Rawrimadin0saur
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I am 14 and i live in this shitty town called Farmington
I am 5'2 and im chubby! XD
Haha I am a 9th grader.
My favorite colors are Purple. Blue, red and black.
I love Anime and Longboarding
Oh ya I'm Pansexual :3 Which means Im Gender blind
But
My heart belongs to my boyfriend Branden<3 He Lights Up My World :)
:) Also I follow for a Follow <3 :)
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This made me smile<3
Long Distance
Relationships are hard, but sometimes their worth it in the
end<33
3/8/12
was the last day i cut.
I'm going to stay clean from it.
I'm never going to cut ever again
and i can promise you guys that<3
It will be hard, but i will try to stay strong<3
*I Promise I won't cut ever again*
♥
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I have a
razor
blade in my
pocket
and about 5
pills.
I took about ten
last night..
i don't want to be here anymore..
but i don't want to hurt anyone
:'(
I broke
down...
I took my razor..
And I Cut my hip..
I took 9 or 10 pills tylonel...
I'm still tempted to take more
pills..
I'm Scared
:'(
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against my skin..
and
i want to slide it across
and see the pretty blood come up..
:'( why did i have to become like this?
I've been clean from
cutting for about 3 weeks now..
But back in my mind
I keep on wanting to find my razor
and make a few final cuts on my hips... but i made a promise
not to...
I just want these horrible thoughts
to go away :( </3
I'm in that mood were
i don't feel like watching
were im walking.
If i get hit by a car,
then oh well..
and honestly
im like this everyday..
and secrettly inside i hope that car will
come by
"No one would care if i was
gone"
Jannah If only you saw how many people
were at the Hostpital, and the church.
You ment a lot to everyone.
Everyone was at the hostpital in tears,
Sharing stories little laughs here and there.
Everyone in Town was at your funeral.
The church was packed, even the second floor
was almost full.
Jannah I miss you</3
Aug 9 1995- Apr 6
2011
He's the only one who can keep me happy.
The day i lose him
I'll go back to my "friend"
Razor... and maybe ill become "friends" with pills... They're the ones who will distract me with a new pain..
Freaken horrible thoughts are going through my head...
This was one of the ones that scared me...
I Remember How I Loved Your Big Brown Eyes. They Were Amazing
And That was one of the amazing things about you. I was so Jealous Of your Eyes and your life.
Oh how i wanted to be as pretty as you and i always wanted to be as strong as you.But i Guess
You stayed too strong for too long
I remember Logging into facebook on april 2.. i remembered how your brother and sister were saying to pray for you.. I remember asking my dad what was happening, and that dreadful look in his face.. I remember him telling me that you werent going to make it.
I started crying and i told my dad i wanted to go to my mom.
He brought me to her work and i came up to her and started crying in her arms. we went to the hostpital and we ended up waiting until 9, because those were the start of the visiting hours..
I went in there with my dad..
Your face was so swollen.. I didn't know what to do.. what to say..
I Stood there and I saw you open up your Big Brown Eyes Open wide.. I got so scared.. :'( i turned and
cried into my dads arms.
i couldnt handle seeing you like that.. that was the first night i knew about this.. the second night I was able to see you and talk to you without crying.. Everyone was there. they were all shocked..
the third day, i got a text message from one of my friends.
They said they were making the decision
to Pull the plug or not...
I couldnt breathe... i didnt want to.
that was when i was in the car with my dad driving to the hostpital, we turned around and got my mom.
We got there and everyone was quiet, you could hear the soft cries from everyone.. I got there and the first person i saw was chloe. she had tears streaming down her face.. i walked up to her and i cried into her arms. Hannah came up behind us and hugged the both of us.
we waited and waited and your brother came out and said they werent pulling the plug today.. but they were going to pull it tomorrow. i remember staying the night in the hostpital, because i wanted to be there to see my bestfriend goodbye... but before i knew i was going to stay the night, i went in there with my mom and i said "Goodbye Jannah I Love you so much, I'm going to miss you... I love you"You opened your eyes and you looked at me.. you looked so scared I almost turned away in fear.. i never wanted to see you like that.. after i spent the night in the hostpital with your sister they decided not to do it that morning, everyone came back during 7:00 they told us that they were going to pull it tomorrow morning instead.. they said to say our goodbyes..
I remember going in there with my older brother.. tears streaming down my face.. i didnt want to say goodbye again..but i did...
The next day i didnt get to see you..my parents told me we were going to see you the day after... I didn't get to see your breathing body again..
You said in your letter that if you were gone no one would care.. but almost everyone in town was there... Everyone was at your funeral.. EVERYONE... Seeing you being lowered Tore me apart.. and seeing my mom tears pouring down her face, crying loudly.. shredded me into pieces.... Its almost been a year since ive seen you.. April 6th was the last time i saw your beautiful face in person... even though its a month away..its tearing me apart.. i cant believe its been so long...
Jannah I miss you so much..
R.I.P Jannah
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