Everyone laughed,
I acted like it was a joke and laughed
the tears in my eyes weren't from laughing,
they were real tears.
they don't understand how much I hate
myself.
SOME
NIGHTS
I STAY UP Cashing In
My Bad Luck Some Nights
I call it a draw
Some Nights I wish that my lips could
build a castle Some Nights I wish
they'd justf a l l o f
f
but I still wake
up
I still see your GHOST
Oh Lord
I'm still n o t s
u r e
what I stand for ... what do I stand for? what do I stand
for?
What if Jamie Lee Curtis and Lindsey Lohan never switched back
bodies
and Jamie Lee Curtis is just going insane while Lindsey Lohan is
just eating Activia.
going off to college in
the fall.
it seems like it's so far away from now.
but in reality it's two and a half months away.
i'm so unsed to going to school and then coming home to my
mother.
but when i go off to school, i'll be waking up in my dorm
room with a roomate.
i'm scared i will hate it and i will be totally lost and make
no friends.
i've always been so shy.
on the plus side of going close (closer than where i wanted to
go)
is that i will be going to school with some classmates that i
had.
because i know that some of them will get homesick and not be
able to go home.
and i know that at first i will get homesick and want to be with
people from home.
and they will be there and i will see them and i will remember
home.
since the school i will be attending will be 2 hours away i
won't be able to get home.
i'm also going to be going to school with my 19 year old
coach, which is also strange.
but it's cool because i will be able to ask her about the
campus and meet some of her friends since i am also friends with
her.
it's just weird to think that i'm finally leaving.
people always say that i will miss home. and i know i will.
i already miss it here and i haven't even left yet.
i just always figured this feeling would be different.
relief. happy. or even joyful.
and believe me, it is all those things.
but i'm scared and nervous all combined.
i know i'll be fine when i get there.
but it's the getting there is the hard thing.
If countries were students Australia: The class clown who makes everyone
laugh The United States: The jock who loves themselves
and everyone secretly hates Canada: The nice person who offers to show you
around on your first day England: The hot boy everybody wants to bang
because he's a gentleman New Zealand: Australia's little brother who
is the only one who thinks Australia sucks France: The romantic playboy who hangs around
England too much China: The overly smart kid who puts his hand up
for every question Russia: The scary large kid that nobody talks to
because they'll probably get stabbed