Never_LetGo_

Status: * Music is my Escape *
Joined: February 18, 2012
Last Seen: 2 months
user id: 275600
Gender: F
Ohhey(: My name is Sam.
I'm 15 (;
People think that I'm that crazy& outgoing girl they seem to know so well even when I'm by myself. But that isn't always the case..
Sure I'm open with people and tell them about myself and stuff, but there's so much about me that I don't even know; let alone can tell other people about.
I get that random feeling that I'm just gunna have a breakdown and I don't even know why.. is that weird?
Nevermind don't answer that... 
well uhh anyways....
 ~ just a few things;
my girlfriend, friends && music are pretty much my whole life <3, wouldn't be able to live without them :)
well, here's my Witty. (: ~ <3
 
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i haven't been on here in a long time..
and neither have my friends so i think im going to go on here and vent when i need to... i use my tumblr a lot for that but they all know it... and i dont mind that they do but idk...

i dont really have anything to say right now.. and i dont know if i actually will use this again..? but maybe i guess.




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i am so in love with her.
16 months yesterday <3

~5.21.11
I cut last night.
i havent told anyone yet but i willl. and im having a horrile day today already. but my girlfriend's making me happier and my friend is coming over later so sleepover. but i just want today to end i've felt sick since i woke up and i cried for a little while. meh. maybe tonight will be better becasue my brother finally got me that bottle of UV blue and my friend and i might open it. soooo yeah. oh and i miss my girlfriend. i hope ill see her for our 15 month on tuesday <3 anyways i hope the day only gets better from here *knocks on wood*


i still cant find the da.mn vent category.
 

I haven't done it in a while.. you know, cut.
But I really want to. I've been wanting too. But the timing is never right.. It's hard to explain but it's true. The last time was  August 2nd I guess. But I've broken down a lot and reallly really want too. Maybe I will later. But then I feel like the timing isn't right for today either because I had a good day so I don't want anyone feeling like I didn't. But I really want to. I guess I'll just see what happens like I always do. Yuppp.



oh and where the heck is the vent category?
 




I just want to express my excitement; 
my girlfriend comes home from SC today :D ive been having withdrawl






"you're beautiful; so
don't cut yourself."


that's what my girlfriend said to me. and even
though i know i can't stop, that makes me want to.
nmf

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last night i cut my legs again and
its more noticible than last time

in two days; im going to walkins glen
for vacation.ill be in a bathing suit a lot.
here comes the soccer shorts to cover my thigh?


 

I'm really sorry for
 
upsettting everyone, 

I never meant to make the people I care about worry and feel bad
 and feel like they need to be there for me. I like to be by myself sometimes.. but I mean I guess I understand they care about me and blah blah blah but I feel bad when you ask me questions and don't believe me or think that I'm keeping things from you when I says " I don't know"... Because I really DON'T know why I do that to myself; why I make myself sad on purpose and don't know what I'm thinking and scratch and stab and cut my legs... I know you don't want it to get worse and I really don't think it will but maybe it will.. but if it does I'm still fine arent I? well I don't know if I am.. I'm a little messed up. haaa jk more than a little... but I don't even know in what way or how or how my mind works I'm just complicated and I'm REALLY sorry for making you worry and feel bad.. but I promise I'm trying to figure it out and when I do I PROMISE I'll tell you.. maybe not right away but I will. I think I mainly keep to myself because I don't want people to worry because they have their own problems and I shouldn't be added to that list.. And I like keeping everything "bottled up" because I don't even know how to explain myself or what to say or when to say it.. But I'm trying I guess. And thanks for being there for me.. Even though I don't really need it. Well I think I don't? I don't know... but anyways... I'm sorry for making you sad and worried and upset... I don't mean too, this is why I've kept it to myself for so long.. you don't deserve to be sad over me. And like I said, I'm really really sorry. 

nmf

 

I had that sad gunna-break-down feeling;
but then shmade me smile.   
and now I can't stop :)
Just another one of those nights;



Listen to music, sit at my window, and cry myself to sleep. Goodnight Witty.