Dear witty,
I feel its time to just let everthing out.
Warning this might not make sence to everyone. In elementry i
was popular, i had tons of friends and was always happy. Once I got
into middle school all my friends went to a different middle school
than me so i had no friends. I was ugly so people made fun of me
everyday. People called me names like stupid, ugly, loaner, and
many more. You would think that names are nothing but after a while
you start to beleive them. No one would talk to me or come near me
because they didnt want the "cool kids" to see them with
me the "nobody". I was the easy target. I sat alone at
lunch, I workd alone on group projects, i would get pushed down the
stairs and around the halls. It made me feel awful I didnt
understand why people choose me to pick on. It made me feel
worthless. I was alone. I became depressed I would fail my
classes, I would go home and cry everyday. I did what ever it took
to get a friend but no one wanted to be friends with me. I came to
a point where I didnt even want to live any more. So i tryd to kill
myself a few times. After a year I found someone who became my
"friend" but i found out the hard way that all that
person wanted was a person to cheet off of and some one to blame
for her mistakes. Because of her I almost expelled from school a
few times but i didnt care because she was all i had. But luckly at
the end of 8th grade and beginning of 9th I met someone who didnt
care what others thought of me or who i hung out with. I ended up
leaving the girl who was an awlful friend and i started my life
over. The girl i met became one of my best friends and introduced
me to her friends. I felt so confident around her and because of
her I became a whole new person. I made tons of new friends and
learnd how to trust people. I became a part of a group/click but
they were the kind of people who didnt judge. For the first time in
such a long time I felt wanted. But like all good things it didnt
last. I ended up getting into a huge fight with her about somthing
that to tell you the truth I cant remember but it was enough to
break us up. when we broke up so did me and the group. Most of them
dont talk to me anymore but the once that do I am so thankfull for.
To tell you the truth I would do anything to get them all back. But
after that i became depressed again so I started to fail my classes
again so i got kicked out of my school and now i go to a different
school I have made new friends but I am still depressed.
If you read all of this
thanx