Diary Entry (3) April 18th, 2013
Worst. Day. Ever. I almost didn't even make an entry because
it's been an emotional day. So, Carsen read my email saying
that I liked him. Keep in mind we've been friends for 3
years. You would think you know someone by then. He sat down next
to me today and said, "You did a bad job of hiding it. I
knew you liked me." Then the people around started saying
stuff like, "Oh, do you like her back?" You know what
he said? He said, "I wouldn't date her in a million
years. I'd rather walk home from school which is really far
away than date her. She can't do anything to be my type.
Ever." Can you fully understand how much this hurts? I
almost broke down and started crying right there. I kept myself
from crying, though, because I didn't want him to see me in
tears. When I got home, I locked myself in the bathroom and just
cried. I've been in tears off and on the whole rest of the
day. And I know what you're thinking, Oh he's an a$$.
You could do so much better. But the thing is, I loved him.
I honestly, truly, fell in love in love with him, and for him to
just completely shut me out after it took me 3 years to actually
fess up how I felt for him hurts more than anything. I'm
slowly falling apart, dear diary. I don't know what to do.