I know this isn't something you would ever be expecting to
see considering the circumstances. I know you hate me. Sadly,
that doesn't effect me anymore considering I hate you too.
I've gotten used to the fact that some people actually do
hate me, even if I don't hate them though. I wish things
didn't turn out the way they did. I just don't understand
how you could think that I secretly hated you behind your back if
I would tell you to your face when you were being a bîtch.
And I know for a fact that happened on multiple occasions. You
may not see how much the whole thing hurt me, but it really did.
You've changed, and not for the better. You've become
rude, a copy cat, a bîtch, and worst of all, a whöre.
Yep, I said it. Your a whôre. And I'm not afraid to say
it. You think your so cool wearing combat boots and beanies and
short shorts that show your a$$, but it's extremely
unattractive and you look awful and I'm honestly surprised
you haven't been ràped yet. Your making a fool out of
yourself. I don't know if you've done this because of
what happened between us or not. I'm not gunna lie and say
you weren't annoying before, because you were, but I
didn't care. Why? Because you were my friend, and all friends
can be annoying. I know for a fact that I was probably just as
annoying but you put up with me. Sort of. Im not afraid to say
this, I blame you for this entire thing. By saying how I
"talk about you and other people behind their backs",
you were talking about me behind mine. And I know you probably
did it before any of this happened too. But did I care? No. I
sucked it because I really believed that way deep down, you were
a good person. Guess that was a mistake. I know we will never be
able to go back to the way we were, but that doesn't bother
me like it used to. Even if I could, I probably wouldn't.
Loosing you, Kristen, and Allison meant I was able to move on and
replace you guys. It was easier than I thought. My new friends
actually care about me, unlike you ever did. They listen to me,
the comfort me, we have fun together. And to think I've only
known them for a month and they've been better to me than the
three years I knew you. I'm not gunna say I wanna forget all
the good times we had, because we had a lot of fun. I just wish
It didn't have to come to a crashing stop. Can't take
back what's already been done, right? Just keep in mind that
the next time someone hurts you, remember that I sat in my room
crying for about a week because of what you did to me. See how it
feels to be on my end? Karma always comes back around.
30 DAY CHALLENGE
DAY 29- LETTER TO A FRIEND