Pale Perfection*

Status: Love yourself so no one has to.
Joined: September 25, 2013
Last Seen: 6 years
user id: 372265
Gender: F
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Find love and let it destroy you.


| Anthea Chloe Nicole |
 |15|
|You should not have to rip yourself to pieces to keep other whole|











 



















Quotes by Pale Perfection*

Schizophrenia

The first time he heard voices, he wouldn’t look at me, went into the bathroom and ran the tub full of water, tucked himself beneath the cool skin of its surface and tried to drown them out. The next day, he couldn’t stop talking about joy being like an ice-covered tree, about strangers with arms like blood oranges, dark moths covering a woman until only her eyes were visible.

The brain is just a layer of tissue and nerves suspended in fluid; the heart knows what the heart wants, and human beings are only made of 75% water. I tried to understand this, how that road sign upstairs in his brain that was once lit up had gone out so quickly, like a pit stop on an abandoned road once used by passing travelers and then slowly left for good.

On Mondays he shook so hard every bone beneath his wrists rattled, and wouldn’t leave the house because there were men in black suits outside waiting to take him away. Other nights I would wake up at 3 am to find him standing naked at the window, hands pressed to the glass, staring out at the city lights, telling me there was someone out there, looking back at him, paranoid.
He slurred his words like a man who’s had a few too many drinks, 
but all I could do was hold him until the next round of antipsychotics.


-
Meggie Royer (via writingsforwinter)




"its just
you and me
together"
-no one else

Secret letter #3



"Im breathing in
im breaking again
i see your name
tattooed on my skin"
-i only hope you're
thinking of me too



"You were like a dream
on a summer night,
i knew you wouldn't
last"

-but i wish you would

 





“I love you, god damn it!
So don't you dare say
i don't care"

-please tell me that you care for me too



 



"Nevermind
you don't care "
-To my so-called best friend

Secret letter #2



"I beg and beg
and cry and cry
and i still can't see the reason why
why he left and said goodbye"
-to my dad

 




"I keep telling myself
it's okay to be alone;
but sometimes i  find myself
crying
and craving
for someone to hold me"


 
















Cigarettes didn’t phase me,
cuts didn’t scare me,
drugs didn’t need me
but god I went an hour
without you and
I finally realized
what addiction was like



















 








“I wish I knew how to love someone without killing myself. How to mend hearts without breaking my own. How to kiss and not create bruises.”



 

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