MyNameIsJeffAndThisIsMyStory

Socially Awkward:
Um... uh hi.. uh I uh um I'm jeff uh i have to go now bye

Awkwardly Social:
HII'MJEFFWHAT'SYOURNAMEILIKEYOUR
SHOESWOAHCOOLEYESWHATCOLORISTHAT
LIKEMYSTICAQUAMARINEBLUEBROWNPURPLE
DIRTYSIENNAOKAYIHAVETOGONOWBYE

hey. I'm Jeff.






                                     Dad: finish your homework, and then write up a list of people you
                                     wanna invite to your birthday party
                                     Me: okay
                                     Dad: cuz we wanna know if it will be like 5, 10, or 20 people
                                     Me: or 30 or 40
                                     Dad: lol you don't have friends though
                                     Me:
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true story

Hey.
I'm Jeff.
I'm not the best at sports.
I'm pretty good at art,
I keep all my friends
close to my heart.
I like to sing
and I do all the time.
I like writing poems
and I always make the them rhyme.
Marina and the Diamonds
is my favorite band.
I like long walks
along the sand.
Almost all
my friends are girls.
I work on my hair,
I hate my curls.
Does all this info
Make me gay?
Did you assume that's
what I was going to say?
Well I've had two girlfriends,
and I snowboard in the winter.
I can run fast.
Some would call me a sprinter.
I play tennis
six times a week.
Maybe next time
you should think before you speak.

Sorry It's not the best, I whipped It up real fast. It doesn't have consistant sylable amounts and although I run fast I doubt anyone would call me a sprinter. Nothing else rhymed with winter except printer and splinter, I didn't know how to fit those in.

About 90% of my friends are girls.
People call me gay because of that.
But isn't it more gay
to hang out with only guys?
Think before you speak.
Because words can hurt.
 

Often, my family will make me feel bad.
They will make me feel like a want to cry
in someone else's arms.
Yet there's no one there to embrace,
but myself.

 

Hey.
I'm Jeff.
Just wanted to get this off my chest.
In 6th through 8th grade i had weight issues. I wouldn't say I was obese, but i was "chubby." It kinda crushed my self esteem. I wouldn't change in locker rooms in front of "jocks" and other boys, I never took my shirt off in pools, I never felt happy with myself.

Now I'm in highschool. I lost all the weight from getting serious about sports. I started working out a lot freshman year, (this year) and all I've ever wanted was that perfect body. You walk into american eagle. You see these good looking guys with abs and you know you will never be as attractive as them.

Now i actually take my shirt of when going into pools. But i still have a deathly fear of people seeing me and judging me as the kid who doesn't play sports, isnt as fit as his peers. The fat kid. I knew I'd be going to the beach a lot this summer, often with a lot of my friends who are female. So i set a goal to have abs by summer. A really intimidating goal for me, since i still look in the mirror and see... something fat and ugly.

Recently I got abs... almost. I still have to suck in my stomach and squeeze my core really tight, but i do have abs, and with a little more working out I know they will show. You dont know how proud of my self i am. It's the first time I have seen myself as attractive rather than repulsive.

Reading over this now, I sound like someone who is bragging about abs. But really i just want to express the little self confidence I have stirred up from the depths of my being in a place where I know I can trust people.

Sorry this is so long, and I doubt people will read it. But if you do, I really appreciate it. thank you :)