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Chapter 34
Lauren's POV
It was a long time before I wrote Collin back. About 3 months, I just couldn't find the time to do it, between teaching, baby check ups, and buying things for the baby, I had no spare time. I sat down, having to push back the chair, as my stomach was huge, I was 6 months pregnant. I slid into the counter and began to write, I was very discrete, managing to work around John, and the baby. I had just finished closing up the envelope when I heard a knock at the door. It startled me, but I rose to get the door. I looked throught the peephole and saw John's eyes. I screamed from the bottom of my throat silently, only so I could hear. And out of nowhere he screamed, "Lauren I know you're in there. I can see your car. Open." I covered my mouth and ran silently to my roomI slid the door shut and tried to sleep, I was tired and feel asleep within a minute. I woke up no more than 10 minutes later and saw John at the foot of my bed, he smiled, "Darling, when we concieved our baby, you gave me a key to your house. I hate to say, genius. you're a true genius." I froze in my bed and before I could move he was on top of me, I screamed, "The baby John." and he just laughed as he slowly slid under the blankets. I felt my sweats being pulled down and John's cold hands on my thighs. That's when I actually woke up, I felt my forehead, the sweat streaming down my face. It was just a dream. I smiled with relief but then started to cry. I needed help. I needed Collin... But I couldn't tell him. I could, never, tell him.
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Chapter 33
Lauren's POV
It
was a long wait. Waiting for the letter from Collin. Everyday the
baby would grow, and it was about two months later when I finally
recieved the letter from Collin. My belly was rounding up. I had
set the letter on the counter, afraid to read it. I slowly tore
the seal and slid the flimsy sheet of paper from the envelope, it
read,
Lauren, I'm so excited! We can finally be a family! Me, you,
and our baby. Boy or Girl.. you'll have to write me! Hey
babe, bad news, they scheduled me for another year, and they wont
let me come home before then! You're gonna have to be strong
for me, ok? The manager said I might be able to skype with you
around a holiday or something, so what is it now? July? So, lets
plan Christmas.. Love you Laur, and what's wrong?! What
happened.. what are you couping with..?! Love you! Write back
soon and I'll try to write back FASTER! Bye Laur, keep safe..
Keep our baby safe! And Hey! I love the name Parker.. and I
love.. the name Dylan, for a girl, or cody for a girl.. maybe
Conner for a boy.. but, whatever you want. <3 Collin
(:
I felt my insides twist.. "our baby" it was me and
John's baby.. I stood up and walked to the fridge, and saw
nothing I wanted. I grabbed my keys and drove to the market, I
wanted ice cream. I walked towards the ice cream aisle and chose
my ice cream, then I turned to go to the register I bpught
my food and left. I was to my car and had put my things in my
trunk. I turned around and ran into an all too familiar face.
John. He stood smiling and whispered, "Long time no see,
whatcha doing in this part of California?" I frowned and
said, "I would like to ask you the same question." I
repsonded quickly, but so did he, "I've missed you
Laura." I cringed at the name I had lied about, Yeah, me
too." I meant I missed myself but he took it the wrong way,
"Awhh, so do you wanna hook up?" He muttered in a sly
voice and I shook my head, "John, I cant." He looked at
me with confusion and as I tried to walk around him he grabbed me
by the waist and I felt his grip tense up, he pulled me into him
and before I could react, his lips were on mine. He bit my lip
and pulled away, "Remember this?" He chuckled,
"This?" He whispered as he kissed down my jaw. I tried
to push him away, but he pulled me closer, "And this
Laura?" He mumbled as his lips ran down my neck. I pushed
him away again and he just laughed, "You miss it." He
moved to my breasts and I was trapped between him and the car. I
knew what I had to do to get him away, "Okay John, I'm
pregnant?" HE looked at me with disgust and said,
"You're what?" Then he shoved me into the car, and
left. That night I cried myself to sleep
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Chapter 32
Collin's POV
It
was at least a week or 2 into my tour and I really missed Lauren,
but it was getting better. Out of no where I heard my name being
called. I directed my attention to the sargent who had 2
envelopes in his hand. I walked over, my heart racing and he set
them both inside my hand and then walked away. I saw one was from
my father and one from Lauren. I opened the one from my dad first
and it said things like, I forgive you and that he was proud,
then I opened the one from Laur. It read...
Dear Collin,
I know its only been a few days since you left, but I miss you to
pieces. I am having troubles couping with.. these things. But I
have a surprise, I'm pregnant, and I'll probably be in
labor before you come home, so lets think baby names. I love you
Collin and I cant wait till you come home.. I really.. I just
need you right now. Stay safe babe,
Love, Lauren
I was overjoyed but one thing that stuck out... what did she have
to coupe with... and why?
