ShiningForever

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Shining forever.

After all that has happened, I am still shining, and I will keep shining -- forever.



 
This is me.

I may not be full of glamor, nor bursting with joy, nor brimming with cheerful songs. But this is me, and if you don't like it, I don't need you here.

I am not the girl I once was. She is gone. Dead. She's deserted me, leaving the 'me' I call 'myself' behind. This is what's left, what's left after the storm. No matter how little I may look like the quiet, peaceful town I once resembled, the tattered and dilapidated dump that reamains after the storm is still the same town. That town is me.

I have lost much, gained little. I have grown much, and have carelessly replaced what was lost with weak links, much weaker than those that could be forged by another. Yet I can make by. I will make by. This tattered heart is several months strong, and something tells me it's still got some fight left in it.

I may not be beautiful, but I do have beauty, the beauty in my steadfast perserverence. I may not be bursting with joy, yet I know that my God is bursting in joy, for I am a survivor. I may not be filled from head to toe with cheerful songs, no, but I do harbor songs. My woeful heart is filled with lonesome melodies, with chilling harmonies, and terrible, tear-touched euphonies. I know I have a chance, sometime in the far, far away future, but as for now, I am all alone.

Yet I will stand.

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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6916026
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Wow, I needed that
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6900969
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I cannot tell you how much I needed this.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6879986
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Tell me. What do you think of him? Do you like him? Does he bother you? Do you ever wish he'd just leave you alone?
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inspirestar 1 decade ago on quote #6879986
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Shine! I thought you left? And well yes I like him. So much. And no I am grateful for everytime I get to talk to him or see him. And I know that now. :)
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I'm sorry.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I don't care, you do realize you can never be forgiven right? think about it Jenna, how many times have you said that before only to leave us again. We're both just done with it, and you know it's worse fighting on Witty. I hate it. You knew that witty was the place I discovered before you and jordan, you knew that i come on everyday. Yet just a few weeks after our "final fight" you come on and post quotes about god. Since when were you religious? You spoke nothing of god for the two years I knew you.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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At the heart, I am the same. At the heart, no one changes, I know that much, my heart is still the same and always will be. I trust that my God will guide me and that whatever happens, He will be with me and He will always wait for me. I know that much.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Just stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I'm sorry.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I don't care, you do realize you can never be forgiven right? think about it Jenna, how many times have you said that before only to leave us again. We're both just done with it, and you know it's worse fighting on Witty. I hate it. You knew that witty was the place I discovered before you and jordan, you knew that i come on everyday. Yet just a few weeks after our "final fight" you come on and post quotes about god. Since when were you religious? You spoke nothing of god for the two years I knew you.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Erica, I am not the same. I would give anything for life to go back to the way it was, the was it was a year ago. It really hurts that you don't believe me by your words, but I guess I can understand, I lost your trust and shouldn't expect it.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You know what, I love the way things are going now. Me and jordan are closer than ever, and you finally mastered that skating spin according to your quote, looks like you're finally focusing after all that time. I know we were a distraction to you. And yes, you have lost my trust. You completely left us twice, each time for a few months. Then the 2nd time you come back with a final goodbye, and after all of it settles down you have the nerve to lie to katie. To KATIE. How could you do that? You may not be the same girl you were but you don't cut.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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At the heart, I am the same. At the heart, no one changes, I know that much, my heart is still the same and always will be. I trust that my God will guide me and that whatever happens, He will be with me and He will always wait for me. I know that much.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Just stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I'm sorry.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I don't care, you do realize you can never be forgiven right? think about it Jenna, how many times have you said that before only to leave us again. We're both just done with it, and you know it's worse fighting on Witty. I hate it. You knew that witty was the place I discovered before you and jordan, you knew that i come on everyday. Yet just a few weeks after our "final fight" you come on and post quotes about god. Since when were you religious? You spoke nothing of god for the two years I knew you.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I didn't. Not then.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You don't do it now either, This isn't the right way to go Jenna. Please stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Erica, I am not the same. I would give anything for life to go back to the way it was, the was it was a year ago. It really hurts that you don't believe me by your words, but I guess I can understand, I lost your trust and shouldn't expect it.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You know what, I love the way things are going now. Me and jordan are closer than ever, and you finally mastered that skating spin according to your quote, looks like you're finally focusing after all that time. I know we were a distraction to you. And yes, you have lost my trust. You completely left us twice, each time for a few months. Then the 2nd time you come back with a final goodbye, and after all of it settles down you have the nerve to lie to katie. To KATIE. How could you do that? You may not be the same girl you were but you don't cut.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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At the heart, I am the same. At the heart, no one changes, I know that much, my heart is still the same and always will be. I trust that my God will guide me and that whatever happens, He will be with me and He will always wait for me. I know that much.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Just stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I'm sorry.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I don't care, you do realize you can never be forgiven right? think about it Jenna, how many times have you said that before only to leave us again. We're both just done with it, and you know it's worse fighting on Witty. I hate it. You knew that witty was the place I discovered before you and jordan, you knew that i come on everyday. Yet just a few weeks after our "final fight" you come on and post quotes about god. Since when were you religious? You spoke nothing of god for the two years I knew you.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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And yeah I cut on my thighs too
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I wear shorts that go all the way to my knee, which is a double bonus because it also hides by fat butt better than gym shorts...
