ShiningForever

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Joined: April 20, 2013
Last Seen: 1 decade
user id: 357551
Gender: F
Shining forever.

After all that has happened, I am still shining, and I will keep shining -- forever.



 
This is me.

I may not be full of glamor, nor bursting with joy, nor brimming with cheerful songs. But this is me, and if you don't like it, I don't need you here.

I am not the girl I once was. She is gone. Dead. She's deserted me, leaving the 'me' I call 'myself' behind. This is what's left, what's left after the storm. No matter how little I may look like the quiet, peaceful town I once resembled, the tattered and dilapidated dump that reamains after the storm is still the same town. That town is me.

I have lost much, gained little. I have grown much, and have carelessly replaced what was lost with weak links, much weaker than those that could be forged by another. Yet I can make by. I will make by. This tattered heart is several months strong, and something tells me it's still got some fight left in it.

I may not be beautiful, but I do have beauty, the beauty in my steadfast perserverence. I may not be bursting with joy, yet I know that my God is bursting in joy, for I am a survivor. I may not be filled from head to toe with cheerful songs, no, but I do harbor songs. My woeful heart is filled with lonesome melodies, with chilling harmonies, and terrible, tear-touched euphonies. I know I have a chance, sometime in the far, far away future, but as for now, I am all alone.

Yet I will stand.

Quotes by ShiningForever

That moment of awkward joy
When you realize that x does indeed equal 69
Like Night
Like Day
A poem by ShiningForever

Unlike are the eagle by air and the deer by land,
Nor the hunter and the hunted;
Likewise the cry of a jackdaw, song of a lark
Different by night, by day!
A change granted by the northernly wind carrying long-awaited rains
Yet overshadowed by the curse of a storm,
For upon the tips of the wings of the bird by dawn
Rides a 'gift' one cannot share.

So grant me, young bird, young robin, young swan,
Grant me not your wings!
But a way to the west to the home of my heart,
Where soptted feathers lie;
Like fawn, like eaglet, like day, like night;
What gift lies in wings that don't grant true flight?
Away, away! To dawn, to day!
Carrying the light of far-away stars.
Yep. Just came back from another sh*tty day at school. I barely got any sleep last night and really wish I didn't wake up at all. I started the day off by coming in late, because my stupid sister started screaming and my parents fel the need to appease her was far greater than that of me actually getting to school on time. My sister's 17.

And then I continued by going to the wrong class, because the sign on the door read "Day Blue" when in fact, it was a red day.

When I finally found the right class, I proceeded to learn that William's a jerk. I already knew AJ's a complete a$$hole, yet maybe he thought I forgot or something because he obviously felt the need to prove his obvious stupidity again.

And convince me that I'm a worthless moron in the process, which at this point really isn't that hard to do. I already know.

Fourth week of school, my science teacher's made it quite clear he doesn't plan on teaching anything. Not that it matters, I've already lost everything that matters.

I ate nothing for breakfast, and by the time I got to lunch I'd completely lost my appetite.

Also I probably got a 0 on that huge literature test because I have more than enough to worry about as is than memorizing stupid poems by stupid Emily Dickinson.

Fml -_-
Here I am, screaming for hope, for a savior.
Okay guys seriously lime how dow you skip lines (like enter on a computor) on an iPod? Like am I stupid or can you not do this either?
Hey, Wittians, About a month ago, I left this place. Signed out of my account. Took the path less traveled. Blah de blah de blah. I left to seek my destiny, to find my heart.  Well, I'm back, aren't I? So that must mean only one thing: I found it.  Yep; that's right. I've found what I've been looking for. I believe at birth, somewhere in everyone's heart, is the truest happiness and peace, and although it may be locked away at times, all one needs to do is find the key.  I found the key. And then I lost it.  I left because I wasn't happy. I left to find true joy elsewhere. I glimpsed my heart, and then it was gone. Poof.  It left, taking my dreams, my desire, my hope, my faith, my passion, and my destiny with it.  They say home is where the heart is, so I'm truly homeless now. A hobo. Oh yeah, did I mention that I'm ugly? My life is a dump right now. Everything's so dark, it's blinding. Yeah, I guess I did walk the path that is, for me, less traveled. I've fallen into the pit I'd vowed I'd never fall victim to. The pit that is depression.  I have nothing left. No hope. No dreams. No passion. No light at the end of the tunnel. My life is at it's darkest point today, and seems to lead closer and closer to the fires of hell with each labored breath.  The only hope I have left is in Jesus, my savor, yet at least I know He'll be there to greet me in Heaven.  --- I'm terribly sorry, Wittians, I shouldn't be ranting to you like this. A month ago I left. Today I return. That's all I wanted to say.  Good-night. ~ ShiningForever
Over the past few months or so, I’ve been forced to realize many things. Some shocked me to the point of tears, others were the dreadful truths that I’d sorta known all along, but had refused to accept until now. Over time, all of which I’ve come to accept.
 
