My1Diary
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I want to remain anonymous c:
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All i think about is killing myself.
How all my pain would go away, and the funny thing is: No one would miss me at all. I'm such a dissapointment, A waste of space, I don't deserve to be here. I just want to die. So bad, and the only thing that can help me stay positive, is that i'll ruin my best friend's life. That's all thats stopping me, she doesnt know that she's the reason im still alive. I just can't take it anymore though. I want to go away forever. These thoughts can never leave my mind. Ever. I have no one to talk to, i've brought up suicide billions of times, but no one asks me if i am ok. thats all i want though...someone who opens up first.
Suicide is my only way out.
Would it be bad to make myself
throw up?
Would i become skinnier?
Would i become skinnier?
I wonder what it's like to be thin, smart, and pretty.
I just want that feeling for just one second if that's all i can get, but i'm worthless
I just want that feeling for just one second if that's all i can get, but i'm worthless
why can't i be skinnier? can anyone help me on how to lose weight, in a healthy way, because i just want to make myself purposfully throw-up I'm not asking to be a size 00 (although i'd like to be) i just want to be skinnier, but no one cares on witty, why? because this quote isn't about One Direction, or someone wanting to kill themselves, i know i have tried before, because i'm fat? No because people hate me because i'm fat, im not the "supermodel" that most of the girls at my school are. I just want to lose weight, i just want advice, or tips, just help. Thats what i want. Help.
Dear Joseph,
Where do i begin? I've loved you ever since i could remember. I can't stand it when we don't talk. i just love the little things you do. Kinda like yesterday, you made me sit on your lap :3. But then, when Mandy comes along, it's all about her. I had to leave one of the happiest places ever ~i was with you~ but you love Mandy. i know you do. its too obvious. i mean, you've probably known her all your life, and you've only known me for like 5 years. I know that you want to be more than friends with her, its as clear as day. I just miss you. We've stopped talking like we used to, and the dumbest part is, i still think i have a chance with you. I would kill to look like Mandy. To be her. I love the way you act around her, you're yourself with her. Your smile is to die for, gosh you're perfection. I like your friends, i wish they where my friends too. Their smart, and funny and outgoing, just like you...i love the things you say, how you don't want a girl that's perfect, that doesn't look like a model, you wouldn't want you're little girl to look like that. Those are the exact words you've said, it makes me love you even more. I wish i had the guts to tell you this, but i don't even have the guts to write this on my main account. i wish that we could be friends, just friends, that's when I'm happiest, with you. You make me feel beautiful, no one does, not even my best guy friend. I'm comfortable around you. That doesn't happen to often with me. I love the way you treat everyone around you, how you don't let anyone get to you. The way you joke around all the time. But you could be serious too. Or the way that you choose me to be your partner for that magic trick c: i wish you felt the same, oh how perfect that would be. No worries, no heartaches, just us. You and Me. that's what i wish for when the clock strikes 11:11, i don't wish for money, or one direction, or to have high self-esteem, i want you more than anything in this whole world. I've never felt this way about anyone, ever. I don't think of you as a crush. You're much more to me. I wish you felt the same, but whatever you do, just please don't forget me. Ever. I'll never forget you, and that's a promise that I've kept to myself. I've picked up my grades, as stupid as it sounds, i did it so we could be in the same classes. I want you to be a part of my life. I may sound creepy, throughout this whole letter. But it's everything that's in my heart, My heart sinks when you whisper in Mandy's ear, or when you put your arm around her, or whenever you glance her way, or whenever she's talking to a guy, you come over, and i know that she feels what you feel. It kills me inside...I'll never be good enough for you. Not for anyone. I don't know what I'd do without you. as dramatic i may sound, i really have no clue...
