PinkyyLovesU

Now the tiniest of things make me want to break down and cry. Or cut myself. I can't help it. I've been through alot. I haven't spoken a word to my mom in 3 weeks because she left. She walked out on me. She's an alcoholic. And one night, I lost it. I blew up. I screamed at her untill I had no voice. Then I called my dad and he picked me up. The next day, I learned that she walked out. And its my fault. I'm in a constant battle with myself. I have a million things running through my mind constantly and it's becoming unbearable. I'm slowly but surely falling apart. And. It's. My. Fault.

I'll never be what you want. I wouldn't change any part of me, just to make you stay. You had a peice of my heart, but not enough to just run away. Cause I know whats best for me.

-Did what I promised I wouldn't. And now I have to tell him. This'll crush him.

I'm sorry, Babe.

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-All I ever think about if those blue eyes of yours.
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Dear school yearbook club,

Can I give ya'll a picture of me from my Facebook profile and have you replace my actuall yearbook picture with that one?

Love,
That doesn't even look like me.

Rest In Peace, Jessica</3
You held on so long. My prayers go out to you and your family. You will truely be missed<3

-.Last night was terrible.-
This morning he texted me and asked, "How are you, baby? Any better?"
I replied, "I'll let you know when I find out. Cause I can't tell my feelings apart from eachother anymore."

So you don't think I'm hurting.
I'll show you my scars, then maybe you'll believe me.

-I'm gonna cry, eat my Nutella, Then I'm gonna sleep. Because nothing is going right.

Being at a restruant and seeing your food coming...So you try to clear off the table as fast as possible.
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