One of the main questions I’ve struggled to answer was this: what is my place in life? What is my purpose? They say home is where the heart is, and I’ve began to realize that my heart’s not here, not in Witty and not in the internet. Witty is not my home and never was.
 
I know a lot of people have left recently, you’re likely reading this knowing I’m just another. Yes, my time has come to leave as well. I must follow the path I was meant to follow, wherever that path may be, so for now, I log out of this abandoned account for what’s likely to be the very last time.
 
I’d like to say a quick shout-out to all my followers. Thank you for making my time here fun. I’d also like to say a few words to a member we know as Inspirestar. I won’t ever forget you. I hope everything works out for you, and I am dreadfully sorry to not have lived up to my word. Again, I won’t ever, ever, forget you. May StarClan light your path </3
 
 Thank you. Thank you, and farewell.

 
Farewell
 

Goodbye



 All creatures in disguise….
It's my birthday

And I'm wondering if there's anything left to celebrate

Quiz

What's your real first name?
Jenna

Will you lie in this survey?
Nope

who are you currently talking to?
Jordan

relationship status?
Non-existant

crush?
None

favorite color?
Green

school?
Fronteir (It's a food god school! :D)

do you have a best friend?

Yes ;)

is there one person you have never got into a fight with?

Yeah

do you hate anyone?
No, I try not to


do you like school?

I don't mind it, but I rather miss it in the Summer

who have you texted today?
No one

do you know anybody that's in the hospital right now?
Yeah


when was the last time you cried?
Tuesday

have you ever cried over your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?

Never had one, so no

do you have a myspace?
No

do you have a facebook?
No

do you have plans for this weekend?
Yep


what's the last thing you ate?
Potato chips

are you in a good mood?
Eh, not a bad mood

do you think this survey is long?
Yes, but I'm really bored, so

who was the last person you got into a fight with?
Erica D:

is there one person you get into a fight with at least once a week?

No

someone you hate?
The media 


are you a straight A student ?
I get A's and B's

what's your favorite period in school?

Math

this survey is done.

A-Put your music player on shuffle
B-Press forward for each question
YouReady?

1.) How am I feeling today?
Moment to Moment - Henry Mancini
2.) What is my best friend's theme song?
All I Want for Christmas is my Two Front Teeth - Traditional
(LMAO!)

3.) What is in store for this weekend?
Woman to Woman - Joe Cocker
4.) How is my life going?
Highway Chile - Jimi Hendrix
5.) What song will they play at my funeral?

All Shook Up - Elvis Presley
6.) How does the world see me?
Hound Dog - Elvis Presley
7.) What do my friends really think of me?

Circle of Life - The Lion King
8.) Why is someone in love with me?
Have a Drink on Me - AC/DC
9.) How can I make myself happy?
Alright for Now - Tom Petty
10.) What is some good advice?

Ain't No Telling - Jimi Hendrix
11.) What do I think my current theme song is?

Love and Honesty - Hawaiian Style Band
(Awwwwwwwwwwww)
12.)What type of men do you like?

That Man that Got Away - Judy Garland
13.) What should I do with my love life?

Killing  Floor - Jimi Hendrix
14.) What will your dying words be?

There's a Coach Comin' In - Chorus
15.) What is your situation at school?

Chicago - Judy Garland
16.) Who is your Lover?

Back in the USA - Linda Ronstandt
17.) How do you react to rejection?
The Wild Horse - Rod Stewart
18.) Life Story?
Santa Claus Is Coming to Town - Traditional
(LOLLLOLOLOOLOLOLOL)
19.) What was your last relationship like?

Bungle in the Jungle - Jethro Tull
20.) What you want to do right now?
We Gotta Live Together - Jimi Hendrix
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