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Chapter 31
Lauren's POV
I sat
on the edge of my bed, as I had for the last 3 days. I had gotton
no sleep, no food, no hope. I was pregnant I looked at my wrists,
littered with bruises and I tried to keep my eyes open but as
they slowly drifted shut I was back to the familiar scene that
had been haunting me.
*FLASHBACK*
I sat in his car and he kept glancing at me with a wicked smile
plastered on his face, and through my distorted mind I smiled
back. He quickly parked the car on the side of the road. It was a
truck, the car, on of the ones with a covered tail gate. He
turned towards me and said, "Get in the back." I
frowned and he held up the bottle of whiskey, "Just for a
drink." And so I climbed over the seat, I felt his eyes
on my rear. And at the moment it made me feel loved, though it
was far from it. He laughed as he too climbed over the seat and
took a swig from the bottle then he handed it to me and I drank
about half in a few gulps and the alcohol worked its concequences
in fast because next thing I knew I was making out with the so
called John and within 30 minutes, we weren't clothed.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
I shuttered at the memories with had been flooding my thoughts. I
rubbed my stomach amd felt the tears running down my already tear
stained face. I mentally killed myself and I screamed and cried
until I had finally drifted off to sleep. I woke up 2 mornings
later, the fatigue really got to me. And I felt the evil thoughts
whispering to me once again. I ran to the desk and ripped a piece
of paper form a book. I had to write to Collin.
Dear Collin,
I know its only been a few days since you left, but I miss you to
pieces. I am having troubles couping with.. these things. But I
have a surprise, I'm pregnant, and I'll probably be in
labor before you come home, so lets think baby names. I love you
Collin and I cant wait till you come home.. I really.. I just
need you right now. Stay safe babe,
Love, Lauren
It wasn't to far from the truth, but it was most
definately
a lie.
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Chapter 30
Lauren's POV
I
walked on the tips of my toes out of the house. I had tears in my
eyes. I felt Collin's warm lips on mine and his hot tears on
my cheeks. He pulled away and pushed his forehead against mine.
"Laur.. Keep safe." I frowned and more tears fell form
his face, "Lauren. I love you, and I'm gonna miss
you." With that he kissed me again and I felt the tears
fall. "I'm gonna miss you too Collin. And you, you keep
safe." I saw his lips perk up. "I know.. write me
letters, because everyday I'm surviving physically, is a day
I'm gonna be dying mentally without you." He pulled me
into a hug and I cherished it. It was July, and Collin, was
leaving for his tour. I was going to miss him.. I had gotten a
part time teaching job.. it was sufficent. I waited in
Collin's grip until he loosened and walked to the cab that
was to drive him to the airport. Was this love? Yes, I knew it
was love, but was this what it was supposed to feel like? Pain. I
wanted Collin to stay. I needed him to stay. I really did. I
waved as the car drove off and I faked a smile, though I knew
Collin could see right through it. He always could. He read me
like a book, and I didnt know if I should be happy or sad about
that. But it was Collin, and I loved him to pieces. I rested my
hand on my stomach and watched the tv. This wasnt gonna be
an easy year. It was gonna be hard. No doubt. I stood up and
grabbed my car keys, as I was allowed to drive now. I drove to a
bar, but it was abar far away. I drove from our home in
Sacremento all the way to San diego, and ordered myself a drink.
I was a mess, and after a few more drinks, I was a drunk one too.
Uh-oh. I looked up through my swollen eyes and I saw a handsome
man standing beside me. I dont know why I though he was good
looking, I hadnt really looked at anyone the way I had a Collin,
but that night.. I saw Collin. The man turned to me, "Rough
night?" I smiled slightly, "Yeah, my uh.. someone in my
family left for the military today." Yeah.. that wasnt to
far frm the truth. He frowned, "Oh, I'm sorry. Hey. If
you need to talk, I'm here, I was in the military for the
past 3 years, my tour, just ended." I laughed through a
drunk mind. "We dont have to talk." He smiled and
leaned in close, our lips barely touching, "Like this?"
