SkittlesGirl

I'm not doing this for attention, I'm doing it because I deserve it.. The hatred I feel when I look in the mirror, it's like I actually see myself the way I am and I hate it.. People think I'm crazy, hyper, weird, fun but.. It's fake... It's not me.. I'm the girl who cries at night while everyone's asleep, who wished she was dead, who tried to kill herself, who hurts herself, she writes the story on her skin, where no one can see... I'm the one who has mental breakdowns in the shower so no one can hear her, I'm actually the one who might smile and laugh like she doesn't have a worry in the world and silently wishes she was dead.. Now tell me.. Who would love a girl like me ? I mean guys don't fall for sad girls..

I don't get it.. when you're actually in love with someone's flaw like they're not even attractive but yet you see them as perfection, and on top if that... they don't see you the way you see them.. It hurts, I swear it hurts..