*gloomy*

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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Sooo many apologies for not speaking to you in nearly a month! School has been keeping me all kinds of occupied.
Well you're just a few months younger, kinda crazy, that we're in the same age-group and all.
I'm alright about teaching, helping other, etc., I just don't really have to patience for it. Especially if it's to someone who doesn't want to learn. Not that I can really blame students, you're right in that the education system is godawful.
No problem, and thank you! I find that where finesse can't be found, enthusiasm always makes up for the roughness, at least when it comes to communication, for me.
Same! Although I'm starting to picture you as being tall, for some reason. Are you? I'm not, even though I've been insisting for years that I'm average height, I had to face the music eventually.
My parents are the opposite, they're pretty laid back about most things. Which is so odd, considering the type of person I turned out to be. Not that I'm a bad person or anything, just surprising, if you knew my parents. They're very impulsive and go-with-the-flow, and I'm... not. I plan things viciously and have to have control over myself, though actually, that might be a result of their parenting, as I have/had very little control in the going-on's of my life, so my choices and personal situations are kept under lock and key, where whatever I decide, I know it will be me choosing.
All of my friends have jobs... I think I want one too but I just have no idea where to even start.
I'm... the opposite, sort of. I mean, I probably don't have anymore experience in romance than you do, but personally, I'm far too observant for my own good. I know everyone who likes me and it honestly sucks. It doesn't feel good to have someone like you when you don't return the feelings, it's just awkward and leaves me feeling strangely guilty. I'm pretty turned-off from relationships at this point in my life.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Ah yes... school. I got my schedule for the new school year and, although I'm happy with it, I have exactly 0 classes with my friend (the one I've been telling you about, her name's Leah).
Hmmm... May of 99' or 98'? I was born in 98', and I can't imagine you being as well, that's pretty old for grade 11, but not unheard of I suppose. Even I'm pretty old for my grade though, it would seem. But given, I don't know how things are done in Canada, age-wise.
I've always loved my teachers, but I can honestly say I've never considered being a teacher. It just never seemed like something I would enjoy, too much interaction with other people.
You're really great with words! I always feel like, outside of writing, I can never get my thoughts out right, but you seem to do it wonderfully (or it seems that way, I obviously don't know your thoughts so I can't be sure).
I don't mind the ranting at all! I, for the most part, feel the same. It's almost eerie how similar our thought processes are, and if I didn't already know we don't look similar, I'd start imagining you look like me too.
So you're the older sibling! I... can't imagine that lol. I usually think that I'm mature in most ways, but in others, it's horribly obvious that I've been babied by my family... to the point that I'm embarrassingly lacking in experience with certain social situations cropping up for people my age. That's not necessarily a bad thing... but every time I hear about something from my friends I'm just SO surprised, and they're just like "oh... Brianna... sweetie" and it's just so patronizing and embarrassing. I'm going to be 17 in a few months and that's just... wow.
I don't get it, I'm number 1 in my class dang it, and yet I can't even wrap my mind around the idea of getting a job, because I'm that used to relying on my family. Urgh, I hate it. I just seethe every time someone brings it up.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Urghh, chocolate chip is the bomb.
Yes! Oh my god, it's the worst! Winter is a nice season, I think. Better than Summer, which I can't wait to be over. I like... the time off of school but the heat just... the heat.
Well, lets hope you don't turn 21 before me! Otherwise you might be searching for a few months. Ahh, it's so nice to hear you want to be a pediatrician too, that's just, yeah, really nice to hear.

Yep, yep. I totally understand what you're saying. I have a similar experience. Y'know how I said I kind of feel cheated out of my childhood? Well, I basically had to grow up really fast, so my good memories of it are few and far between. But, whenever I do remember aspects of it that weren't bad, just little day-to-day things that make you feel happy to come home, I want to tell people about them. About getting my brother a pocket watch for his birthday and him giving it back because I liked it so much, about playing the floor's lava, about my mom always putting my crafts on the refrigerator. Whenever I tell people about these things that I remember, they just sort of blow it off, like, of course that stuff happened, like they think every kid gets a stream-lined childhood, and normality is just a part of the package. When really, they don't and it isn't, life is a bit more complicated than that. I'm sure they know that though, maybe it's just easier to not acknowledge it. When you've never been directly affected by something I guess it's easy pretend it doesn't exist, and that it can't affect you in other ways. Sorry, this got really depressing. Anyways, I guess my point is that I don't want it to be like that for anyone else. I had a bad childhood, and honestly, it messed me up. Kids are good, they're open and receptive, they don't deserve the things they get. So if I can help that, I'm going to.

