It's official.
Everyone hates me.
Friday was the okay day that went awful. So, at school, I had
done a lot of math, which I'm failing, so I took a break to
play Temple Run on one of the iPads. This b*tch who never pays
attention to me sees I'm playing and yells, "WHAT THE
F*CK?! SHE GETS TO PLAY TEMPLE RUN WHILE WE WORK? THAT'S NOT
FAIR!" Our teacher tries to calm her down, but she says,
"No, it's not f*cking fair!" I try to ignore her.
Then the good guy turned *sshole speaks up and says, "I hate
her so much, too!" Our teacher says, "You can't
mean that." And the *sshole says, "No, I do."
This, I didn't ignore. I say to him, "I f*cking hate
you, too!" And I go to write a note down on the iPad, and I
try not to let it get to me. But it does, and I start crying. I
turn off the iPad and wipe my eyes, hoping that when I get up I
can take a deep breath and walk away with dignity. But when I get
up, I know that they're looking at me and staring and I just
start crying unconrtollably. The only person who helps me? My
teacher. I go outside and sit down in the hall and just cry. He
tries calming me down, but eventually it leads to me going
upstairs to talk with the counselor. And everything comes out,
how I know I'm hated by everyone and how I'm a b*tch to
everyone and how I don't think before I speak and how I was
about ready to crack some skulls when the b*tch who saw me
playing the game started talking trash about my girlfriend. And
now the counselor knows I'm secretly dating and I'm
worried that she's going to tell my parent and that I'll
never be able to date until I move out. Jeez, my life freaking
sucks.