RainbowCupcakesxo

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Once upon a time,
there was this girl named Hannah,
her life was average{but she did not know that},
she stares at stars, gets lost in peoples eyes, and falls for all the wrong guys.

She is very passionate about music and writing.
And her friends are the only people who get her through some things.
Sure, she may seem unbreakable on the outside,
but truly, she is already broken..

She knows everything will pass and she'll be okay in the end,
But what does she do now, you ask?

Now, she decides to write
about anything,
and read quotes,
That she thinks will let her understand life more clearly.

We'll see how that turns out....

Quotes by RainbowCupcakesxo

Settle down with me.
Cover me up.
Cuddle me in.

Last summer, I met a guy. And I fell in love, the moment I laid eyes on him..
I wasn't expecting to see him. In fact, I was incredibly depressed about not seeing him.

But as soon as I step foot out of the car, our eyes meet.
And I fell in love all over again.

He lives 1303.65 miles away. It feels more like a universe. 
But I love him, and I'm willing to do anything to be with him. 

 
You're hearts against my chest,
Lips pressed to my neck.
I've fallen for your eyes, 
But they don't know me yet.
And the feeling I forget,
I'm in love now..
I haven't been on witty in exactly a year.
And I don't know why I decided now would be a good time to come back.

But it is,
I missed you all so much.

**

knowledge cannot replace friends. i'd rather be an idiot than loose you.

spongebob squarepants;;

 

**

The Last Time


Chapter two.

Holding me up, throwing me through the air, wrestling, splashing me, everything seemed so surreal. When Emily and Nick had left, it was still sort of light out, but at this time, it was almost pitch black. Sean grabbed my hips, and swung me underwater. I gasped for air and he laughed while I wiped the water from my eyes. 

 

"That was unnecessary. " I said, with a sarcastic sort of smile.

He smiled back, " I disagree, it was totally necessary. " 

We both laughed, as I twirled around. I stopped and just about fell over, I was so dizzy. He smiled, and watched me laugh at myself like a total idiot. He grabbed my hips again, this time I was ready to be shoved underwater. I had plugged my nose, shut my eyes and started holding my breath. But instead, sean just held me. Tightly, but gently. He knew my story, and he knew I was broken. But what he didn't know, is that, through the time I spent with him, I had healed. But I had also fell, fell for him. I smiled, a gigantic, but silly smile. It was probably the moment I had been waiting for this entire trip. He released his grip, not fully, but enough that we could look into each others eyes. He looked at me, not just a normal look, it was like he thought I was the most beautiful girl in the world. And he kissed me. It was the most romantic, warm, tingling kiss I had ever had. But, in the middle of the kiss, something had gone wrong. Not him, not the kiss, they were perfect. But with me, I realized, this was it. I was probably never going to have this again. This was our last night together. I started crying, during this magical kiss. It came to an end, and sean opened his eyes, to see tears spilling from my eyes. I turned away, hoping he wouldn't noticed. But he did.

 

" Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't realize.. I mean.. I thought.. Oh nevermind, I'm just, I'm so sorry… " His words were a cluster of a emotions, confusion, anger, sadness..

I stopped him, " No, you were perfect. All this, it's all perfect. But have you stopped to realize, this is it? This is as good as it's ever going to get. This is our last night, and this is all we have left.. " I was trying to hold back my tears, as he walked towards me.

" Hannah, you don't understand how much you mean to me. I didn't even know I could feel so much for someone I've known for a week, " He wipes away tears from my cheek. " Don't think about this being our last night. Think about how much all of this means to you. And how much you mean to me. And pretend that nothings going to change. "

I hugged him, and I had stopped crying. Until he whispered in my ear, " One week, and I fell. " 

I cried, harder then before, but this time, they were tears of happiness. He just held me, rubbed my back gently, and kissed my head.

 

I walked back to my cabin, to find emily in her pyjamas, sitting on the couch, flipping through the channels, she didn't notice me walk in. I walked up behind her, quietly, and just as I was planning on scaring her,

 

" I can see you idiot, " she said, and she startled me, even more then I planned on startling her. " There is a window, in which I can see everything behind me, right there. " she pointed to the huge window infront of us, and giggled. 

" … Awkward. HEY! " I yelled.

" Oh my, what happened? "

"Whaaaaaat? What are you talkin' about, guuurrrl? " 

" Shut up, and tell me what happened. "

So I explained everything. Every action. Every tear. Every hug. Every kiss. Every, word… 

" Oh, awh. " She said, her eyes welling up with tears of joy, she was smiling. " well, we gotta get you dressed and out to the campfire. I have a great idea. " 

Last week, I built up enough courage to tell my boyfriend about my insomnia, and how emotionally unstable I am at the moment. I told him my parents don't want me being social about this so they were going to take my phone, and my computer away until they can trust I won't tell a single soul. I told him that I'll love him no matter what. And never to listen to me when I get mad, because i say things I really don't mean. I told him I'll always be there for him, even if we're not together, I'll still care, and love him as much as I do now.

