angelle*

If you yell at me there is a
99% chance it will ruin my entire week
and I'll mope around like a whiney little
b.itch baby.

my ex refuses to acknowledge
what he did to me. before he would
admit that he forced me to do things
I didn't want to do, and now he keeps
saying that I'm lying; that I wanted it.
his excuse used to be that I didn't
fight back "hard enough" or that he
just simply didn't hear me tell him
"stop" and "no" (over and over again.)
but now he says that it never happened, 
that I asked for it, that I'm making it up,
and that I never said no, or even struggled.
I didn't want it, at any point. It's not like
I'm trying to get him arrested or anything,
I just want him to admit what he did,
mean it, and not change his story in
order to make him the victim.

up date:
in one day of school, I heard
11 r.ape jokes, 14 race jokes, 
and 7 homophobic jokes. 

also, I changed my seinor 
project to an essay on why
all of that is wrong.

Yesterday, my friend and I went
to the mall because she got engaged
on Christmas Eve and wanted to get
a wedding book. She picked out a
massive wedding, like, bible (it's
actually really cool. I wish I was
getting married just so I can get 
one.) Well, when she was checking
out, the cashier was making small
talk. He asked "ah, a wedding book?
whose wedding it it?" and my friend
replied it was for hers. After he rang
her up, there was this older guy that
started waving and shoving his card
in the cashier's face. We all assumed
he was being rude, and was trying to 
hurry up and pay for his things, even
though that cashier wasn't the one
ringing him up. Then he said "hey,
weddings are expensive. consider 
this your first wedding gift." It was
so sweet. My friend started turning
red and it lookedl ike she was going
to cry. It makes me very happy.

there's a difference between jokes, 
and making ignorant comments with
the intention of hurting someone, and
then playing it off as a joke so that you
don't have to take reponsibility of 
actually hurting someone.

I'm so stoked for pi day this year.
because it'll be 03/14/15. 

people on witty are so nice.
like, seriously tho. I could ramble
about my problems to people in 
real life, and they'd just ignore it,
or change it to be about them, but
on witty there is always at least one
person to offer to talk. if you are 
one of those people, you are fab.
I mean, if I don't respond, that is
my bad. I read it, but I have the 
social skills of a constant, overly
anxious 6th grader, so replies do
not get very far (especially if you
are a user that I find hella rad, and
follow, and offers help/advice 
frequently. I mean, then you're like
the cool kind and I'm like the kid
that no one talks to- which is oddly
accurate irl.)

you'll never hate me,
as much as I hate myself.

"you struggled, or so you say.."

-my (now ex) boyfriend, trying to
defend himself for being friends 
with my r.apist. lol the guys in my
county are such t.wats.

I'm single & be ignoring people like I'm taken