ShiningForever

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Joined: April 20, 2013
Last Seen: 5 years
user id: 357551
Gender: F
Shining forever.

After all that has happened, I am still shining, and I will keep shining -- forever.



 
This is me.

I may not be full of glamor, nor bursting with joy, nor brimming with cheerful songs. But this is me, and if you don't like it, I don't need you here.

I am not the girl I once was. She is gone. Dead. She's deserted me, leaving the 'me' I call 'myself' behind. This is what's left, what's left after the storm. No matter how little I may look like the quiet, peaceful town I once resembled, the tattered and dilapidated dump that reamains after the storm is still the same town. That town is me.

I have lost much, gained little. I have grown much, and have carelessly replaced what was lost with weak links, much weaker than those that could be forged by another. Yet I can make by. I will make by. This tattered heart is several months strong, and something tells me it's still got some fight left in it.

I may not be beautiful, but I do have beauty, the beauty in my steadfast perserverence. I may not be bursting with joy, yet I know that my God is bursting in joy, for I am a survivor. I may not be filled from head to toe with cheerful songs, no, but I do harbor songs. My woeful heart is filled with lonesome melodies, with chilling harmonies, and terrible, tear-touched euphonies. I know I have a chance, sometime in the far, far away future, but as for now, I am all alone.

Yet I will stand.

Quotes by ShiningForever

In the morning when you rise

I bless the sun, I bless the skies

I bless your lips, I bless your eyes

My blessing goes with you



This is my prayer for you

There for you, ever true

Each, every day for you

In everything you do

And when you come to me

And hold me close to you

I bless you

And you bless me, too




When your weary heart is tired

If the world would leave you
uninspired

When nothing more of love's desired

My blessing goes with you



When the storms of life are strong

When you're wounded, when you don't belong

When you no longer hear my song

My blessing goes with you




This is my prayer for you

There for you, ever true

Each, every day for you

In everything you do

And when you come to me

And hold me close to you

I bless you

And you bless me, too






I will forever love you. I will remember you. I will never forget what you've taught me, and I miss you beyond words. I regret what has transpired but I guess in time I'll have to accept what has come. I love you. I always will.
There's no garuntees,
It's take every change you get;
Don't turn them away
And have nothing but regrets;
Life moves too fast,
Let's make it last...
Everytime I listen to my heart,
Telling me it longs to go back home
I remain confident of this:
    I will see the goodness of the Lord
    in the land of the living.
 Wait for the Lord;
    be strong and take heart
    and wait for the Lord.

- Psalm 27:13-14
Emergency Numbers
When in sorrow, call John 14

When you have sinned, call Psalm 51

When you worry, call Matthew 6:19-34

When you are in dancer, call Psalm 91

When your faith needs stillig, call Hebrews 11

When you feel down and out, call Romans 8:31

When you want peace and rest, call Matthew 11:25-30

When the world seems bigger than God, call Psalm 90

If your pockets are empty, call Psalm 37

When you are lonely and fearful, call Psaml 23

When you grow bitter and critical, call 1 Corinthians 13

For how to get along with other men, call Romans 12

If you are depressed, call Psalm 27

If people seem unkind, call John 15
Things I am:

- stupid
- fat
- liar
- unworthy
- friendless
- lazy
- weak
- lifeless
- ugly
- unwanted
- dying
- mistake
- uncaring
- cruel
- cold
- worhless
- failure
- rude
- pretensious
- drama-queen
For ages, I have been falling. Falling into an everlasting darkness, with every passing moment, Gravity strenghtening her ever-powerful hold. All this time, I've been yearning for what is gone. For what is no longer with me.

Has a new light opened up in my life? Has this new sister, this unfamiliar face, the one with the smile simply calling me, Has she come to untie my chains? Is it she who will resque me, who will re-forge to ruins of my life, making me strong again?

Is she really my sister?
I'm not perfect
Just forgiven
I won't fight my fate.
I just wish you'd pass judgement already.
Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial,

because when he has stood the test, he will

receive the crown of life that God has promised

to those who love him.


- James 1:12