My sister and I are roughly 3-sort-of-4 years apart, her being the elder. The age difference was a lot more obvious when we were younger, but by now it's hardly noticeable, being that we're both about as mature as we're going to get. My brother is 6 years older than me (I'm the youngest in my family), and we're not nearly as close. But, the same goes with him, the age difference was more obvious when we we're younger. Also, he matured a lot slower than me, so there's that.
Yeah, she's an interesting one. I remember it used to bug me (before I really knew her and I thought she was copying me), but she's the type of person who you can't stay angry at, a special brand of oblivious that anger just rolls off of. If I were the yelling type, which I never have been, I think even that would just go right over her head. It's nice though, I'm inclined to overreacting and she keeps me grounded.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Yes, poor me. Give me sympathy cookies.
Yeah, we live in an area where it doesn't get cold enough to just have frozen rain all the time, but it doesn't stay warm enough for the rain to stay... rainy.
It's just been... the worst. The last time I was this busy I worked myself into a ball of stress and became an insomniac. I'm over that now, but I'd really prefer not to take the risk of it happening again.
Nice comparison lol. I plan to get my bar-tending license actually... that way I'll be a pediatrician that can also bar-tend and I've always wanted a killer conversation starter. Lucky me that I consider myself to be wonderful at dishing out advice! Although, I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of endless venting, and you can never really underestimate the power of just being there to listen to someone.
Childhood, in my opinion, is grossly under appreciated. So much stuff happens and it's such an important time, the outcome of it lays out the rest of our future, really. I often feel sort of cheated out of mine, so being able to see someone else experience theirs to its fullest is satisfying in a very heart-warming way. Sorry I'm so off topic~ I could just talk about this all day.
Yeah, the only person who knows almost everything about me is my sister, but that's because we've had practically the same home life.
I share a few quirks with my friend as well, but I think that's more just me rubbing off on her. She's the type to naturally acclimate to and resemble her environments when she's comfortable. It wouldn't work if she forced it, and I don't think she notices her picking up on her friends' habits very often, unless it's pointed out.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Okay I take back what I said about allergies, because my body obviously had other ideas. I haven't stopped sneezing. It feels like Satan himself took up residence in my nose. Who even gets allergies in the middle of summer.
Yeah, I live in an area that kind of over reacts to cold and snow, even though we get a pretty good amount of it. It's weird, being that the same thing happens every years, where people lose it and we end up taking two weeks off.
I was pretty proud of myself too, but I definitely pushed myself too far. I've got a tendency to do that, even though I think I have everything under control (I don't).
Yay! Seeing hard work pay off in the long run is just the most satisfying thing, especially if you'd previously had feelings of working without any hope of a reward.
To strangers, I find that I'm very friendly in a way that makes people see me in a way that I'm not, really. I guess I'm the type of person who needs to know that people can rely on me and trust me with their secrets, so I often ask questions and want to find out stuff about people. On the flip side, I myself am pretty secretive and I don't think there's a single person who I've confided everything about myself in. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
We're luckily on the same wavelength on a good amount of social/political aspects, it's just that our personalities are SO different.
Poetry's always been good about facing issues in a round-a-bout way, talking about things under the surface that, at the time/era, may have been dangerous to reference outright.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Ahh, that makes sense. Actually, I don't think schools are allowed to be in session past June 10th here. We usually finish in early May, but make-up days for snow usually end up pushing graduation back. I actually miss when, several years ago, we started in early August, because that allowed us to have 1st semester exams before Christmas break.
It just so happens that my best friends birthday, my mom's birthday, my dad's birthday, and their anniversary are all lumped together. Then you throw in father's day and... it was a lot. It was all fun, though I'm just glad it's over.
That is true, I may not have needed that much sleep if I were up-to-par, but my body definitely needed to recuperate.
Math has never been my strong suit, so it was a pleasant surprise. My report card over all was over-all just really satisfying, considering I've always had terribly high standards for myself.
