Pandemonium

 I am a fighter. I cannot just let something go.
I cannot just let what you and I had fade away.
You changed me, you saved me, you are a part of me. I need you, and I love you.
I am a fighter. I have given up my dignity, given up my pride, all for you.
I have tossed away a part of me for you and I will not regret it.
But I am a fighter. I am a fighter and now I have to fight for myself.
I have to fight for my right to be happy.
Fight for a chance to be treated right.
Fight to get your out of my head.
I am a fighter and you will never defeat me.
I am a fighter.

 

And take a look in the mirror.






 

Its the way he walks,
The way he concentrates with his mouth set tight,
The way he laughs.
It’s the way his eyes sparkle when he smiles,
The way he stands leaning against a locker,
The way he looks at me.
It’s the way he texts me good morning,
The way he stays up late and sends me messages when he knows I’m asleep,
The way he tells me he misses me.
It’s the way he understands me,
The way he asks me what’s wrong,
The way he makes me laugh when I want to cry.
It’s the way he says he cares about me,
The way his face deepens when he sees me now,
The way he smiles when he’s around her.
It’s the way he keeps me holding on,
The way he won’t let me forget.