PLLaaehs

Sometimes,
I just want to give up.
On EVERYthing.
But there are a few things that keep me going.
Dylan, Ashlyn, Rachel, Sarah, and my family.
They don't know it but they do.
Somethings just get too much.
They are the only thing helping me.

You used to mean a lot to me.
Now, you're just my friend.
My b*tchy little friend.
Thanks.

Back off kay.?
He's my boyfriend...
I don't care if you guys are best friends,
you're bugging me..
With all of his other friends too.
But especially you.
I love you and all...
But yeah.

No goodbye...

Can we STOP talking about what you're packing...?
I'm going to start crying...
It's hard enough knowing that I won't see you for a week...
But, having you say this, is making it reality.
I wish it wasn't. 

I feel the need to do this... Thanks for the idea Renlover01, Ashlyn :)

MY THOUGHTS
just about the people in my life.

To start, if you don’t want to know, that’s okay. Don’t read it then. It’s just my opinion and things I need to say. Kay thanks :)

Ashlyn: first one because you mean a lot. You help me through a lot and I appreciate it. There are times you try to help even though you don’t know what it’s like or sometimes you make it worse. I’m being completely honest when I say I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if you weren’t there for me. You are best friends with my boyfriend, and it makes me mad sometimes. Being honest, I hate it that you say you love him. I know you don’t mean it the way I do but still. I don’t want you to change that because you read this though. It’s just another thing that will bother me. I have a lot. Enough about that. We talk everyday about some of the most random things but that’s what makes us amazing together. I know you like the back of my hand. ;) But you’re an amazing friend and wifey :) love you. Sarah: you’re my other best friend. We have the most awesome times together and we are super crazy together. I absolutely adore that. You joke around with me ALWAYS and I’m totally okay with it. There are few times you’ve actually been serious and they were defiantly the right times. You may be a year older than me but you don’t seem any wiser:) You are my best friend, my “cousin”, and my wife. I couldn’t be happier with you.Dylan<3: I love you. I’ve honestly never cared more about someone than I care about you. You’re my dork and you know it. The past 146 days (or about 210,240 minutes, or about 12, 614,400 seconds, or about 3,504 hours, or about 20 weeks) have been the best days/minutes/seconds/hours/weeks of my life. There are certain things you do that make me mad. And I admit, I’m jealous of the majority of your friends… there just aren’t words to describe what I feel. I’m just proud to call you my boyfriend and it WILL stay that way for a LONG time<3 I love and miss you more than you’ll ever know<3. Austin: dude. You’re my best guy friend. And I love you in that way. You’re like my brother and I hope it’ll stay that way for a while. You’ve been there though those little times I needed you and now, you’re there because of my injuries. You try to help and I know you do. A lot of people think you like me, and honestly I couldn’t care less. All I need to know is that you won’t do anything that would hurt me, the relationship I’m in now, or our friendship either. You should know I’ve never liked you more than a friend, a brother, and I don’t want you to like me again. It’s awkward. Rachel: oh Rach. You’re my confused buddy and my final best friend. There are certain people who know me more than others and you are one of them. Ashlyn and Sarah do too but you make sure you do. You’re good friends with my boyfriend… and sometimes it bothers me. But I know you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me. We are extremely close and I won’t let anything tear us apart. Unless… nevermind that. There isn’t much to say about you since there’s nothing I need to confess :) Shelby: you are a perverted little freak and there’s the reason I love you :) Emily: oh you can certainly be a b**** sometimes. Like telling my boyfriend, after I broke up with him, that I never liked him and I liked someone else when we were dating? B****y move there hun. Even though that was last year, I still remember it. That little thing broke my trust and its still not “healed”. But that’s the only major fight we’ve been in, for 8 years. Im glad to have you as a closer friend. I don’t say best friend because I admit we have grown apart. But I’m still trying. And NEVER flirt with my boyfriend again. I WANT TO PUNCH YOU IN THE F***ING FACE WHEN YOU DO THAT. You're like my sister though... so yeah mmmkay Love you:)
^^^completely a vent^^^ 
thanks though if you did read it. i don't care if someone didn't, it was just things i needed to say. 

"Ally: Ok, this might be a little long. Well, lets start out with this: I love you. (nh). Honestly, if we hadn't started texting so much over last summer I don't know what I would do. You're always there for me, you listen, you care. And I hope I'm doing the same. You are the best dang girl alive, and don't you forget it, I don't know where I would be today if I hadn't become such good friends with you. You shouldn't have to got thru half of the things you do, and I admire you.  You are my best friend, my wife, my sister. I love you! <3 :D VSBallGirl"

Reading this, honestly made me want to cry.
My best friend wrote that.
And when I say Best Friend, I mean it.
I may have a few but theyre just that dang special. 
And now, i think I'm going to do what she did...
I love you Renlover01 :)
amazing person right there.

There is just something about you.
I am just so attracted to you; there is something extremely special about you.
You are one of the only people who is able to cheer me
up right away whenever I talk to you, even if you don't know anything is wrong.
When I see you, I can't help but to smile.
It's not just how you look, but I absolutely love your personality, too.
You mean more than you'll ever know to me.
And I'm glad to call you my boyfriend. 
 ♥

"Its okay, you know if he isn't treating you right or is being a total jerk there's always the option of dumping him."
"Any reason now is still inexcusable and disrespctful. How long has it been, not talkin wise."
"Well if this continues he's obviously not commeted to your relation ship and its for the best too, that's how it was with me and sydney and were still friends."
 
words i dont want to hear.
esp from my best guy friend.

YOU ARE MY WORLD.
I WILL LOVE YOU UNTIL THE ENDS OF THE EARTH.
YOU MEAN MORE TO ME THAN ANYTHING OR ANYONE ELSE.
If I can say this about you, you know I mean it and you know
   I’m as serious as I will ever be.