ShyYates

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Joined: October 23, 2014
Last Seen: 9 years
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Some bout me :  I  LOVE Bvb! BVB Is my life!..I'm not really ur avarage 14 yr old girl. Yea my grades ain't so good. Blah blah blah. Unlike most girls i don't think i'm pretty. I am far from perfect. Yes, i have self harmed and i'm trying to stop. I hate myself so much. My story is messed up. I get in more trouble than i should. I'm supposed to be a freshman but i'm in 8th grade. I'm extremly weird. My fears ain't like most peoples. Just fake smile and move on..

Quotes by ShyYates

Highlet  the Things You Have Done



Graduated high school
Kissed someone
Smoked a ciggarete
Got so drunk you passed out
Rode in a police car for something you didn't do

Rode every ride at an amusement park 
Collected something really stupid
Gone to a rock concert
Help someone
Gone fishing
Watched 4 movies in one night.

Gone long periods of time without sleep
Lied to someone
Snorted cocaine
Dealt drugs
Been in a car accident
Been in a Tornado
Done hard drugs
Watched someone die

Been at a funeral
Burned yourself

Ran a marathon
Cried yourself to sleep
Spent over $200 in one day
Flown on a plane
Sat first class (1st seat ) on a plane
Cheated on someone
Been cheated on
Written a 10 page letter
Gone skiing
Been Sailing
Cut yourself
Had a best friend
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something

Been to jail
Dangerously close to being in jail
Skipped School
Skipped a class
Had Detention
Got in trouble for something you didn't do
Stolen books from a library
Gone to a different country
Dropped out of school
Been in a mental hospital
Been treated in a mental hospital

Have watched all the Harry potter movies
Had an online Diary
Fired a gun
Had a yard sale
Had a lemonade stand
Actually made money off of the lemonade stand
Been in a school play
Been fired from a job
Taken a lie detector test
Swam with dolphins

Gone to seaworld.
Gone to seaworld and seen Shamo

Got absaloutly socked by Shamo.
Voted for someone on a reality TV show
Written poetry
Read more than 20 books a year
Written over a 30 page essay
Gone to Europe

Loved someone you shouldn't have
Befriended someone you shouldn't have
Used a colouring book over the age of 12.

Had surgery
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Seen the Washington Monument
Had more than 5 im's/chats online going all at once.
Overdosed  (accidently)
Had a drug or alcohol problem
Relative to someone with a serious alcohol/drug problem
Been in a fist fight
Gone surfing in California
Had or have a pet hamster
Pet a wild animal

Used a credit card
Did "spirit day" at your school
Dyed your hair

Got a tattoo
Had something pierced
Known someone with HIV or AIDS
Fell in love/ had or have a crush on your bestfriend.
Got kicked out of school for a while

have ever had s*x
 





 I need food....




 
                        Yes i do make mistakes.
                         So don't you b*tch. 




 
                        Yes i do make mistakes.
                         So don't you b*tch. 




 
                        Yes i do make mistakes.
                         So don't you b*tch. 







                 That moment where someone says something bad that's "not a big deal" or something small but i just wanna brake down and cry..
The hurt in my eyes is all that has to be said
Sometimes I know I'm better off dead
The pain is the only thing I can feel
Knowing it's the one thing that's real
Behind all the games and lies
An emptiness haunts my eyes
A person who I used to be
Worse even though it wasn't me
Sorrow consuming every thought
Slowly losing everything I've got
Darkness closing in all around 
Still I don't make a single sound
Evil fills the void inside
This life's not one I'll confide
However deeper someone tries to look
Whatever happens the ground has shook
The dread and hate leaves me in a daze
All around me demons fires blaze
Living isn't worthwhile if its torture
Yet it's that to which I'm not sure
Don't try to understand the words written here
For I'm not the one to fear.
It's dark. 
It's Horibble.
You can't escape.



There's a cold dark corner
in the back of my room,
it speaks to me
and says I'm coming for you.

As I lie on my bed
in the fetal position,
my eyes are closed
hoping and wishing.

Maybe that one day
my dreams will come true,
that I don't have to be here
so down and blue.


The corner keeps talking
about how I'm going to die,
all I can do
is lie there and cry.

As the corner gets closer
and takes me in,
my soul starts to burn
as so does my skin.

My bones shall lie there
turning to dust,
my bed surrounding
nothing but rust



~ I didn't make this a friend did. 

There's a cold dark corner
in the back of my room,
it speaks to me
and says I'm coming for you.

As I lie on my bed
in the fetal position,
my eyes are closed
hoping and wishing.

Maybe that one day
my dreams will come true,
that I don't have to be here
so down and blue.


The corner keeps talking
about how I'm going to die,
all I can do
is lie there and cry.

As the corner gets closer
and takes me in,
my soul starts to burn
as so does my skin.

My bones shall lie there
turning to dust,
my bed surrounding
nothing but rust



~ I didn't make this a friend did. 


Depression, you are the deepest part of my soul, of my whole being
And I don't know how to release you from enveloping the darkness
And taking away the stars from my heart and my spirit.
I understand you, and know you will never leave me but please,
Release me from this infinite tunnel and spiral of utter sadness
And grief as you have taken from me my spirit and my joy
And have left me lifeless and a walking corpse,
Breathless and lifeless with no joy and no future.

Depression, I know you will never let me go
You will haunt me and wrap me tightly within your grasp.
And when I leave this earth, you will depart with me
And I hope then, you will finally release your hold
And allow me to be free, to fly with the birds
And glide with the winds of time.