Secret_Confessions

Okay here goes nothing; I'm sorry i am such a horrible daughter. I know why you want her more than me, she is so much prettier than me. Well your step daughter is officially your real daughter. I cant take this any more. I have horrible stress ulcers now, I had to lie to the doctor about what they were from. You dont know the hell i live in a home, nobody does except my bestfriend. The scars keep coming. I barely recogonize myself anymore. I feel foreign in my own body. I look in the mirror and see a troubled and worn down teenager. The perfect girl everyone used to see is breaking down. I havent EVER cried in front of anyone and I cant take this anymore. God did nobody see the bruises? You believed my fake stories every time? I felt so vunlerable and weak everytime it happened. I don't think anyone see's whats happening, i'm at my breaking point here and you dont even see it. The whole fake smile and forced laugh isnt going to last much longer. I'm sorry. I tried my best. This whole life thing just isnt working out. I think i'm better off gone. I just needed someone to be there and tell me I wasnt okay when I said I was. Someone to hold me and help me put the razor down. Someone to hold me when I cry and just be there. I guess I wanted way to much.