Want to know what I saw from him when I got my phone back?

" ok "
Two letters. No capitals. No puncuation. No spaces. Nothing. Not an, " I love you too ". Not even an, " ily. ". Just " ok ". I felt like crying. I felt like dying. Like nothing else could tear me apart more then those to letters did.

My doctor put me on medication that makes it so I don't show my emotions. It keeps me sane, plain, regular and relaxed at all times. So I couldn't cry, I couldn't even scream


The worst part of this story, is that I don't know what it is about this boy, but I love him. Its like, I hate everything he wears, everything he does, everything he says. But I know, he loves me, whether he's being a jackass, or a sweet guy, he loves me. And I love him.

" The Last Time

 

It was the evening before we left, and it was just around the time we watch the sunset. Thankfully, this last sunset will be with the boys. Emily, my gorgeous cousin( whom I am extremely jealous of ) and I went back to our cabin to change into our swim suits. When we had got back out and to the end of the, rather wet, dock, the guys had already been halfway to the middle of the lake. All of them, except one important figure. Bennett. He had left earlier that evening, because he had a long way to go.. But, the next day we were going to visit on our way home. I could feel my skin burning in the heat, so I dove in, and it felt magnificent. 

 

Before I go any further, I'd like you to know a bit about the boys. There's Paul, their isn't much about him, except the fact he's allergic to almost everything, dairy, soy, peanuts. He's a wonderful person in general, but he has to be so careful what he eats, I can't help but laugh. Then there's Nick. Oh my, he's probably the smarter person you'll ever meet. He knows everything from science to geography, and everything in between. He could recite you pie, if you asked. But, the thing is, he is also the most awkward person you'll ever meet… Since he's really smart, and not so good looking, he don't really know how to talk to anyone, let alone girls. The only things he knows how to talk about is science and math… I remember one night, we were all on the trampoline, and all he'd talk about was the stars. Don't get me wrong, it was pretty interesting, until he got frustrated about not finding the north star.. Anyways, we're off topic. So then there's Bennett, and he is honestly  probably the sweetest guy ever. Whenever the others would tease me, or try to push me in the water, he'd actually help and tell the to back off. I admit, at first, I found it kind of creepy, but now that I think of it he was just trying to help… And he had the most adorable southern accent.. Then there was Sean.. He's the one any normal girl would fall for. Tall, tan, amazing, eyes, hot body. Who wouldn't like that? He was also a real sweet guy. A sweet guy with a huge heart, and a soft spot for his sister. 

Where were we? Ah, yes. 

 

I had almost caught up to the boys, when I noticed Emily had disappeared, she was no longer beside me, so I was in a panic. A few seconds after my body went into total panic mode, I looked behind me and saw emily, holding her hair up, and trying not to get her upper half wet. She yelled for me to wait, but she took forever to catch up, so I just kept swimming, and pretended like I couldn't hear her. I finally got to the middle of the lake, I knew it was getting colder, but I didn't feel it. Paul sure noticed it, and swam back in. Splashing, jumping, being thrown through the air like some kind of ball, I was having a terrific time, as did everyone else. I noticed it getting a little bit darker, and turned towards the sun..

 

" Hey, guys, it's starting! " I yelled, as everyone grouped together. Hand in hand, heads on shoulders, awkward silence, that, really wasn't awkward. It was perfect. 

" Wow, " Sean said, he looked at me, and I looked back up at him. He quickly turned, I blushed and looked back too.

" It's gorgeous, isn't it? " Emily replied, looking as though she wanted to cry.

" It's amazing that something so beautiful, could be a ball of fire, soon to be hurdling towards the earth.. " … And obviously a remark like that was from Nick. 

We all stared at him, until the four of us noticed it was getting darker, quicker and quicker. We looked back at the sun.

I started counting down, " Ten, nine eight… " 

Sean joined in, " Seven, six, five… "

Emily soon caught up, " Four, three, two.. "

And nick got in at the last second, literally, " One. " And in just ten seconds, the sun has disappeared behind a handful of fluffy coral clouds.  Nick and Emily finally felt it getting colder, and  they just stood around like idiots, even though they both realize the only way to keep warm is to move around.  

 

" Hey, Hannah, me and Nick are gonna head in, are you coming? " She had asked me. I was fine stain in the water, but if everyone was going in, I sure wasn't staying out here alone. I looked at Sean, and he looked at me asking me silently if I'd stay out with him. I obviously answered with a yes. 

" Uh, I think me and Sean are staying out here for awhile, I'm not even cold. " I replied.

" Alright, " Nick had started swimming in and sean was screaming for him to go faster. Emily turned to me and winked " you two have fun! " She slowly made her way back to shore. 

Every time I see a quote saying
" If you favourite this, I'll follow you and favourite all your quotes!
Feel free to unfavourite once I've done this! "

I'm like,
" I don't want you to favourite my quotes cause I TOLD you to.
I want you to favourite my quotes because you actually LIKE them. "