Have you
ever,
broken down
sobbing after so long of being
strong? crumbled to
the floor, hands
by your face. Your face scrunches up and you let out that first
gasp. You
try to be quiet but eventually it becomes loud, heart-wrenching
sobs. You cry and cry so
much you can't breathe. You
ask whoever's up there; ''Why?
Why me? Why this? Why can't I just be dead?'' You say
you want to end it all right there. You sob you, trying to gasp breaths in
between. Eventually
you completely collapse on the floor after, and just lay there,
numb.