don't know what it's like to get slated by your
own parents, to be hated by
your own siblings, to be left
out and ignored by your own
friends. They don't know what it's like to get put
down every day, "You're lazy. You're
fat. You're useless. You're going nowhere in life.
You're going to be alone." The same comments and
snide remarks EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. They get repeated so much that
even you begin to believe them. You think that
one is ever going to love
you, you'll live a lonely, unhappy life.
Siblings constantly picking
fights, using the most hurtful names possible, but your
parents just laugh because as
they keep reminding you, it's your own
fault. You get constantly nagged to spend more
time with your family rather than being alone in your room, but
when you do, you get insulted
by every member and end up back in your room again all
alone where you cry
and let out all the anger that's been held up inside
of you for so long.
Your friends don't invite
you places with them and the only way you ever will is if
you're the one who organises that day out. Even then
you're the one that has to sit alone, the one that get's
left out of all the
conversations, the one that always gets
over. They're all prettier than you of course, they all
have loads of friends, yet you're the one they
complain to when
they feel alone. You're the one that stays up for
hours on end trying to comfort them thinking maybe that after all
the effort you put into making them happy would pay off and you'll
finally be accepted by them. But of course that
doesn't happen. When they're happy they
leave you and you're alone once
again. That's all you'll ever be is their
shoulder to cry on.
Every night when you're
in bed, when everyone else is fast asleep you curl up into a ball
and cry. The sort of crying
where you just need to scream but you cant, so
you end up choking whilst
you're gasping for air,
lying on a damp, tear-stained
They don't know half the stuff
you go through everyday.
They don't know what they put you through everyday.
They don't know you.