StarryNight3

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In life you have lessons learned. I had that the last day in February.  That is the night that i let my extremely toxic ex back in my life and ruin it for good.  Yes i could have stopped him from comiing out and joining us at the bar but i was drunk and "i missed him".  did i really miss him or did i just miss the fact that he was always there for me when i was crying at night or when i felt lost in this world. that i lost myself in his eyes again, i lost myself pride, my dignity, my everything.  i was doing fine without him in my life i am starting a new job i was house searching and then one drunk mistake changed everything.  his smile his eyes his laugh the way he looks at you when you say somthing stupid but in a cute way that he just automatically laughs and brings you in to kiss your forehead and say those three stupid words "I LOVE YOU".  no you dont because if you did i wouldnt be crying myself to sleep everynight, not sleeping sometimes, checking my phone every 5 minutes thinking you would text me or call me, waiting for you to drive to my house to come pick me up and say everything is good between us, or its the fact that i always see you on my snap and i just smile and then realize you dont care about me.  i have come to see the light at the end of this toxic tunnel i put myself down everytime.  

i know longer have your number in my phone i no longer mourn your hug or kiss or your smell.

i am free from you i dont need it.  
1 0 ahandra22 ahandra22
breakup
My memories are being reshuffled, all that's left is grey. Was it a good childhood, were they good friendships? Did I enjoy the life I lived? At the time, was I happy? Content at least? Surely I was happy at some point. I can't have lived my whole life without colour. But when I look back...I keep looking back. All that's left is grey. Small flashes that I thought I could forget by now, some are revisited as I try to rest. They resurface and before I can wish it away a tear has already sunken into my pillow. Makes me wonder if everyone lives like this. If my tears were always this salty. If I was just supposed to keep living like this. I keep telling myself one day at a time. One of these days it'll get better. Each day breaks me in a new way, but it just has to get better. God is fair. If it wasn't for that then I couldn't breathe let alone sigh a minute longer.
1 0 Dudu* Dudu*
inspirational
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You lied just like everyone else, and now I'm left trying to figure out if I bother fixing it and picking up the pieces like I always do.

I'm never enough, and I'm always second best. Just once, I'd like someone to fight for me and do what's best for me, but I guess that's too much, hey? 
 

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3 0 MaxieTofu MaxieTofu
sadheartbreakoverittired
The most dangerous time for an abused women is when she leaves. The abuser will try to make her sound to be the problem. He will try to turn people against her. He will make sure that he has a reason she has to communicate with him. He will try to manipulate get and everyone aroumd her that she knows and loves. When he realizes that the " I LOVE YOUS" and the " I AM SORRYS" aren't working it turns to violence. Then he's sorry again and loves you. The hardest part knowing this will happen and knowing YOU HAVE TO GO.... YOU DO NOT HAVE A CHOICE. Some people don't understand that. Knowing you WILL go through this without who was your best amd maybe only friend is a lot of the reason women don't leave. We are victimized by them everyday (in ways we never knew were possible) by both them amd the community. In a way.... It would have been earlier to stay. You know how you are going to be victimized. You can see it coming. When you leave and after you leave.... There is no end to the harassment they inflict on people. Please remember this when you find out someone was victimized. Definitely keep an open mind when you hear a story and put yourself in their shoes as much as possible.
3 0 SANDD* SANDD*
inspirational
i thought you healed my world, but you were the destroyer
1 0 shattered_ shattered_
love