You
want to know why I'm depressed? Do you want to
know?
-You leave me out of everything. It makes me feel like I'm
not good enough.
-I can't just hang out with one person, someone always wants
to invite someone else. It makes me feel like I'm not good
enough.
-When I'm uncomfortable with doing something, you guys get
upset. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
-When ever I try to talk, you guys interrupt and don't let me
finish. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
-You will all sit there laughing about something I'm not a
part of. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
-You all make me feel like I'm not good enough.
That's
why.
Dear Jazmin,
I think this is like the fourth
quote I've made
about you. I hope you're reading them up there
haha. It's been 13 days since you went to heaven.
I've been thinking about you a lot today.
Well, I think about you a lot every day.
You're beautiful face is my screen saver.
Every time I open my phone...there you are.
As beautiful as you always were. I still
can't believe you're gone. I don't think it will
ever sink in actually. I don't feel like you're
gone, I just feel like you moved or something.
The thing that plays in my mind the most is
"Our dear friend,
Jazmin Page, took her own life last
night."
It makes me sick every time I
think of it. I actually
feel bad for Mr. Casavant too because he had
to tell our grade that. I mean, who would want
to say that to a huge group of 13-14 year olds?
You know what else I play in my mind a lot?
Your laugh.
Your laugh always filled the classroom or the hallway.
So did your voice in general. You were so loud
and happy all of the time.
But I guess what they say about how
much a smile can hide is true.
I thought you were the happiest person alive...
besides Anna haha. But it's true, you were always so,
SO happy. There were always times I thought
you would never shut up! Hahaha
But I guess that's what I loved most about you.
I think that maybe I was jealous of your
happiness and your carefreeness. I'm always
so consumed in my school work and trying to
get everything perfect but you were always
laughing and talking and doing your work
at the same time. Plus, you were SO smart.
You had such an amazing future infront of you.
I heard you wanted to be a lawyer.
You could have done it Jazmin, I know you could have.
You could have even been the next Judge Judy.
"Judge Jazmin".
...But you threw it all away. I miss you so much Jazmin,
it hurts.
Promise to meet me at the gates and tell me everything will be
okay?
Promiiseee???
Okay haha. Love and miss you Jazmin
<3
Rest easy
<3