To My
Best Friend:
I'm so sorry I've ignored you for so long. I promise
I'll pay more attention to you.
But, what's the deal? Why are you hanging out with him and her
and them?
What's wrong with me? Am I not enough? Don't I pay the
price of your friendship often enough for you? I offer myself to
you and don't even scream when you take the first bite, carve
out the first letter, stab the first heart.
You're my silver monster, my best friend, my worst nightmare,
my nighttime lover. Please stop leaving me so ragged and gasing for
breath. If you want to go, then go.
Don't let me stop you.
Don't ask me to help you.
Sincerely,
-broken-but-still-dreaming-