Supphamm
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So I took the morning shift at the
cafe I work at,
and we were serving breakfeast when
a little boy and his mother walked in.
Me- "So what'll it be kiddo?"
Kid- "I WISH TO DEVOUR THE UNBORN!!"
It gets extremely quiet as everyone in the resturant stares.
The mother is obviously embarried.
Her- "Eggs....He would like some eggs...."
and we were serving breakfeast when
a little boy and his mother walked in.
Me- "So what'll it be kiddo?"
Kid- "I WISH TO DEVOUR THE UNBORN!!"
It gets extremely quiet as everyone in the resturant stares.
The mother is obviously embarried.
Her- "Eggs....He would like some eggs...."
I don't know what i'm supposed to do
anymore.
I've been sitting here for almost an hour now, balling my eyes out, screaming while sobs wrack my body.
My Chemical Romance has broken up.
To others I seem like a baby, 'It's just a band.' IT IS NOT JUST A BAND.
When I first heard them, they touched my heart. I was in such a horrible place. I had a crippling depression that I didn't tell anyone about. I acted fakely happy in front of my family and friends but when I was home in my room, I cut myself constantly. I kept wishing it would end. I cried myself to sleep for weeks until I just stopped. Everything stopped. I was numb. I didn't cry myself to sleep anymore, I just wished that I wouldn't wake up in the morning.
I googled which pills to take to kill myself, deciding I didn't care if it was slow or fast, nothing could compare to the constant pain I had been in for months.
When I heard them though, everything made sense. They were my angel in disguise. They lead me from the darkness and into the light. My depression became more and more manageable until it was just gone.
And now so are they.
And i'm just so terrified that it will come back. I NEED them.
Please Gerard, rethink this. I need you, you're my life. Literally, you are my life line. I'll be dead within the next year if this doesn't get fixed.
PLEASE.
I've been sitting here for almost an hour now, balling my eyes out, screaming while sobs wrack my body.
My Chemical Romance has broken up.
To others I seem like a baby, 'It's just a band.' IT IS NOT JUST A BAND.
When I first heard them, they touched my heart. I was in such a horrible place. I had a crippling depression that I didn't tell anyone about. I acted fakely happy in front of my family and friends but when I was home in my room, I cut myself constantly. I kept wishing it would end. I cried myself to sleep for weeks until I just stopped. Everything stopped. I was numb. I didn't cry myself to sleep anymore, I just wished that I wouldn't wake up in the morning.
I googled which pills to take to kill myself, deciding I didn't care if it was slow or fast, nothing could compare to the constant pain I had been in for months.
When I heard them though, everything made sense. They were my angel in disguise. They lead me from the darkness and into the light. My depression became more and more manageable until it was just gone.
And now so are they.
And i'm just so terrified that it will come back. I NEED them.
Please Gerard, rethink this. I need you, you're my life. Literally, you are my life line. I'll be dead within the next year if this doesn't get fixed.
PLEASE.
The promise
Chapter 3
My dad leads me to my old room and im shocked by the difference. My walls are no longer hot pink, they're a deep purple with white at the bottom. My little twin bed is now a full sized queen mattress with a white frame holding it. My little white window seat still remains as does my big white dresser. Instead of finger paintings on my wall facing my bed there is a flat screen, I wonder how the hell he got that. Probably a present from my mother. The floors are wooden with a white little rug at the doorstep. "Woah, it's changed." I say looking at my dad, "Well I figured since you've changed, the room should too." he says smirking. I smile and hug him, "Thanks dad." "No problem honey," He smiles "I'll give you time to unpack but come down when you're done because I have a couple more surprises." I nod and he walks out.
I walk over and sit on my window seat when movement from the neighboring house catches my eye. I look over and see an attractive guy mowing the lawn, I can imagine how hot it would be doing that in the heat of this summer day so he takes his shirt off and I see his back glowing in sweat but it actually lookes good. Dispite the heat, he's wearing pants and his shirt that is now tossed on the porch is white. I know I should be unpacking but my eyes are glued to him. He turns to mow from the porch to the mailbox and I see the perfect sixpack plastered to his stomach and can't look away. After a long while of staring at the perfect boy in front of me I realize something, I didn't even look at his face. I slowly look up and he must have felt someone looking at him because before I even see his eyes he's looking at me. Oh god it probably looked like I was checking him out, wait..I was. I look at his eyes and mentally freak out.
