PLEASE DON'T KILL
YOURSELF
"If you commit
suicide...I don't even know. Like, I
don't even know what would happen to you. All I
really know is what happens to the people around
you after you die. I think it'll be really hard for your
family to live normally for a long time. And, uhm, if
you commit suicide, people will miss you. A LOT.
If you commit suicide, your brother, your sister,
your mother, your friend, your boyfriend, your
girlfriend, your child...all those people...Who
really really love you will be really f*cking confused
for the rest of their lives. And really angry. And...
really jealous. I'm jealous of everyone who has a
sister. You know? It's been six years since she
died. And it's still really hard to talk about, I
mean,
you know, just a real way. Cause I can say a sentence
here or there in a video, and it feels good to talk about.
Especially when I'm trying to put a message out there.
But like, I mean at the end of the day you know there
is someone who's supposed to be in your life and their
not...And they never will be again. It just forces you
to ask yourself a lot of questions you're never going
to get the answer to, so it just feels like a lot of
unnecessary
pain, and like brooding, and agonizing. It feels...so sh*tty,
and unfair, and that you'll wrestle with these same
emotions
over and over again, every time you think about it. So you
try not to think of it. But then if you don't think about it,
you
can't work your way through it. But working your way
through
it sucks because there is just so much of it everywhere.
Everywhere
you turn, it's there. It influences who you are. It's like
before
and after this event that you did, I am a different person. And
I don't know if it's for the better or for the worse. But
I... f*cking
hate you and I f*cking love you."
J U S
T D O N ' T D O I T .