NormalnessLeadsToSadness

We're all a little weird and life's a little weird. And when we find somebody who's weirdness is compatible with ours, we fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. ~ Dr Seuss
I think I've fallen in mutual weirdness, but I just dont think they feel the same way.

Let's go back to the way that we were
Before we were us
Before I was me
 

Feeling replaced
Not just by my friends
But by my own family

I am stronger now than I was before.
This time I am here to stay

Getting into an argument with my mum over internet connection. Christ what is wrong with my family!

Witty is the only place I feel safe at the moment

I can feel myself slipping away again.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder what I've become. I look at my hair and see lifeless hair thats been dyed to an inch of its life, slowly I watch the roots grow back through and i'm reminded of who I was.
I look at my face and stare at the stranger in the mirror and take in each spot, every flaw I try to cover it with make up but then I feel fake.
I look at my body and see big boobs, massive hips and fat thighs.
In the mirror I see an incredibly self consious girl and I wonder what happened to the mousey girl in the corner who cared about nothing.

Friend: So do you like anyone?
Me: Get me chocolate ice cream, books and a laptop. Then watch me cry over all the people I like.
Friend: I meant real people.
Me: They are real...in my head
Friend: I give up
Me: *sits in a corner crying over fictional characters*

Possible acquaintance: so what sort of things are you into?
me: Internet
me: books
me: food... food counts as a thing right? I like food, do you have any?
Possible acquaintance:*walks away*
me: I'll take that as a no then