Peri Elana*

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Joined: April 2, 2011
Last Seen: 5 years
Birthday: January 3
user id: 162373
Location: New Jersey
Gender: F

Quotes by Peri Elana*

Wonderwall;

Someone you find yourself thinking about all the time, the person you are completely infactuated withg.
Dear           ,
I love you so much...but you constantly hurt me and it's just making me weaker and weaker. I was told to hang on to the things that make me happy, and I'm trying to hold on to you. But I don't think you want me to hold on anymore, I think that you want to let go. If you want to leave me, go ahead. I understand, okay? I'm useless and stupid and deserve no love or affection. You just don't get it though. Ever since you asked me to be yours I've been happier, even when you treated me like I was nothing. You really are special though, and I try and make sure you know that but it's almost as if my words go through one ear and come out of the other. Do you honestly care about me? Sometimes, I wonder if you really love me like you say you do. You literally deserve the world and maybe I'm not the best choice for you. I am trying to hang on, you know, like I'm trying to live for as long as I can. But if you keep proving that I'm the only one who feels the love between us...then I don't think I'll be able to hang on for much longer. 
I really love you,
SecretIdentity
My first real crush, not love, was a girl.
I feel so horrible because I didn't realize this until now, and I can't do anything about it because she moved away. I wouldn't start a relationship with her anyway because I am in love with a guy right now and I have been for a year and a half now. I feel so guilty because she showed me that she had feelings for me and I just ignored them and moved on with my life. I just thought about myself and not someone who truly loved me for the real me. I have no way to contact her because she has no social networks and she apparently got a new phone. I really miss her and I just want to apologize for the things I didn't notice. Please help!
On Saturday night, I told my boyfriend I am bisexual.
 
It hadn't been on my mind until he brought it up that day as a joke. I wasn't planning on telling him until the summer came and when we were more free and together more often. We were fighting before for another reason and it got out of hand, so I tore up a letter I wrote to him for our year and a half. He put the pieces back together when I wasn't looking and read it. Now let me to you this, my boyfriend is quite the man. He doesn't like crying in public or even around me. But what do I see when I turn around? Him covering his eyes and leaning forward. I didn't know what to do, so I just walked over to him and gave him a hug, and he hugged me back. And then we were both crying in each other's arms and apologized to each other. Then I mentioned that I had to tell him something and I wasn't sure that he'd stay with me after he finds out. I told him that I had strong feelings for another girl 2 years ago, over the summer. I told him that I'd been hiding that for so long and that it killed me to keep it a secret. I made sure he knew that the only person I had feelings for was him. He let go of my hands, and at that point, I knew I'd lost him.
But he looked at me and said " You're still beautiful in my eyes and if anything, this makes you more unique. This is going to be hard to get used to, to admit that you are, and I promise that I'll stay by your side through it all.You're the strongest and most brave person I know of."
And then he took my hands again and said  "
As long as you love me, and only me, you can be bisexual, straight, or even a lesbian. You can be whatever the hell you want. But as long as you love me and want to be with me, that's all I'm going to care about."
 
And in the end,
       we all just want something more than we already have.
       we all just push away the ones that really care about us.
       we pretend that we're fine, but we know we're really not.
       we strive to be perfect, knowing that no one will care.
Why?
       because we can't accept ourself.  
       because sometimes life becomes way to difficult.
       because sometimes we just want to give up.
But hey,
       no one is perfect right? right.
       so stop thinking like that because you're just fooling yourself.
       you are so incredibly beautiful, it's about time you know that.

So you say to yourself
"I 
hope he knows 
that I lovhim.

I hope he realized that no one's ever gonna love him as much as I do. I love everything about him and I wouldn't change him in any way. He's perfect. But he probably won't ever look at me and feel the same. Yeah, he's going to love me for a while. Maybe a couple years. But then he'll realize that I'm too much to put up with. I'm too annoying and depressing. I don't try to be annoying...or depressing. I can't really help the way I am, and I swear if I could change the way I am I would. I'm trying to be his definition of perfect but sadly I could never become that. I am trying though. And I'll try for as long as he wants me to...because I love him. I hope he knows that."

 

Sometimes I have days where I actually think I look decent.
But then I'll take a picture and realize that there's no use in lying to myself. 


 

Tmy boyfriend;
Hi babe. Well, you most likely won't ever read this, but that's okay. I'm gonna pour my heart out to a bunch of strangers that don't really care. So basically, I love you so much. You are my defintion of perfect. You make me smile and laugh. When we fight we just wind up hugging and kissing each other, promising never to fight again...then we fight again and the cycle is repeated. Occasionally, you'll start tickling me just to see me smile. Then it turns into a huge tickle fight, i love those.
You wanna know something? I really hate fighting with you. But at least I'm fighting with you, my boyfriend. The guy I love and never want to leave. You are literally my world and I never want to be with anyone else. I love you more than anything in the world! 

Love your girlfriend,
SecretIdentity
P.S. Maybe one day you'll read this and see how crazy I am about you. I'm so in love with you I brag about it to people on this website...but whatever! 



 
                                         I guess he is like the rest of them.
 
 I guess, maybe, I just thought he'd be different. 
  But stupid me, I was wrong.
 


 




"Can you describe love?"


"When he wraps his arms around me and doesn't let go. When he stops me randomnly and kisses me, it doesn't matter where we both are. When he makes me feel like I'm his top priority.When he holds me so tight, I can almost hear his heart racing. When he's constantly reminding me how much he loves me.When he tells his friends how beautiful he thinks I am. When I'm with him, all my troubles fade away and I'm actually happy. I'm not sad or insecure.
That's what love in, in my opinion. Happiness." 




 
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