I'm not going to be on Witty much, and I won't be responding to many comments, but I do read every single comment I get and I love all of you. Thanks for all the support you've been giving me since the beginning. <3 xx
Melissa/16/Chicago
Death ends a life, not a relationship.
I miss you so much, Matt.
The reason why I don't have a profile picture of myself is because someone made an account a few months ago just to comment on a bunch of my quotes claiming that I'm fake and saying that I stole my picture from "her friend in real life", even though I had proof.. She did the same to me on Facebook, which makes no sense. So yeah. I'm not going to post my own pictures again.
If you do think Matthew and I are fake, that's fine. Everyone has their own opinions. I know myself that we are real and that's all that matters; your opinion is irrelevant to me.
Just for the record, I hate my username. Over the past year I've come to realize that it's not "society's fault", it's ours. Because we are society. And one person can make a difference.
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She's sitting at the table, the hours get later
He was supposed to be here, she's sure he would have called
She waits a little longer, there's no one in the driveway
No one's said they seen him
Why, is something wrong?
She looks back to the window, suddenly the phone rings
A voice says something's happened, that she should come right now
Her mind goes to December, she thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knees first, and he said
"I, I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always"
She pulls up to the entrance, she walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls, a maze that's never ending
They talk about what happened, but she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room
She sits by his bedside, holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life
The house on the hillside, where they would stay
Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor or for better
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Then she gets an idea, and calls in the nurses
Brings up the chaplain and he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings from the couple next door
Everybody's laughing as the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes, and she says
"I, I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Forever and always, forever and always"
She finishes the vows but the beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low
As he says,
"I love you forever, forever and always
Please just remember, even if I'm not there..
I'll always love you, forever and always."
∞
I'm not
going
to
lie,
It
doesn't get easier.
I hate waking up every morning, looking at my phone and not
seeing any good morning texts from him. I hate going to
school and seeing an empty seat in every class where he used
to sit. I hate walking past his house, looking up at his
bedroom window and seeing the light turned off, no sign of
life in that room at all.. I hate not hearing his voice, his
laugh, the sound of his guitar. I hate not being in his arms
when I need someone to comfort me. I hate walking past his
grave, always seeing flowers there, wondering why God had to
take him from me when he had such a great life ahead of him..
I hate cancer. I've been trying to stay strong, but
it's just so hard.
I still can't stop crying.. Last night, a bunch of
people I know and love from Witty were saying on Facebook that
they want to kill themselves. One of them was my best Witty
friend, Lorcan. I've stayed up all night
worrying about them. I know what it's like, to feel like
nobody cares about you.. Like you're alone in a crowded
room. It's a horrible feeling, the worst feeling
in the world, but if you just believe in yourself, you CAN get
through it.. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel,
always.. And there's always someone out there who
cares about you; even if they barely know you, THEY STILL
CARE. Committing suicide will not make things easier for
anyone. Please, don't go through with it. You have so much to
live for. Besides, there are so many people going through worse
things than you.. Untold amounts of people die every single
day from things like cancer, and they didn't even want
to die.. It seems unfair and selfish that you want to end your
precious life because of temporary problems that you can fix..
Please. If any one of my fellow Wittians ever killed themselves,
I would cry for days.