NoOneWillEverUnderstand

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Joined: March 3, 2012
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Quotes by NoOneWillEverUnderstand



shouldn't have friends


 All they do is make me feel loved then rip my heart

out. They frustrate me and backstabb me and

confuse me. You think a person is one thing and then


theturn  out to be a different person.   

I'm going to completely break down one day .
one day you will all see, you'll all see the damadge 

youv'e caused. 

 

Would you just stop it?
I just feel worse and worse everyday now and that fact that you're blaming yourself for my mental issues that started way before i even MET you is just making me feel worse. Thats all I do isn't it? Make your life worse, right? You try and tell me that I make it better but I don't, all I do is make you feel bad because I'm depressed. You make me so angry sometimes but I can't tell you because you'll feel worse. I feel like I can't tell you anything anymore without making you feel so sad. Can't you see that I'm mad at you? Now i feel sorry for you, no I dont want you in my life and now I do and you're just so confusing and I don't understand you anymore. So many thoughts are going through my head and i'm feeling so many different things and I just want it all to stop. I just want to be left alone to be numb and feel nothing. I can't stop crying and everytime you say something right now its making me worse, but again I cant tell you because it'll make you feel bad and I can't do that to you so for your sake and mine just leave me alone and let me sort myself out.

Stop trying to fix me.
I'm not alright. 
I'm broken inside.
And all I go through.
It leads me to you.




Why can't I just keep things to myself? Why, why, why why?!?! UGH! I just wish I where dead, everyone hates me anyways no one would care I deserve this, I deserve to have 2 of the people I care about most hate me. UGH 


 


 
l hate myself. What is

wrong with me? 

Honestly, how could I

even say that I'm so

stupid. No wonder

he doesnt want to 

talk to me right now

im such a horrible

disgusting person.



Friends to the end? Bullshi*
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Ugh.

How can you two just ditch me like that? You were never close friends before, NEVER. Now suddenly you're the best of friends? It doesn't make sense, you two were both my best friends but never talked to each other. Now you're both ditching me for each other, what is it? Suddenly I'm not fun to be around right? I knew you two would get bored with me sooner or later, I just knew it. You both make me so mad. I don't understand. It's insane that you don't even think of me, in fact you invite everyone but me, even though I'm probably one of your closet friends. Honestly what the actual f**k? All I do is sit around and cry most of the time, did you ever stop and think "hey maybe we should hang otu with her for a while so she's not so sad all the time?" no, of course you didn't. Because neither of you understand how sad I am all the time, how I burst into tears at the smallest things, how I feel so alone and sad all the time. I don't get how you two act like I'm not even here. You obviously just want to hang out with each other, before ou know it I'll be invisible to you. Because honestly I'm sick of you not noticing how depressed and suicidal I really am. I'm sick of feeling like you two don't want me around anymore, so I'm done. But don't worry, you're too busy with each other so you probably won't even notice when we stop talking.

I'm sick of you judging me all the time and telling me what to do. I'm not oblivious and stupid I don't lie about who I am and what I am. If I say I'm something then I'm not lieing to you. You just don't trust me enough and honestly I don't trust you with anything anymore, I'm sick of you always saying 'whatever' to my problems like they're nothing. I'm sick of you being over dramatic and saying that I think our friendship means nothing when I get mad at you. You say it every single time I get upset with you, believe it or not I can get upset with you without letting our whole freaking friendship go. I've fought with ne of my olderst friends for weeks and yet were still friends, it doesnt mean i let go of friendship it means leave me alone for a while so i can think and stopped being angry. If anything you're only making it worse by not leaving me alone. So stop treating me like I'm 5 and don't know a thing about anorexia when I do, I'm not and oblivious girl. Believe it or not I'm smart not stupid like you think I am, you think Ip;m being over dramatic but the truth is I'm not and I really just wish you would stop telling me who I am for once and actually care instead of criticize. Stop trying to make me feel guilty all the time! I'm ALLOWED to get mad at you! Stop pulling out the "our friendship means nothing to you" and the "you make me feel worse" card because it doesnt work!!!! I'm sick of you trying to pull that crap in me youre telling me who I am and completeley ignoring my cries for help, you're like my parents and all my other friends, you don't care obviously, maybe you do or maybe you did but it sure doesnt seem like it right now.

 





 


Would you jsut leave

me alone?