Somethings just aren't meant to be, so I'm happy you didn't get torn up over the situation or anything. I always wished I were the type of person who could transcend barriers and make friends with anyone, but I'm just too picky and unwilling to trust people. My friend is though, and now that I think about it, we probably wouldn't be best friends now if we didn't have so many years of history between us. We're quite opposites, but I'm fine with that (I could never get along with someone exactly like myself).
It's a great haircut! Just... the bangs... which aren't a problem now!
*bows*
Yeah, it's not really something that should be messed with unless it's to bring awareness, I suppose.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Congratulations! Phew, I can't imagine going to school so late into June. Just wondering, when does your school year start, usually? Ours is sometime in late August.
I've had so many Birthdays to celebrate! For a good 4 days this weekend they were back-to-back. Then I got sick and slept 12 hours every night from throat medicine side effects, fun times~
Ah yes, what a blessing they have been. I've always been horrible with tests, so I can count my lucky stars. However, the biggest miracle of all is that I made a 100 on my math exam (which I decided to take anyways).
Oh, I'm over it now. I suppose if anyone is to get all of the essays, it should be me, rather than someone who doesn't do well with them.
I'm glad you were able to find relief then, though the lack of a conversation does seem rather disappointing. But, so long as you're happy with the outcome, I suppose that all that matters.
Yeah, short bangs look cute on people who can pull them off, which I do not. All's well now though, they have since grown back out and I can safely leave my house.
/Cries/ Thanks! *Gives my award speech*
War poems are just so horribly macabre, and there's no real way to give them a upbeat side. It's literally just death. That's it.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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I'm... so sorry. I recently discovered the addictive nature of sports anime, and sadly I have fallen prey to its clutches. Never even had a chance tbh, I was a goner. My friends won't be seeing much of me this summer...
Exam exemptions just went back into effect last semester for my school (bless). I got pretty lucky with math, not having to take one in that class. The English exam was totally ridiculous though. Like, it wasn't equal for all students... at all, even though it was supposed to be basically the same exam. I unfortunately got stuck with one of the more difficult ones, and had a total of 7 essays spread throughout it. Some people didn't get any essays though, which sucks for me but what can you do. What's done is done.
Congratulations! That must've felt incredible. I remember when I first found out my own disorder, it felt so freaking good—just being able to put a name to it. I can't imagine how you must feel.
No problem! Sending happy vibes to everyone is the least I can do~
I know omg, I'm such a mess. For at least the next two weeks though I am firmly holed up in my house. I finally went to go get a haircut and my bangs got cut quite... short. Sooooo, until they grow out I refuse to leave my house lol.
What kind of online friend would I be if I allowed my fellow comrade (it took my four tries to type that word; "cowride") to get a virus? Oh nonono, I am all for preaching internet safety.
American lit. has two sides basically; war and nature. Luckily we stuck to the nature side of things, so I can't really complain.
I'm sure you don't need the luck, but it can't hurt!
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Three days, I have three days left and then I'm freeeeee.
Luckily I was exempt from most of my exams so I only have one to take, and that's English so I'm not really worried.
Point in case, allergies are horrible. You seem different? At least the way you typed did, you seem more upbeat and at ease, like something nice happened. I hope so~ you deserve it.
Oh man... one friend that I have. I consider them one of my best friends (his name is Ty), and when I was talking to another person about Ty, they were genuinely surprised that we were friends, because we're always fighting with each other. But I was just like "Oh, Ty? Yeah, I love Ty. We're best buds." The look on their face of total confusion was the best thing ever. Then Ty walked up and was like "I heard my name." And I said that he was ugly, he called me fat, and we walked away not offended in the slightest. That other person though, they looked like their entire world had just been flipped over, they were soooo confused. It was the best, and I still can't believe it actually happened.
Ehh, it wasn't too horrible, other than breaking my wrist. I have lots of stuff like that happen though, just yesterday I had a biking accident with my friend (wherein I passed out because I'm an idiot) and my chest still hurts. This morning I was baptized and all of my cuts were stinging from the landing in a ditch... When did my life get so hectic lol?
Okay if you're going to download popcorn time make sure you do it from the popcorn time reddit! There's a link to it in the sidebar, and otherwise you'll probably get a virus or something... and those are NOT fun.