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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true i used to wear shorts that went to my knees, but now im scared that they might ride up.. so i just wear sweats to be on the safe side..
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I always get there really early, corner myself between the wall and the locker and try to change really fast. I get nervous every time, and seriously I usually start panicking around the beginning of second period (i have PE 3rd)
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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same here, i try changing as fast as i call in a corner.. i ahve 2nd period.. and my friend changes beside me(she doesnt kne only 3-4 people know :/) I start freking out when my shirt slips and some of them show.. and tahts why i dont wear shorts in gym anymore, i wear sweats..
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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And yeah I cut on my thighs too
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I wear shorts that go all the way to my knee, which is a double bonus because it also hides by fat butt better than gym shorts...
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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true i used to wear shorts that went to my knees, but now im scared that they might ride up.. so i just wear sweats to be on the safe side..
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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awwwe, i always cover it by pulling my shirt down as low as i can, other times when its a new cut i chnage in a bathroom stall.. sure people are nice but they cant know, no matter what,,
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I always get there really early, corner myself between the wall and the locker and try to change really fast. I get nervous every time, and seriously I usually start panicking around the beginning of second period (i have PE 3rd)
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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same here, i try changing as fast as i call in a corner.. i ahve 2nd period.. and my friend changes beside me(she doesnt kne only 3-4 people know :/) I start freking out when my shirt slips and some of them show.. and tahts why i dont wear shorts in gym anymore, i wear sweats..
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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And yeah I cut on my thighs too
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I wear shorts that go all the way to my knee, which is a double bonus because it also hides by fat butt better than gym shorts...
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[deleted] 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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true i used to wear shorts that went to my knees, but now im scared that they might ride up.. so i just wear sweats to be on the safe side..
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You never told me you cut
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I didn't. Not then.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You don't do it now either, This isn't the right way to go Jenna. Please stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Erica, I am not the same. I would give anything for life to go back to the way it was, the was it was a year ago. It really hurts that you don't believe me by your words, but I guess I can understand, I lost your trust and shouldn't expect it.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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You know what, I love the way things are going now. Me and jordan are closer than ever, and you finally mastered that skating spin according to your quote, looks like you're finally focusing after all that time. I know we were a distraction to you. And yes, you have lost my trust. You completely left us twice, each time for a few months. Then the 2nd time you come back with a final goodbye, and after all of it settles down you have the nerve to lie to katie. To KATIE. How could you do that? You may not be the same girl you were but you don't cut.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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At the heart, I am the same. At the heart, no one changes, I know that much, my heart is still the same and always will be. I trust that my God will guide me and that whatever happens, He will be with me and He will always wait for me. I know that much.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Just stop.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I'm sorry.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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I don't care, you do realize you can never be forgiven right? think about it Jenna, how many times have you said that before only to leave us again. We're both just done with it, and you know it's worse fighting on Witty. I hate it. You knew that witty was the place I discovered before you and jordan, you knew that i come on everyday. Yet just a few weeks after our "final fight" you come on and post quotes about god. Since when were you religious? You spoke nothing of god for the two years I knew you.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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My entire life, actually, yet more signifigantly in the recent six months. I know there is a Heaven, I know there is a Hell, I know there is a cretor, my God, and I know that it is through mercy and grace that I am saved. And I pray every day that one day, I may meet you in Heaven.
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Butterbear 1 decade ago on quote #6881594
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Stop it with the god talk. Stop it with the lying.Stop it with everything. And I find it funny how you didnt even bother to reply to my whole thing about witty, this is supossed to be an escape for me. But whenever you come on it's the opposite,i'm facing the past again and i dont want to, not with you. You are a straight A student, your parents love you, and you have friends. You have no right to say what you do to people, to make them believe your words, to make them feel bad for you. It's not right, Jenna, it's not.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Thank you ;)
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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I NOT LIE!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878581
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Nope, my friend told me this but she doesn't have a witty. And yep.
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878581
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*danger
Yeah I fail at typing today
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878581
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lol oops *stirring
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Lolololol
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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I am truthful, do not lie! Your non of those things Bove!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Thank you ;)
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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I NOT LIE!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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You just confirmed the liar one.
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Yeh that's the only one that's true!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Lolololol
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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I am truthful, do not lie! Your non of those things Bove!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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Thank you ;)
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Alexisiscool 1 decade ago on quote #6878442
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I NOT LIE!
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ShiningForever 1 decade ago on quote #6876547
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I feel you on that one.
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