ShootingStar123

I wish...

I wish that something good would happen in my life, and actually stay good.
I wish that I was good enough for the only guy I will ever love 
I wish that guys wouldn't just talk to me because they think I'll hook up with them
I wish I felt comfortable around my family
I wish I could go an entire day without feeling so stressed
I wish I would wake up one day, and be skinny and beautiful
I wish people wouldn't judge me so much, because they know nothing about me
I wish I could sleep more than 2 hours a night
I wish I could eat more than once a day without feeling sick
I wish I could handle what most people can and not get a panic attack
I wish I could go somewhere and be able to pretend I am the perfect, carefree, teenage girl

I wish.... That one of my wishes would actually come true</3

REALLY JUST NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO.. ABOUT ANYTHING... PLEASE AND THANK YOU...BUT ONLY IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO TALK.... </3

Love will come many times in your life, some not as deep and meaningful as others, but still many times.
When it does come, you have to be open to it, think of it as if it as the love that you would marry, not the love you would leave.

<3

When I was younger, my parents would tell me when love comes, it stays forever....
Now they are divorced, remarried, and have other kids besides my brother and I. 
When I think about it, I feel like I was lied to.. They rose my hopes up so high for love, only to have my own major heartbreak be the cause of my reality check. 

Anyone else feel this way? </3

Life is full of mistakes, lies, and regret.

But our mistakes are what make us who we are.
And even if you don't believe so, every single one of us is perfect being exactly who we are.
If nobody made mistakes, we would all be the same.
Being different is how life is. 

You have to learn to eventually accept your differences, therefore your mistakes in life.

I still miss him.. So much. 
I miss the way he would hold my hand, and if we didn't intertwine our fingers he would recorrect it and say "this way it's easier to never let you go." 
I miss the way he would push me on the swing in his backyard and laugh when I dropped my popsicle on the floor
I miss cuddling with him and him whispering in my ear telling me how special I am to him
I miss kissing him, when everything disappears, and it's just him and I left in the world, it felt so right to me
I miss our conersations til 5 in the morning, when we would talk about everything 
I miss his parents talking about how I'm just like family, that they love me..
I miss thinking that for once in my life, I meant something to someone
I miss waking up in the morning, and having a reason to get up
I miss feeling a need to take care of myself
I miss how I was when we were together, but its over, he left me for someone else.. I'm never going to get him back, no matter what I do. </3

Why do I fall for guys so fast?
I finally figured it out.
I have such a low self esteme that when a guy makes me feel better about myself, I actomatically fall for them. It's only afterwords that I realize that I meant nothing to them at all. That I was just a girl to flirt with for a few days until they found someone else. This happens so much to me, and I don't know how to stop falling like this..

I just keep wishing for the day that someone makes me feel special, actually believes I am special, and stays. <3

The guy I love asked me out, 
he has a past of fooling around with girls,
his dad had comitment issues until he was 26, and everyone says that he is just like his dad
I think that's the reason why he does what he does.
He still likes a girl that he fooled around with earlier this year, but he told me he is going to stay faithful to me because he promised, and he doesn't want to hurt me.
When he asked me out, he told me that he doesn't want to hurt me, that I mean more to him then anything else. That he is going to try to stay faithful. but i can tell he's truly scared about what's to come. 
I don't know what to do to show him that he's nothing like his dad. That he can be faithful, that he can be all he wants to be, and that I love with all of my heart, and whatever he does, I still will. 
How do i convice him to stay with me despite all of the things telling him not to?