Well we only went over poetry really briefly because we had to start reviewing for the exam, and it was mainly old American lit. There was one that we read and analyzed called "My Last Duchess" which was quite interesting. Wasn't American lit. and I enjoyed it greatly.
Good luck on your exams!
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Ahh, I'm so sorry it took me so long to reply to you~ forgive me!
Best of luck with them! I hope you're in better shape than my friend, she's been on so much Benadryl lately to alleviate her symptoms.
Same here, they keep my days from getting too boring/repetitive (and make sure I don't stab myself with a pencil in Math.)
I'm so terrified of bugs omg. When I was younger I was on a swinging on a swing after school and bee flew right in front of me and it scared me so badly I fell off (backwards) and broke my wrist. Having long hair totally makes it worse because they can get caught in it easier. :(
Popcorn Time is so great. I've been addicted for a good two weeks.
We're studying poetry in English right now! The language I speak~
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Thanks! Getting some WIPs done that I've been meaning to put to rest for a while now helped~
I feel so bad for people with allergies. My best friend gets them terribly and lately it's been making her asthma act up and she's just been a mess. I can't imagine, seems like it would suck all of the fun out of Spring.
I have a friend just like that in my classes. Our last names are close alphabetically so I always get seated next to him and we bicker constantly, but it's all in good fun.
Hot weather and bugs ;__; my sworn enemies.
It's really intense, just when you think things are slowing down and mellowing out something else happens and wrecks everything. The poor guy went through hell the entire book.
Have you ever heard of Popcorn Time?
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Sorry I've been responding a little sporadically, there's someone in my life right now that's kind of put me in a slump, but I think I'm over it now.
Thank you! I figured I should change it up for spring, and the quickly approaching summertime.
That sounds wonderful :) I love those types of friendships, where you can just be ridiculous but you can also have really deep and meaningful conversations.
It's a blessing, especially in the summer. The temperatures are creeping into the 90s recently and my neck isn't going to be covered, that's for sure. With my dark brown hair I'm not about to play around with the sun these days.
Bruh. B r u h. The Kite Runner was the most insane thing I've ever experienced with a book. It was so incredible I can't even describe it. It hurt so good. The angst. The ANGST.
I love reading ;__;
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Basically that's my relationship with my friends in a nutshell. I write things. They read them. We scream about it together.
*True friendship*
I actually find it kind of funny that most everyone I know that has cut their hair short never goes back to long hair. It's so convenient, having short hair.
Truthfully, my hairstyle doesn't change that much when I cut it because I have a fringe- which is pretty constant.
Oooooh boy, it's so good. I'm almost done and it might end up being one of my favorites...
Ahh, yes, the struggle of the erudite. So many books to read and not enough hours in the day.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Truuuue, my friends love the nonsensical things I write late at night. I let them read (mostly) everything I write.
It wasn't particularly unpleasant, just not my type of scene at all.
Thanks, it's not really easy for most people I guess, because you have to donate at least 10 inches I believe? That can be really inconvenient for some people, but I don't mind. I like having both long and short hair so it works for me~
Same omg...
Yeah, The Kite Runner takes place in Afghanistan whenever the Taliban is coming into power and the writing style is really fitting of the events, because they very well could've actually happened, and it all flows together in a really chaotic timeline that just gets more and more intense.
Well, I suppose it's a good thing it's not all that popular then. Have you heard of The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo? It's the first book in a trilogy that my English teacher is obsessed with. I've been meaning to read them for a while now...
Eh, it's not all that important in the grand scheme of things. They're just people at the end of the day, that's why I don't take it all too seriously.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Yeah, my most recent quotes were just been weird things I thought of at like 3 AM.
It was okay, I guess. My feet hurt so badly because I was just working for six hours or talking to the other honor attendees about how much we wanted to go home.
Thank you! So many people say what a good thing it is but it's not really a big deal to me... like I can see how it would be for someone who's really attached to their hair but I'm just not, so it isn't really a significant thing for me I guess.
I think a part of it for me is that an actually book makes me commit to the story, where as on an e-reader it's like 'well I could also listen to music or go mess around on the internet.' With a physical copy I don't have those options, which is good because I'm bad at sticking with things for a long period of time when I have distractions.
There's one scene in it that happened literally so quick but it was really obscene and I was just like O_O what? It happened so fast too like I read it and didn't really comprehend it and then I realized how lewd it was. Book's crazy man.