Ethan?
Isabelle's house -http://activerain.com/image_store/uploads/3/9/2/6/2/ar129484024926293.jpg
I apologize for how long it's taken me to update the story, i've had alot on my plate lately but I'll try to upload whenever I can. Most likely every monday at least if not every other day.
Chapter 3
My dad leads me to my old room and im shocked by the difference. My walls are no longer hot pink, they're a deep purple with white at the bottom. My little twin bed is now a full sized queen mattress with a white frame holding it. My little white window seat still remains as does my big white dresser. Instead of finger paintings on my wall facing my bed there is a flat screen, I wonder how the hell he got that. Probably a present from my mother. The floors are wooden with a white little rug at the doorstep. "Woah, it's changed." I say looking at my dad, "Well I figured since you've changed, the room should too." he says smirking. I smile and hug him, "Thanks dad." "No problem honey," He smiles "I'll give you time to unpack but come down when you're done because I have a couple more surprises." I nod and he walks out.
I walk over and sit on my window seat when movement from the neighboring house catches my eye. I look over and see an attractive guy mowing the lawn, I can imagine how hot it would be doing that in the heat of this summer day so he takes his shirt off and I see his back glowing in sweat but it actually lookes good. Dispite the heat, he's wearing pants and his shirt that is now tossed on the porch is white. I know I should be unpacking but my eyes are glued to him. He turns to mow from the porch to the mailbox and I see the perfect sixpack plastered to his stomach and can't look away. After a long while of staring at the perfect boy in front of me I realize something, I didn't even look at his face. I slowly look up and he must have felt someone looking at him because before I even see his eyes he's looking at me. Oh god it probably looked like I was checking him out, wait..I was. I look at his eyes and mentally freak out.
Ethan?
Isabelle's house -http://activerain.com/image_store/uploads/3/9/2/6/2/ar129484024926293.jpg
I apologize for how long it's taken me to update the story, i've had alot on my plate lately but I'll try to upload whenever I can. Most likely every monday at least if not every other day.
The promise
Chapter 2
I pried my eyes open when I felt someone shaking me and saw my mother smiling, "Honey wake up we're here." she uttered in a tender voice. I groaned sleepily and stepped out of the car grabbing my purse. My mother popped the trunk and I grabbed my big suitcase and smaller one, she had insisted that I take everything I owned just in case. As we got to the sidewalk outside the airport doors my mother spoke, "Are you sure you have everything? Do you need me to go in with you? Are you hungry? Do you need more money?" she started freaking out, she had slipped nearly five hundred dollars into my wallet last night and wouldn't let me give it back all day. I even tried to sneak it back into her purse this morning but she slipped it right back in.
"I'm completely fine mom, you don't have to worry i'm nearly eighteen I can take care of myself" I frowned as did she. I felt bad for her and said, "Thank you." and a sad smile danced across her face as she pulled me into a tight hug and I heard sobs. "Mom don't cry, I'll be back soon." I said rolling my eyes and smiling at her reaction to me leaving, It wasn't like we had spent every moment together, this was probably the longest time we'd seen each other for a long time. "I'm sorry Bella, I really am. I'm just really going to miss my belly." another sad smile appeared on her lips. "I'm going to miss you too." I started, "But I have to go, I'm going to miss my flight." I said with a sad smirk. "Oh, yes I almost forgot." She said giving me another breath squeezing hug. "I love you sweety." she said putting her hand on my shoulder. "I love you too mom." I said smiling and walking into the airport.
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Chapter 2
I pried my eyes open when I felt someone shaking me and saw my mother smiling, "Honey wake up we're here." she uttered in a tender voice. I groaned sleepily and stepped out of the car grabbing my purse. My mother popped the trunk and I grabbed my big suitcase and smaller one, she had insisted that I take everything I owned just in case. As we got to the sidewalk outside the airport doors my mother spoke, "Are you sure you have everything? Do you need me to go in with you? Are you hungry? Do you need more money?" she started freaking out, she had slipped nearly five hundred dollars into my wallet last night and wouldn't let me give it back all day. I even tried to sneak it back into her purse this morning but she slipped it right back in.
