Hey Ya'll!
My name is Ali. I am going to be a senior in highschool this year (oh, the joys).
I am working on getting into college(: It's a long process, but I'm ready...I think.
I may seem like your typical, peppy girl..but that's just my cover story.
There's a whole other side of me that I am dying to share with all of you!(:
I am pretty open about my life and love helping other people.
Come to me with questions, stories, advice, concerns, EVERYTHING!
I have been through hell and back, but that only makes me stronger.
I love listening to other people's stories because it makes them who they are today.
Just remember that everyone is worth something.
It is okay to laugh and cry and stuggle throughout life.
That is what life is. It is all apart of a journey.
Everyone remembers the day you were born.
Everyone will remember the day you die.
But only YOU will remember what happens in between.
Make it something you want to remember.
And I've read what your friend said about your boyfriend and she just seems concerned. But if she hasn't been in a full blown relationship it's hard to understand. Especially if she hasn't been in one with an older person. She's just worried. She's like an overprotective mother XD but i wouldn't fret too much! But don't let him get away with hitting you. (Okay I'm good, I said my little input lol). Tell him I said hey! Ali says hey! He's gonna be confused but it's all good. And as for the little girl, give her a hug for me (in a non weird way). Ya know just like in a mushy way. I don't wanna seem like a perv.e! Bleh oh forget it lol. Anyway I miss you bunches! Wish we could talk over Skype or something:/ bleh I wish I coulda known you in real life! But it's okay! I don't wana freak you out by saying that. Oh goodness, it's so late I don't even know what I'm saying lol. And by the way, I like the maid outfit! It's so cute!! :p
Okay don't worry about it! XD
Omg your right Cate's so overprotective she's like a mom! Sometimes its annoying but i know she does it cuz she loves me but in this case she's wrong!she doesn't understand my relationship with jason. And don't worry either Jason has only hit me when we were fighting like twice and it really wasnt his fault and he's not abusive or whatever Cate says lol.
Haha dont worry i will XD u don't seem like a p.erv!and u didnt freak me out lol don't worry I wish we knew each other in real life too! You r very fun to talk to and I love talking to you cuz u never judge me an stuff.<3 Sadly i dont have Skype :( my boyfriend allow me to
Haha thanks!! i actually had 2 maid costumes and i liked the other kne better tbh but my boyfriend wouldn't let me upload a photo cuz it was "too revealing" lol
What was ur Halloween costume?! :)
Anyway i miss you i hope u will reply soon lol <3
i really messed up this comment. Im so tired i should got to sleep lol
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(i'm so sorry idk how i never saw your reply)
Okay, so now that, that was extremely long (longer than I thought it would be), here’s an extra long note about my story…my thoughts will probably be all over because I’ve never actually written down my life…so sorry ahead of time. It all started when I was little. I was a very small child, but also very smart. I was told that when I was younger, I was one of the first one’s to get out of diapers, first one to write and read, and tie my shoelace. Things were great. Then, when I was 8 years old, I went off to a sleep away camp for 8 weeks and was r./aped in the process. I didn’t understand that it was r./ape until way later in life. Actually, I didn’t understand until I was r./aped again…I was 14 at my friend’s house and her boyfriend was there (different friend then the one that I mentioned before). I never told anyone about that until I was about 16. I told my best friend. I haven’t told my mom or anyone about it either. Okay, so when I was in 7th grade, my father got sick with pancreatic cancer… we were EXTREMELY close. He passed away 7 and a half months later. That was the summer going into 8th grade. In 8th grade, I started doing the sport crew. I was the youngest because it was a high school sport (private club though). I noticed the other girl’s looked really skinny and fit and I was not. I probably weighed at least 30 lbs more than them. I was a coxswain meaning that I was supposed to weigh less than everyone. Even my coach told me that I had to lose weight. So I did. Without even noticing what I was doing. I became anorexic. I would only have one bar per day (90 cals) and no one noticed. I didn’t realize what I was doing. That only lasted about 3 months though. Then I started back up with my second round of anorexia in I think it was 9th grade. In fact, in 2 and a half weeks I lost 25 lbs. People told me how good I looked and I just wanted to keep going. That was 7 months. I ended up in the hospital for one night because they thought I had a heart attack. I didn’t. Anyway, then I went into my 3rd round when I was in 10th grade. Wait going back for a second…the summer going into 9th grade I started cutting. It was really bad like 3 times per night. This has lasted until now. Anyway, going back to 10th grade. So like I said I went into my 3rd round of anorexia. My mom never connected the dots that it was an eating disorder even though she knew I was collapsing, having heart pains, etc. She even said to the doctor, “she never eats and has a weird diet. Like she’s always tired and stuff.” I never understood how she didn’t realize it. (side note: on occasion I would make myself throw up…I was bulimic for a month straight and then just sometimes). Anyway, in February of my sophomore year, things got really bad. I never ate, always cut, thought of suicide all the time. (I had tried to kill myself after the second r./ape, but no one knew). Anyway, I ended up in this partial hospitalization program. It was from 8am-2pm of therapy. I missed tons of school during that time and started failing most of my classes. My mom found out every time I tried to cut and stuff and she had breakdowns all the time. She also found out I had tried to kill myself. But I never told the program that I had been r./aped. It seemed irrelevant. And I didn’t care about it. I ended up switching schools junior year because they had a “therapy” program there. It didn’t do anything for me-_- I hated it. And I became anorexic for the FOURTH time. It wasn’t bad though. I am currently almost morbidly obese. That’s not me in my profile pic. I am too ashamed of how I look to put my photo up. And don’t say I’m not because my doctor told me I am. I am so fat and people tell me I am. My brother makes fun of me all the time for it. My mom constantly talks about weight and such and it me off because I just want to be anorexic again. I think I have a physical at the docs coming up and I am scared because every time I was weighed it was just after me being anorexic. And this time, I haven’t been anorexic since like January. I am so terrified. I hate trying on clothes and dressing up and all that stuff. I feel HUGE. My mom and brother tell me I don’t look good and that makes me feel awful. Anyway, my senior year has been okay I suppose. I haven’t cut since like May or something, so that’s good…I guess. I always want to though. This past summer was awful. I was a counselor at the camp that I was r./aped because I have been going there for like 10 years and it ended up so bad, that I quit. Oh, and my sophomore year, in gym class, I had a seizure and later on was diagnosed with epilepsy. I have been having major headaches and just everything has been crazy. Between looking for colleges and grades and such, it’s kinda stressful. On the bright side, on Oct. 6th (a week from Monday), I will be 18(: I don’t drive yet (that’s a whole other story that everyone nags me about) but I will soon hopefully. EVERYONE always nags me about that and it’s so annoying. Anyway, getting so sidetracked. One more thing, freshman year, I lost my best friend because she said that everything that I’ve gone through, the r./ape, eating disorder, depression, anxiety, etc. isn’t normal and that she can’t deal with it. Another major thing I forgot to mention: I am bi and stuff and well yeah. I’m not really open about it. My ex-best friend didn’t want to be friends because it went against her religion to like girls. Anyway, yeah. I also, lost my virgin/ity (not including the r./apes) to some random guy that my ex-best friend was supposed to get with. (SHE SAID I COULD THOUGH, but she hated me in the end.) We’re somewhat close now though. She goes to my old school. Well…that’s basically my story (or most of it). Sorry that it’s all over the place. If you have any questions or comments, go for it. I really need advice on my friend with the baby and just yeah. Sorry that was SOOOO long too. Don’t hate me :3 Love and miss ya <3 write back(: