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i feel 
               defeated
 

anyone else remember when
               the biggest witty issue was james brass?
 

life's too short
               To even care at all
 

i just want
                        to fall hopelessly in love
 

Dear bd,
So this has been bothering me since last year
Remember when you asked me out during lunch?
at least, i think that's what you asked.
it was so loud.
were you serious?
We've been friends before that
but you were with your friends
and i don't really trust them.
you're a really funny person
and you're really nice too
and on top of that, you're popular
but i wasn't sure if you were serious
and i didn't want to be the awkward kid
that did think you were being serious
so today, you were just standing there
and i really wanted to talk to you
how have you been?
even though we weren't good friends,
we were still friends, i guess.
getting back to my point,
you went outside
and you just stood there out in the cold.
why?
i don't want to sound like that child
who thinks the world revolves around them
but was it because i was there?
lol. what am i even thinking?
of course not.
i always make things more awkward in my head
than they are.
but anyways, i guess what i'm trying to say is
were you serious when you asked me out like a year ago?
Why am I still thinking about this?
it's probably ancient history to you by now.
 

         Dear Lauren,
                                             Hey. Remember me?
        we were like best friends on modified Track
                    and now you won't even talk to me
                                what did i ever do to you?
                                         i used to admire you
but now i think you're just an egotistical b*tch
 

                              Obviously still not over you... awk?
                                 9 months... not that I'm counting...
                                        why can't we just talk again?
                                         I really miss you as a friend.
             Remember when we were talking about that book
                      and the one thing you remembered about it
     was that they threw babies in trenches & killed them?
just randomly remembered it while i was dissecting today
                         and i thought it was cool that the rat's
                                         internal organs were squishy
                                                                        anyways
                                                 can we be friends again?