I've never heard about that book! Very interesting title though...
Omg I have no idea who any celebrities are, I'm terrible at remembering names.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Don't worry! It's totally okay, I haven't been terribly active myself. Well, I have been writing, but it's stuff I can't exactly post on Witty.
I'm really nervous actually, our prom is today and I'm just an honor attendee, but I'm still jittery over it.
Thank you, I just enjoy being able to do what I can for other people, and hair is so insignificant and useless to me. If it can mean more to someone else then there's no point in me holding onto it.
I understand how you feel, I have a nook but I hardly use it to read because it's so difficult or me to read on anything other than a physical copy of a book.
We're reading The Kite Runner now! Which I also really enjoy (so far), it's very shocking though.
Same here! If I'm in my room by myself I can't sit still long enough to watch anything on Netlix. I'm also really bad about keeping up with TV shows too... I only watch one because my friend makes me.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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I typically grow my hair out over like 2/2-and-a-half years so that it's nearing waist-length and then cut it to a bob. The first time I cut and donated it I donated around 18 inches I think? Not sure, it was a lot though. But yeah, I've never bleached/dyed my hair—came close a few times though, but I always chickened out. It's really nice, I mainly do it because I can't donate blood (too short and will never reach weight requirements).
Omg yeeesss. Dialectical journals are horrible :( especially when you only have like a week to read a novel and a study guide to do as well. It's like teachers don't understand that, yes, we DO receive homework from all of our other classes as well.
*smashes cheeks* imagine that.
It's called Night by Elie Wiesel. I finished it Sunday and it's a really short read—around 80-90 pages. If you haven't read it, it's basically Elie's memoir of his experience in the Holocaust, and it's SO beautifully written. I recommend you watch his interview with Oprah where they explore the Auschwitz camp. The way he talks is so... hauntingly riveting. The day I can portray emotions like him is the day I just keel over and marinate in happiness.
Going to a small school is a blessing and a curse. I love that I quite literally know everybody, and I hate that I /quite literally know everybody/. I don't really like most people here, I guess. Small southern town full of racists, homophobes, and misogynists. Oh fun (alright maybe not full, but a lot). That just makes me closer with my true friends though, whom I love with the entirety of my heart. Left and right ventricle.
The majority of the staff is really nice. They're very mature and progressive I think.
The experience was nice, but definitely not something I'm willing to re-live. I think that was just a one time thing...
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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Ooh, same. I've gotten my hair cut maybe all of three times? I like to grow it out long and then cut it short and donate it, so most "haircuts" I get are just trims—which I can do myself.
My English teacher last year is the equivalent to my Math teacher now. Really fast moving, lots of homework, and overall just a difficult class.
I actually have a novel I should be finishing right now... Did you ever have to do dialectical journals with the novels you read? We do and they kind of ruin the novels for me a little bit, not gonna lie.
We have a reaaally small school, so we only have four actual English teachers, that switch off what grade they teach (although I think next year they're all going to start teaching a specific grade and stick with it). One of the history teachers teaches 9th grade English though, because her credits allowed for it. That's how it is in the Math department, one of the Math teachers also teaches 9th grade Science (which is Earth/Environmental Science). I think this year we had just over 400 students in the whole school? I know there are exactly 101 students in my grade—so like I said, reaaally small school lol.
To be honest I couldn't have stayed up that long alone, but we had each other to keep us up so it wasn't terribly difficult. I'm still feeling the effects of that though, like don't EVER do that. It messes you up for real real.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to Steve
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Have we always been able to see other people's user IDs?
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Steve 8 years ago to Steve
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Not always. Many many years ago you could, then it went away and recently I brought it back.
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*gloomy* 8 years ago to OnceUponAMidSummerMorning
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:( I hate going to the dentist. They had to do so much work on my teeth today and my gums ache so bad now.
English is so much fun, I love that class. My current English teacher is a fireball and he's hilarious. Seems English teachers are either the most fun teachers ever or they're reeeeally difficult.
Thank you~ sonnet's are pretty intense, can't imagine writing one just for the kicks. Well, at least I can say I successfully wrote one.
You deserve all the flattering :D
Speaking of watching things, I went over to my friend's house a few days ago (we're on spring break) and marathoned three Korean dramas. We slept a max 6 hours for being awake like 72 hours. THAT was intense.
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