Skimrande

these  train  conversations 
ARE PASSING ME BY AND I AIN'T GOT
nothing  to  say         
XXXXYOUXGETXWHATXXYOUXPAYXFORXXXX
BUT  I  JUST  HAD   NO  INTENTION
               OF LIVING THIS WAY

every key turning in its lock sounds the same and you're home somewhere but not with me
i wonder if you're happy with the locks that you've got or if you miss the doors you used to walk through
 

EIGHT years of resolutions

oh yes i'm still gonna make a new year's resolution post oh boy

2009
-lose 15 pounds
-stop biting my nails
-be more popular
-get an A in phys. ed.
-cry less

2010
-lose 15 pounds
-stop biting my nails
-do 30 squats/thigh exercises a day
-get an A in phys. ed.
-be less sensitive

2011
-make an effort to be more attractive
-be more laid back
-get closer to [him]
-do 30 sit ups a day
-be happy

2012
-do 50 sit ups a day
-be more open
-make more friends
-be happy

2013
-cry less
-be happy
-eat more healthily
-run half a mile a day
-develop close friendships
-stop biting my f/cking fingernails

2014
-maintain a positive attitude
-develop close friendships
-quit being an as/hole
-unf/ck my sleeping schedule
-eat vegetarian for a short period
-develop hobbies or something like forreal

2015
-develop a healthier lifestyle
-make money and buy cute clothes and stuff
-be positive
-be nice to and friendly with everyone around me
-be outgoing
-purposely surround myself with the best people for me
-learn how cars work

2016
-make more friends
-get all A's in every class I take this year
-git a job you goshdarned freeloader
-be happy happy happy
-learn to play an instrument a little bit

THEY CALL KIDS LIKE US VICIOUS
AND   CARVED   OUT  OF   STONE
BUT  FOR  WHAT   WE'VE  BECOME
we    just    feel    more    alone 
ALWAYS  WEIGH  WHAT  I'VE  GOT
AGAINST     WHAT    I     LEFT
xxxxxxSOXPROGRESSXREPORTxxxxxx
I'm  missing  you  to  death 
 

round here
WE ALWAYS STAND UP STRAIGHT
_  r o u n d   h e r e,   s o m e t h i n g __


RADIATES

YOU THOUGHT GOD WAS AN ARCHITECT, NOW YOU KNOW
HE'S SOMETHING LIKE A PIPE BOMB  READY TO BLOW
AND EVERYTHING YOU BUILT   THAT'S ALL FOR SHOW
GOESXUPXINXFLAMES                             
                    in 24 frames
 

"Are you okay" is such a threatening question because I understand that giving off any impression of discontent is unacceptable under the roof of the people who feed me, in the company of people who care about me. I couldn't stop myself from crying at work or breaking down in school and I wanted to swerve into oncoming traffic and every day became a blur of tears and the hallway carpet I would collapse on when I got home and your asking me if I'm okay wasn't good enough because you only wanted the right answer. 

IT'S   4:30 AM  ON  A  TUESDAY   AND
IT DOESN'T GET  MUCH WORSE THAN THIS
IN BEDS IN LITTLE ROOMS IN BUILDINGS
IN  THE   MIDDLE   OF   THESE  LIVES
which are completely meaningless
 

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"So you guys have been hanging out a lot lately."

"Yeah."

"Do you like him?"

"Sure."

"No, I mean, like..."

"What?"

"Are you interested in him?"

"He's interesting, sure."

"You know what I mean."

"I'm not romantically interested in him, no."

Twenty-one footsteps.

"All right, will you be honest with me?"

"Yeah."

"Promise?"

"Yeah."

"Are you a lesbian?"

"No."

"You know I'd still love you were."

"I'd hope so."

"I would."

"I'm not."

"You've never admitted to liking a guy."

"I like plenty of guys."

"You know what I mean."

"Yeah, okay."

Fifteen footsteps.

"So you can honestly tell me you're not interested in him at all?"

"No."

"Not at all?"

"No."

"At all."

"Nope."

"You're so weird."

"Yeah, I guess," eeked out, with just a hint of resignation, between shrugged shoulders.