Where do i begin? I've loved you ever since i could remember. I can't stand it when we don't talk. i just love the little things you do. Kinda like yesterday, you made me sit on your lap :3. But then, when Mandy comes along, it's all about her. I had to leave one of the happiest places ever ~i was with you~ but you love Mandy. i know you do. its too obvious. i mean, you've probably known her all your life, and you've only known me for like 5 years. I know that you want to be more than friends with her, its as clear as day. I just miss you. We've stopped talking like we used to, and the dumbest part is, i still think i have a chance with you. I would kill to look like Mandy. To be her. I love the way you act around her, you're yourself with her. Your smile is to die for, gosh you're perfection. I like your friends, i wish they where my friends too. Their smart, and funny and outgoing, just like you...i love the things you say, how you don't want a girl that's perfect, that doesn't look like a model, you wouldn't want you're little girl to look like that. Those are the exact words you've said, it makes me love you even more. I wish i had the guts to tell you this, but i don't even have the guts to write this on my main account. i wish that we could be friends, just friends, that's when I'm happiest, with you. You make me feel beautiful, no one does, not even my best guy friend. I'm comfortable around you. That doesn't happen to often with me. I love the way you treat everyone around you, how you don't let anyone get to you. The way you joke around all the time. But you could be serious too. Or the way that you choose me to be your partner for that magic trick c: i wish you felt the same, oh how perfect that would be. No worries, no heartaches, just us. You and Me. that's what i wish for when the clock strikes 11:11, i don't wish for money, or one direction, or to have high self-esteem, i want you more than anything in this whole world. I've never felt this way about anyone, ever. I don't think of you as a crush. You're much more to me. I wish you felt the same, but whatever you do, just please don't forget me. Ever. I'll never forget you, and that's a promise that I've kept to myself. I've picked up my grades, as stupid as it sounds, i did it so we could be in the same classes. I want you to be a part of my life. I may sound creepy, throughout this whole letter. But it's everything that's in my heart, My heart sinks when you whisper in Mandy's ear, or when you put your arm around her, or whenever you glance her way, or whenever she's talking to a guy, you come over, and i know that she feels what you feel. It kills me inside...I'll never be good enough for you. Not for anyone. I don't know what I'd do without you. as dramatic i may sound, i really have no clue...
Girl meets a boy on her yahoo messenger:
crazy1 86: hey baby!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: who is this???
crazy1 86: ur secret admirer!!!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: oh really....quit lyin! who is this???
crazy1 86: i loved u the first time a stared in your eyes...
crazy1 86: i think about u everyday... you are my dream come true.
crazy1 86: we met once! i dont think u remember tho.
crazy1 86: i cut myself because the pain takes away my feelings of u.
crazy1 86: u will see me sometime tonight....
h0tNsPiCy91: ..WHO IS THIS!?!?!?
crazy1 86:dont worry.... ill take very good care of you...
crazy1 86 had signed off.
The girl was so scared she locked all her doors and windows. She made sure her room was secured. She wasn't sure if it was a joke or for real. She didn't know when he was going to come. The girl was so frightened she decided to sleep with her little sister. The girl dozed off quickly.
Then she heard a knock on the window. The girl slowly walked to the window. It started knocking louder. The girl looked through the windows and saw nothing... just some of the tree branches. The girl went back to bed with her sister. The bed was wet and had a pretty horrid smell. Maybe her sister wet the bed... the girl checked and found blood everywhere. The girl panicked. She didn't know what to do. She ran and hid in the closet in case the killer was there for her. While looking through the cracks of the closet the girl saw a shadow. It was dark, so she couldn't figure out who it was. She started to get more frightened. The shadow crept closer to the closet. The girl closed her eyes as if it was a dream. Then suddenly he opened the closet door and pulled her out.
Her parents found her dead the next morning. She was completely skinned and hanging in her sister's closet. The younger sister was also found skinned and dead.
PART 2...
Two years after the Smith sisters deaths, the parents had a baby boy. The girl's room became a guest room and the little sister's room where the murder took place became the baby's room. The baby grew up to be a successful kid.
One night he was on the computer and received an instant messege.
h0tNsPiCy91: Hey lil bro!!!
2seXay4u: Who is this?
h0tNsPiCy91: It's your big sis.
2seXay4u: I never had a sister. I'm an only child.
2seXay4u: This is some kinda joke, huh?
h0tNsPiCy91: Mom and dad never told you?
h0tNsPiCy91: I died 15 years ago with your other older sister.
h0tNsPiCy91: We were murdered in your room which was once my little sister's room. She was killed in bed when I was sleeping. I was killed in the closet and skinned to death.
2seXay4u: Quit lying. I never had a sister. If I did my parents would have told me. Whatever. Your stupid.
h0tNsPiCy91: You don't believe me? Well if you wanna look in your closet floor.
h0tNsPiCy91: I carved my name and the time and date I was being murdered. Then I carved my little sister's name.
h0tNsPiCy91: If you don't believe me little brother check the internet. Google on ''Smith sisters murdered anonymously''.
h0tNsPiCy91: I gtg little brother. I love you and mom and dad soo much. I can't believe they kept us a secret from you. They should burn in hell.