He whispered, laying his mouth on mine. He kissed me roughly, but
for some reason, probably my drunkedness, I kissed him back. I
pulled away, "Exactly." The man slid the bartender some
cash and said, "Get me and my friend some drinks to go
please." Teh bartender questioned him what.. and he smiled,
"The strongest you've got." He handed him some
hardcore whiskey in a bottle.. And then the man grabbed my hand,
"What's your name?" I whispered and he laughed,
"John. What about you?" I hesitated, "My name is
La- uhm Laura." He smiled at me I got into his car. I dont
know what I was thinking, "How old are you?" He
laughed, "I'm.. uhm.. 20" I smiled, "Me
too." I should've seen through that lie. We all know
what happened that night. And its something I regret with
everything I have. I cheated on Collin. I cheated on my husband,
who I loved, the night he left.. for war. And now I was
pregnant.. but it wasnt Collin's. It was,
"John's."
Rule #233958984: Lauren Tanner, should never get drunk.
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Chapter 29
Lauren's POV
I
walked slowly out of the hospital, cheerishing the air. Collin
must have noticed because he slowed his pace next to me. I
reached for his hand and he gladly accepted it. Everything was
perfect, even if Collin did go into the military field, because,
everything was perfect. I hopped into the truck and Collin sat in
beside me, "So, I was thinking we'd have the wedding in
May?" He started as we drove home. I smiled, It was April
now, "Cant wait." He laughed and said, "That's
all, no huge dress or fancy service?" I laughed at him,
"No, all I want is you to be mine forever." HE looked
at me for a split second and his eyes told me a story of
happiness. "That's what I've always wanted
Laur." He whispered. And I blushed, even though he was my
fiance. I bit my lip to cover my smile, but I failed as it
slipped out. Collin laughed at me. As we approached the house I
became confused, "Wasnt that the turn?" I muttered and
Collin came back with a simple, "Yeah, but we're
not going home. Not right now." I frowned, "Where
to?" And Collin shrugged, "I dont know." I slapped
his arm and he laughed, "Just wait and see!" I
halfsmiled, "I hate surprises, remember." He smiled and
whispered, "How could I ever forget." We drove for a
while until we came to the military office, "What ar-"
I started but Collin cut me off, "Lauren, I signed up like 2
weeks ago, the day of your surgery. And I got in. We are gonna
make this work Laur, and its gonna be good. C'mon." He
grabbed my hand and pulled me out of the car. I felt my eyes tear
up but I shooed them away. This was Collin's dream. And
everything.. was perfect.
But lets set the story straight. Perfect. Is overrated.
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just cant find the time, which I know sounds dumb, but trust
me... Please... why did everyone stop reading.. is it boring!
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FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Chapter 28
Collin's POV
I ran up the stairs to the military office and hesitated at the door. But I finally walked in. I ended up talking to the guys for 1-2 hours and I had done it. I had applied and got in to the military. I walked out of the building with a date set. The 23 of July, I was going to bootcamp. I had until then to set this up right. I drove to the hospital and walked inside straight to Lauren's room. I met the doctor at the door and he whispered, "Seisure free." I smiled and he patted me on the back. I walked in and sat in an open chair. I grabbed Lauren's cold hand and placed my head againt the bars of the bed. She moved a bit and then I heard her mutter, "Dejavu" I looked up and kissed her forehead, "I missed you." She smiled and shook her head. I laughed and said, "Seisure free." Her smile grew, "For real?" I smiled again and whispered, "For real!" She laughed and rested her head on mine then threw it back, "Ouch, it hurts." I smiled, "Yes, you slept through the last one silly child." She smacked my arm and I smiled. I wasnt going to tell her about the army. I had to make this perfect,
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Chapter 27
Collin's POV
I
felt Lauren push into me and I fell into the trap. I opened my
mouth and gently slid Lauren's lip between my teeth then
slammed my tongue into hers. She pressed her hands against my
chest and straddled me in the car and I opened the door, standing
out of the car. Lauren pushed into me again, this time moving
down my neck, I walked to the front door quickly as she
nipped my ear. I felt a moan escape my mouth. She came back
to my mouth and licked my lips. At this point we were on my bed
and she was underneath me. I then pushed my lips into her hers
full force. She half schrieked half moaned. I smiled as I made my
way up he soft jaw bone then down her non-existant hairline. I
kissed down her neck, leaving few love bites. Lauren threw back
her head as I kissed across her collarbone. I reached my hands
under her thin cover up dress and lifted it above her head, and
kissed her chest again. Lauren slowly took off her bikini and I
moved farther down, recieving moans and giggles from Lauren the
further I went. Eventually I sat up and she flipped me under her.
She pulled down my swin trunks as I pulled my shirt up and over
my head.
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I woke up and felt Lauren under my arm. I smiled from ear to ear.
She was perfect, I loved her, I did, and I had to go to the
military, to regain my father's love. I had too. And Lauren..
