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Josh-
Hey sweetie. So I am lying in bed currently day dreaming (you know me) and I began to think of baby names. I just wanted to run it by you though, first.
Girl - Kaitlyn, Gemma, Rose, Jameson, Peyton, Natalie, and Katniss, (for obvious reasons :D)
Boy - Josh (duh.) Andrew, Mark, Carson, Charlie, Nick, Matt, and Peeta (i think you were right about that whole obsessive thing)
These sound okay to you? Okay, I like them too :D

Josh-
So I'm leaving for Switzerland tomorrow, and it's going to be so awful. I don't want to even get on a plane knowing I'm pregnant. I don't know why, but I just don't. Oh well. I'll take lots of pictures for you. I'll take tons. I really will. I'll put them up on Facebook and everything. I'm just more worried about when I get back. How will I tell everyone? I'm so scared... Mark really misses you. We were the three best friends, you know. We all grew up together. I mean our parents are best friends, it was kind of inevitable. I haven't told him yet, Josh. Will he be mad? Will he be angry? I'm so upset and lost and I have no idea what to do without you. Give me a sign, sweetheart...
P.S. The Hunger Games are coming out March 23rd... I thought we were going together...

Dear Josh,
So today I found out I was pregnant, with your child. And you're not here. You're gone. I miss you. We miss you... I'm sure of it. I can't even believe it at all. I want you back so much. You were my everything, my life. I remember when we were eating out for your birthday with your parents and mine, and you said, "We want to get married." They were quiet for a minute, and almost on cue they all said, "After college, right?" Your face lit up and you laughed. "Of course!" Then they began to smile, and congratulated us. I loved that day. Our parents are the best, aren't they? Your mom came with me and my mom to the doctors today. She was so sweet and so supportive, and afterwards once we found out, she said, "Josh wishes he was here..." and all I could say was, "I know." You do want to be here, don't you? I hope so, 'cause I sure wish you were here...

No one knows yet. I don't want to tell anyone. They're going to make fun of me; I know it. "Sl*t.." "Wh*re.." "Sk*ank.." I can tell it's all coming. Eventually the kids at school will find out, but they'll be shocked. Josh and I were the poster couple. I think, that's what I've heard from Lucy, my best friend. She's here for me. I'm so grateful for her. She's sworn not to tell any one, not even when I decide to. I think everyone deserves a friend like Lucy.

I'm a pretty normal teenager. I guess. I mean, today I found out I was pregnant, but a lot of teenage girls are pregnant, right? I mean, I'm not a sl*t. I've only done it once. And it was with someone I love. Loved. My parents are okay; they understand. His parents are okay; they understand. But I don't know if he is; I don't know if he would...


Because he just passed away...