I know I may not see my life this way, and I should start taking
my own advice. Ladies, and Gentlemen, you were brought into
this world for a reason, each and every one of us have a reason
to walk this earth, and live this once in a lifetime (No pun
intended) opportunity to do millions upon millions of actions,
and experience so many feelings. If you ever attempted
suicide, or even thought of it, even tried, or have harmed
yourself in any sort of way, realize this, you have one life,
once it's gone, you will regret it. Your life is like a
drawing board, if you don't like where it's going or
what's on it, clean it, and draw what you want to see.
I've gone through a lot of difficult times, and nearly
killed myself, I should of been dead, and I realized, I should of
died. I should be dead, right now, but no, I'm having
fun, I moved on, and i'm experiencing the most I can get from
living a healthy, happy life. Girls and boys, if you're
sad, remember you're not the only one going through a
difficult time, and you're not standing alone. I'm
here for you, I don't know you, and I don't need to know
you. I can completely understand anything you're going
through. I'm only 15, and older girls would laugh at me
and say stuff like, "You're only fifteen, stop looking
for attention" "You haven't even lived yet, Get a
life" Yeah, well to those girls, they're
struggling too, and they just want everyone else to struggle.
They're right, i'm 15, I haven't lived much of
my life yet, that doesn't mean I haven't experienced
much. My parents got divorced, I've had 10 surgeries, I
have bones in places where they shouldn't be which cause
ultimate pain, my mom or step father have life threatening
conditions, but you know what? I still wake up every morning, and
I realize, I lived another day, I survived yesterday, and i'm
stronger than ever, and I will make it through this day, and I
will do it without cutting, or thinking about suicide.
I'll go to soccer practice and I won't have to
worry if the older girls are laughing behind my back, or thinking
negatively about me, because you know what. We are all
individuals, none of us are like one another. And I think,
What others think about me, is just a thought, but the positive
things I think about myself, is one more step further into my
healthy lifestyle. One more step into being stronger than I
was before. I don't longer see these scars on my legs
as "body-ruining" "weakling" scars. No
I see them as battle wounds. For moving forward from that low
point and suriving those terrible days. There is a lot of
thought in this paragraph, what I mean by all of this. No
one can control your emotions. Only you can. No one
can decide what you are like. Only you can. No one
can tell you what to do, and push you around. Only you can
push yourself forward into making right decisions, and having
faith and hope. I walk beside anyone who has life troubles,
anyone who needs a friend, I am here. Anyone who thinks
they are alone, or anyone who is afraid to speak up. I am
here for you, and I will always be here for anyone who needs a
friend.