"I'm completely fine mom, you don't have to worry i'm nearly eighteen I can take care of myself" I frowned as did she. I felt bad for her and said, "Thank you." and a sad smile danced across her face as she pulled me into a tight hug and I heard sobs. "Mom don't cry, I'll be back soon." I said rolling my eyes and smiling at her reaction to me leaving, It wasn't like we had spent every moment together, this was probably the longest time we'd seen each other for a long time. "I'm sorry Bella, I really am. I'm just really going to miss my belly." another sad smile appeared on her lips. "I'm going to miss you too." I started, "But I have to go, I'm going to miss my flight." I said with a sad smirk. "Oh, yes I almost forgot." She said giving me another breath squeezing hug. "I love you sweety." she said putting her hand on my shoulder. "I love you too mom." I said smiling and walking into the airport.
* * *
The flight wasn't that bad, but it was extremely long and I forgot that California was three hours behind New york so I would have insane jet lag. After grabbing my bags I walked twords the exit and saw my dad. He still hadn't seen me so he was still looking. I walked over and smiled at him, "Hey dad." I said with a soft smile. He looked at me and his eyes widened with shock, "Jeez Bella, you sure grew up." He said studying my facial features. He sweeps me up into a hug and I laugh, "I missed you." he says and lets me go. "I missed you too." I said smiling. We walk to the car and I'm surprised, I expected the weather to bother me more but it felt pretty much just like New york. I was wearing some dark wash jeans, a light pink and grey striped tank top, some black vans, a black Victoria's Secret hoodie and my special heart locket.
Before my parent's started fighting and eventually divorced I had my last peaceful birthday. I was turning ten and was extremely excited to be double digits. They both picked out the locket and presented it to me that night. I was ecstatic that I finally had a piece of jewelry that was special let alone a locket. I looked inside and there was a picture of all of us looking happier than ever. My parents were staring intently into each others eyes smiling and looking more in love than I've ever seen two people. I had a huge smile across my face and was looking at them and not the camera but I still loved it. After that the fighting happened and we all just separated and never talked. I was alone so I turned cold and pushed people away before they could push me away. I would still be that way if my mother hadn't taken me to therapy when I was fifteen.
When we got to his car my dad put my bags in the back of his dirty grey pick up and we drove off. We drove in an awkward silence until my dad attempted to break it, "So.." he started, "What have you been up to?" I had to give him credit for trying but really? What have you been up to? Three years and that's what you ask. "Nothing really," I shrug, "just home school." He looks at me with wide eyes, "Home school? Why the hell did you do that?" he says raising an eyebrow. "New yorkers are the worst kind of people dad." I say. Okay that may not be true but the kids at my school were horrible. "Well the ones I encountered were." I say sighing.
Isabelle's outfit - http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=64638605
The promise
Chapter 1
That was three years ago, when I was fourteen. Ethan ignored me every time he saw me which wasn't often because he had started going out of his way to avoid me. He didn't have to for long though because a few months after that night my parents got divorced and I moved in with my mom in New York. After I moved here though, my mom worked twenty four seven so I was home alone all the time and New York was a cold place. Not just weather wise either, the people were rude and cold to anyone within a five foot radius of them. I tried going to school but couldn't deal with it so I took online classes and without the pressure of looking cool in front of everyone, I did extremely well and got all A's. I was extremely content with the set up I had going on but of course just as I was feeling happy with my life, my mother showed up.
I was home blasting the expensive speakers with My Chemical Romance and making a salad when my mother walked in.
"Damn it Bella are you deaf or hell bent on making sure I am?" she said jamming the pause button on the t.v. I sighed, she had always hated my taste in well, everything. Since I had turned seventeen though, she had gotten fed up of trying to change me and just gave up all together. It wasn't like I was a satanic freak either, I was pretty normal. I had light dirty blonde hair, very fair skin from staying inside all day, dark blue eyes that changed depending on my mood, I didn't really have anything setting me apart from every other girl besides a sizable birthmark on my face that ran from the middle of my ear down to the center of my neck and rose back up to under my chin, It wasn't very noticeable though seeing how it was only one or two shades darker than my regular skin color. I usually just wore sweatpants and a over sized t-shirt or tank top. If I was getting really fancy then it would be jeans or leggings but that's about it. Not to sound conceited but I do have a great body from jogging and eating healthy but I really hoped my thighs would get
smaller but who doesn't?