I had to do something. Me and her were married, or going to be
married soon. The thought of it made me smile. It had been almost
a month since Lauren came back, and she was going in for surgery
today. Crap. I looked at the clock and realized we had 2 hours. I
got up and took a fast shower, then I ran to wake up Lauren. She
got up quickly and showered. We met in the kitchen. There was a
comfortable silence as we sat eating breakfast. But she spoke
first, "I uh, I'm nervous." I frowned and grabbed
her hand, "Laur, you're fine! And I'll be right
there when you wake up! I promise!" She half smiled as I
said, "Oh, time to go." We stood together and I sped to
the hospital. We got there just in time and as they wheeled her
away she mouthed, "I love you." And I mouthed it back,
and for once in my life, I had absolutely no doubt on what I was
going to do.
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Chapter 26
Lauren's POV
I glanced down at my hand and smiled uncontrollably. I looked back up and my gaze met Collin's, which was smiling too. I sat up straighter in my seat as I saw our food approaching. We were in the Outback resturant, which I know isnt too fancy, but I loved its food to bits, and Collin knew that. the waitress set a plate with a medium rare steak infront of me, and a similar one infront of Collin. We ate in a comfortable silence, and when we oth finished we made our way back to the car hand in hand. On the drive home Collin finally spoke, "Lauren, what if I did.. you know.. join the army?" I felt my stomach drop, "Collin, if that was what you wanted, I would support you 100% of the way." I forced the words out. I really didnt want him to go, because I was literally. Alone, but I loved him enough to let him follow his dreams and we would cross that bridge when we got there. Collin saw right through me, "Lauren, tell me the truth," I cleared my throat and whispered, "I'd miss you.. that's all. But if you want to go.. go.. I'll be here." At this point, we were in the driveway. Collin pulled out the keys and turned to face me, "Lauren, you actually think I wouldnt miss you." I avoided eye contact and I heard his voice tremble as if he was in tears, "Laur, I lost you for 3 months. And I dont ever want to lose you again! The pain.. the pain is just so enormous, it kills me inside! But Lauren, my father was in the military.. and and.. I lost him! I need to regain my dad, but I cant lose you and I've been fighting this for the past 4 months. Lauren. That day I came to the hospital, I was coming to say goodbye. I've never told anyone that! But its the truth, I was going to sign up for the army that day, but you woke up, and I love you Lauren, I want a family, and I want it with you! But I'm torn! I am freaking ripped in half right now because I need you! You are the other half of my heart! I cant breathe without you next to me, and.. and I need to breathe to be in the army!" I looked up at Collin, tears rolling down my cheeks and I felt his lips against mine. I dont know how they got there, but I wasnt going to pull away.. I had a craving for Collin Tanner.
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Chapter 25
Collin's POV
I watched as Lauren's face sank. "'Collin... you need to follow you heart." I felt my cheeks getting warm, "My heart is wherever you are." Lauren came back quickly, "No, Collin, my heart is wherever you are. You go out there, and you follow your dreams, and I will stay here, and wait for you to come home. I will always love you Collin. No matter where you are, or how far apart we are. We're always this close." And she leaned in close and hugged me and whispered in my ear, "Always, this close." I felt the tears stream down my face as she pulled away. I quickly stood up and whispered, "One second." I ran back to the car and grabbed a box from the glovebox, then ran back to Lauren, "Laur, I was gonna wait until after dinner but..." I pulled out the box from behind my back and auren looked as if she was frozen in time, "Lauren Murphy, would you please, be my wife." Was all I could muster out. Lauren blinked and I saw tears in her eyes. "Ye--Yes.. Collin, Yes." She fell back into my arms and started to cry, "Why are you crying?" I chuckled out and she mumbled to me, "I'm so happy! I've only ever dreamed of this day.. Collin, I love you." I couldnt help but to smile. "I love you too." We sat in silence for the longest time. But it was a comfortable silence, and I cheerished it. I squeezed my arm around Lauren and she smiled up at me. And at that moment, I felt genuinely happy, like nothing could go wrong. I stood up in the beautiful sunset and pulled Lauren up with me, "Let's go to dinner" She smiled and pressed her cheek against my chest, "Okay." She whispered and grabbed onto my arm as I walked to the car. She hopped into the truck and I got in beside her. I saw the glint on her diammond ring and it made my heart pound. She was mine. Lauren was mine. And it was the best feeling on Earth. My dream, since I was a kid was the army. I needed to follow my dream.. but who knew following a dream.. could hurt so much.
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