Why do
you have to make this so hard for me?
Have i not made my point clear?
Its not as if i have been through enough already ok.
I get that i have hurt alot of people.
And i am ever so sorry.
I understand i have caused many broken hearts.
I get that no one likes me.
Its me against this f***ked up world!!!
And just in caes you are wondering,
YES, i am over it.
YES, i am done with this.
YES, i am so terribly sorry.
YES, i hate myself.
YES, i would give my life up for him to come back.
NOT THAT YOU WOULD GIVE A S**T ANYWAY!!!!!! </3
Everybody has that ONE person who they can
tell everything to.
Everybody has that ONE person who they trust with their life.
Everybody has that ONE person who turns the darkest of their days
into something magical.
Everybody has that ONE person who catches them when they
fall.
Everybody has that ONE person who has unconditional love for
them...
Thats everybody except for me </3
To my nephew who i have never
met,
Hey my baby boy, i know you have only been on this cruel cruel
earth for 7 weeks, but already you have been through so much. I
wish i could see you Lucas, i really really want to, but daddy
and mummy dont like aunty and they wont let me see you. But hey,
its ok hun, we will met up one day! And you can tell me all about
how much you have learnt and show me all the cool things mummy
and daddy have taught you! Im really sorry my baby boy about what
daddy has done. He still loves yoou my sweetie. He really does,
but he is just having some time away. Sometimes daddies cant
handle the hard stuff and he just needs time bubbah. He will come
around though. You will grow up with a daddy, i will make sure of
it. Did you know that your daddy doesnt know his daddy. He always
wanted to know but his mummy refuses to tell him and he hurts
alot from that. You daddy has had a really hard life sweetheart,
but i promise you i wont let him make your life hell. I promise
you. I love you so much my baby boy and i want you to know that i
want you, but your mummy and daddy dont want me to see you. They
think i am bad. Maybe i am? Im not sure. But i just want you to
remember that somewhere in this big big world, you have an aunty
who would give the world to see your beautiful eyes!
I love you baby,
Aunty Jess xox