perhaps
all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting
to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. perhaps
everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence,
something helpless that wants our
love.
stoplooking for things to mess up. just because
you're used to tragedy, does not mean it always
needs to be present in your life for you to feel
comfortable.
happiness isgoodand does not always
indicate something bad is waiting to happen.
“ People like to
believe that falling in love means you can never fall out of
love. Such a thought is a bandage, a comfort for those so
greatly foolish as to believe this. It is meant to warm the
hearts of those who are falling together. But love, like all
things, must come to an end. To fall in love, truly, is to fly.
And it is with a ball that has been thrown into the air, there
will be a point in all love where an apex is reached. Some of
us are lucky, in that our love is slow and steady, and is
caught before we can begin to fall. For we will fall, and oh
how it is, to fall from love. ”
This is simply how I
was meant to live. Always the friend, never the girl. Always the
‘side chick’, the fall back, the ‘person to go
to if everyone else says no’. Not even just romantically,
but with friendships, too. Face it, ‘Second Best’ is
my middle name. I wasn’t born to be anyone’s
first choice. all I’ll be able to do now is to ask myself
if what we had was even anything to begin with, or if my head was
just in the clouds. That’s just how it is, and how it
always will be.
i'm sorry i keep making these but i don't have anywhere
else to turn i'm so unhappy and i can't think straight and
life was supposed to get better after high school but i've
never felt so low and i'm so alone and i don't have anyone
to go to and everything is a mess and my home is so broken and we
had a fall break and i go back to school tomorrow and that should
be good but i can't muster up the energy to eat much less act
like i'm fine to my roommate and i can't even breathe but i
have a three page paper due on tuesday along with an electronic
thing that i can't even look at because i don't know what
to do and two tests on wednesday in my hardest classes and i
can't think anything but how tired i am of fighting and how i
just want to be okay and i'm so sorry i need to put my feelings
somewhere and i just i'm so tired and i don't think i can
do it and i'm so alone and i don't know i don't know
i'm sorry