and saw that I was crying, and pulled me in and
held me. With only one arm, because the other was holding a
candle, but still. Every time he heard me start to cry again
(there was a lot of comedic relief in their speeches), he'd
pull me closer, and rub my arm. I pulled away because I got some
tears on his hoodie, and I said sorry and he looked at me and
shook his head and said "I don't care" and pulled
me in tighter. Then we had a silent walk around the track and he
kept his arm around me the whole time. Even though our friend
Matt was crying, and I stopped. Matt obviously needed him wayy
more then I did, he still stuck with me. After the silent walk,
me, Ryan, Matt, and our friend Trevor stood in a group for a bit.
Ryan hugged Matt finally and he started crying, so I hugged him
again. Then Matt left so me Ryan and Trevor were all just
standing in a circle, and I started crying again because I saw my
best friend Katy and I hugged her and we cried, so Trevor hugged
me, but then he had to leave. So it was just me and Ryan standing
there for a little bit. I was still crying and he was staring at
me for a bit waiting for me to put my hand down because I was
biting my nails. He hugged me for a really long time and he
started crying again. Then we talked for a little bit, and he did
everything he could to make me laugh. Then he had to leave
because he had to drive someone else home. He said goodbye and I
hugged him again and thanked him because he was my support system
all night. Before he left, he was like "I'll text you.
Are you going to be okay?" and I said yeah and stuff and he
asked me if I was okay like 10 more times before he left. Then he
hugged me one more time and we said goodbye and stuff. Then later
we were texting and he was telling me how glad he was that he
hugged me and that he could be there for me. He's such a
sweetheart and I'm so glad I have a friend like
him<3.
Today,
I found out that my principal that retired last year passed away.
Please keep the Jackson family in your prayers. He was a great
man that touched so many lives. He was truly one of the greatest
men out there. <3.
Even after retiring, he
still came to every single sporting event for us. He supported
the heck out of our school. He made LCN the way it is today, and
we have so much Crusader PRIDE.<3
R.I.P. Mr. Jackson.
Crusader Nation will never be the same without
you</3.