The boy checked the closet. He saw the carvings. Was it true? He surfed the internet and information was there about the anonymous murder in the house. The next morning the boy went downstairs. It was so quiet. Maybe his parents were sleeping. Hours later the boy found his parents in their closet skinned and hung. Then he found more carvings on the ground. They said ''I TOLD YOU I WASN'T LYING LITTLE BROTHER, I LOVED MOM AND DAD.... BUT THEY KEPT ME A SECRET. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. WELL I'M FREE FROM THIS COLD WORLD, I WON'T HURT YOU LIKE I HURT THEM. I LOVE YOU!"
- LISA SMITH
This is a death chain letter. If you don't repost this in the next hour, the parents of Lisa and the little girl will haunt you...i know its fulla shoot but its spooky
crazy1 86: hey baby!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: who is this???
crazy1 86: ur secret admirer!!!!!
h0tNsPiCy91: oh really....quit lyin! who is this???
crazy1 86: i loved u the first time a stared in your eyes...
crazy1 86: i think about u everyday... you are my dream come true.
crazy1 86: we met once! i dont think u remember tho.
crazy1 86: i cut myself because the pain takes away my feelings of u.
crazy1 86: u will see me sometime tonight....
h0tNsPiCy91: ..WHO IS THIS!?!?!?
crazy1 86:dont worry.... ill take very good care of you...
crazy1 86 had signed off.
The girl was so scared she locked all her doors and windows. She made sure her room was secured. She wasn't sure if it was a joke or for real. She didn't know when he was going to come. The girl was so frightened she decided to sleep with her little sister. The girl dozed off quickly.
Then she heard a knock on the window. The girl slowly walked to the window. It started knocking louder. The girl looked through the windows and saw nothing... just some of the tree branches. The girl went back to bed with her sister. The bed was wet and had a pretty horrid smell. Maybe her sister wet the bed... the girl checked and found blood everywhere. The girl panicked. She didn't know what to do. She ran and hid in the closet in case the killer was there for her. While looking through the cracks of the closet the girl saw a shadow. It was dark, so she couldn't figure out who it was. She started to get more frightened. The shadow crept closer to the closet. The girl closed her eyes as if it was a dream. Then suddenly he opened the closet door and pulled her out.
Her parents found her dead the next morning. She was completely skinned and hanging in her sister's closet. The younger sister was also found skinned and dead.
PART 2...
Two years after the Smith sisters deaths, the parents had a baby boy. The girl's room became a guest room and the little sister's room where the murder took place became the baby's room. The baby grew up to be a successful kid.
One night he was on the computer and received an instant messege.
h0tNsPiCy91: Hey lil bro!!!
2seXay4u: Who is this?
h0tNsPiCy91: It's your big sis.
2seXay4u: I never had a sister. I'm an only child.
2seXay4u: This is some kinda joke, huh?
h0tNsPiCy91: Mom and dad never told you?
h0tNsPiCy91: I died 15 years ago with your other older sister.
h0tNsPiCy91: We were murdered in your room which was once my little sister's room. She was killed in bed when I was sleeping. I was killed in the closet and skinned to death.
2seXay4u: Quit lying. I never had a sister. If I did my parents would have told me. Whatever. Your stupid.
h0tNsPiCy91: You don't believe me? Well if you wanna look in your closet floor.
h0tNsPiCy91: I carved my name and the time and date I was being murdered. Then I carved my little sister's name.
h0tNsPiCy91: If you don't believe me little brother check the internet. Google on ''Smith sisters murdered anonymously''.
h0tNsPiCy91: I gtg little brother. I love you and mom and dad soo much. I can't believe they kept us a secret from you. They should burn in hell.
The boy checked the closet. He saw the carvings. Was it true? He surfed the internet and information was there about the anonymous murder in the house. The next morning the boy went downstairs. It was so quiet. Maybe his parents were sleeping. Hours later the boy found his parents in their closet skinned and hung. Then he found more carvings on the ground. They said ''I TOLD YOU I WASN'T LYING LITTLE BROTHER, I LOVED MOM AND DAD.... BUT THEY KEPT ME A SECRET. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. WELL I'M FREE FROM THIS COLD WORLD, I WON'T HURT YOU LIKE I HURT THEM. I LOVE YOU!"
- LISA SMITH
This is a death chain letter. If you don't repost this in the next hour, the parents of Lisa and the little girl will haunt you...i know its fulla shoot but its spooky
Would It Be Bad If I Purposefully Made Myself Throw Up?
I'm 5'4, 13, and i weigh 130 lbs...my mom weighs that
much, and i NEED to loose weight fast, i went bathing suit
shopping today, and i couldn't but any bikini's because
I'm so fat :'(
i was sobbing when i came home, because i want to be like the
pretty girls at school. I just can't do it, I've
been exercising and eating healthy this WHOLE month...but
it's not working. Any tips guys?