Oceanic_Eyes

i wish i still had my innocence. 

this is what i've done and for some reason it's working: i've put everything i've ever felt for him in this non-exsisting box in my brain.  i never plan on opening this box until i can actually manage to deal with how i feel for him . admitting this makes me feel a little insane . but it's helped me completely blocked every emotion i feel towards him . it's allowed me to really move on from him. from whatever the hell we were. and thankfully i also decided to place all my self esteem issues in there along with him. every insult , everything. and thanks to this i've bought three short shorts , two bikinis having no problem wearing them and i can finally feel worth something.

i give up trying.

for some reason i just thought the way you kissed me meant something.

 

the truth is , i was really looking forward to hanging out with you . right until you called me clingy. now i don't know if i want to be around you , i just feel like anything i do now to get closer to you will be considered clingy .

i've never been more then a one night stand to anyone.

i get very quiet when i'm asked to describe myself.
because growing up i was told if i'm going to say something mean i shouldn't say something at all.

i do something you want and you call me something i hate.