i am actually very, very glad i didn't rush into and
invest in a long term relationship at a young age. because
i worry.
i realize that everyone is different, but i always ask myself
when i see those couples who've been going on strong since
their freshman year of high school, "did you learn to love
yourself first? are you even bothering to learn to love
yourself? or are you just depending on them for a majority of
your happiness? what happens when they leave? how are you going
to handle it?"
i worry because after my first relationship ended, i was a
wreck. i felt so worthless. we only were together a little over
a month, but the time i spent with him was amazing. he made me
happy, but i couldn't find happiness within myself. i
didn't love myself. and that's why i felt like my life
was over when it all ended. but i'm glad it happened,
because i am finally on a journey to loving myself.
i'm not saying breakups are never going to be hard, but
they'll certainly be easier when you realize that you
are responisble for your own happiness. loving yourself
comes first, and i hope people can realize that before they get
so wrapped up in another person.