I can't tell anyone else this, besides you
know, the internet.
There's this guy, and I think I might like him. His name is
Michael. He's funny, he's nice, he has an amazing smile,
pretty brown eyes (not like the poop brown eyes, which are not
pretty), he's smart, he plays hockey (which makes him that much
more attractive), and when I look at him, I feel the urge to run to
him and hug him and have him hold me and whisper jokes in my ear.
But the thing is, I have a boyfriend.
A boyfriend I'm not good enough for. A boyfriend who is super
sweet and nice and said he loves me. He's no jock, or really a
nerd, just normal. We've been dating for a year on February 19.
I would never be able to break up with him. And suddenly, I'm
not as interested in making out with him or kissing him, or
anything like that. I want to hold his hand or hug him or kiss him
on the cheek at most. I'm not good enough for him, and I feel
almost like I've been taking advantage of him.
A few days ago, in my study skills/resource seminar/guided study
hall of only five people, a girl was talking to the teacher about
how she and her boyfriend broke up. She told the teacher she felt
like she had wasted and entire year and a half of her life, because
she had dated someone she knew wasn't right for her. My teacher
told us about advice her brother had given her as "Don't
settle, don't be with someone who isn't right for
But what am I supposed to do if I'm the one being settled
This has been stuck in my head and I don't know who I can tell
without them judging me. You're probably judging me.
How horrible am I?
What should I do?