"Why are you home so early?" I said trying to sound positive which was difficult considering she sucks most of the fun out of any room she enters. "Because I have something great to tell you." She said clapping her hands which made me jump and almost drop the carrots I was cutting. I continued making my salad until I heard her clear her throat and I sighed in defeat. Leaving the cutting board, I sat next to her at the dining room table. "So what's this 'great news?' " I said making air quotes around great news. "Just hear me out before you get defiant okay?" she pleaded. "Um..Okay?" I say raising an eyebrow. "I don't like that you're home alone all the time, it's not natural for a seventeen year old girl. It's getting close to summer soon too and your dad has been begging to see you.." She looked into my eyes and a horrified expression fell on my face as I realized what she was saying.No, No way she was saying that.
"No!" I screamed standing up, "There's no way in hell I'm going back there!" I shouted getting irritated. "How could you even say that!? You know how horrible I was back there! I can never go back, I'll be terrorized and-and.." My hands shot up to my face and I started groaning. "Honey please calm down you're being dramatic! I'm sure they have all forgotten about how nasty you were, and you've changed! You can show them how you've changed! Everything will be okay, I promise." She said patting my back. "How much time do I have?" I said keeping my face in my hands. "You leave the day before summer vacation and you're there until the day after.." she bites her lip obviously not telling me everything.
"What else is there mother?" I say looking in her eyes. "Well if this summer goes well..." she starts, "Your father wants you to stay with him..for a while.." "Mom! I'm fine here I love being alone!" I say through my fingers. "That's not normal honey! You need friends and a life and a boyf-" she stops herself. After what I did to Ethan I never dated anyone again because the guilt was eating me alive, I never ended up dating Brad and I'm extremely glad I didn't, he was the epitome of a duch bag. I wasn't in the mood to fight her anymore so I let out a loud sigh and said, "Okay mother, I'll start packing." and stalked off into my room.
Isabelle - http://i1114.photobucket.com/albums/k532/Dark-Angels123/tumblr_lrdd04xUXB1qec9bqo1_500.jpg
How do you like the new story? I think it's going to be pretty exciting. Also after this story I hope to do a sequel for Goodbye Sweet Love but I'm not sure so please comment if you would like that or if you like this story so far c: Thank you!
Goodbye Sweet
Love
Chapter 30
There Tyler is on one knee right in front of me. It's crystal clear right in front of my face but I still can't believe it. He has one hand on his chest and the other stretched out to me. "Tyler.." I stutter. "Jennifer, we've been together for a long time now and we've helped each other through some serious problems. You helped me overcome the pain of my mother's death." he says without even flinching. "You've helped me mature and to think this all started out because I saw a beautiful girl about to get hit by a car. I thank god every day that I had the courage to step in front of that car. I would do it again in a heart beat." I blush at my own stupidity. "After all of my problems you're still here strong and in love with me." he smiles and pulls a black box out of his pocket. Oh god. He opens it. Oh god. He grabs my hand. Oh. God. "Jennifer Wolf-" he smiles, "Will you do me the honor of becoming Mrs.Knight? Will you marry me?" he puts the ring on my finger. Jennifer Knight. It sounds beautiful. A grin appears on my face that seems to reach my ears. "Yes. Yes I will marry you Tyler." Tears spill out of my eyes and I jump into his arms as he spins me around. Everyone claps and laughs but I don't notice that much. I'm caught up in this moment, our moment. This will always be out moment and I will always remember it. "I Love you Jennifer Knight." He says. "I Love you Tyler Knight." I say smiling. "Call me Riley." He says as he cups my face in his hands and we share a magical kiss.
Chapter 30
There Tyler is on one knee right in front of me. It's crystal clear right in front of my face but I still can't believe it. He has one hand on his chest and the other stretched out to me. "Tyler.." I stutter. "Jennifer, we've been together for a long time now and we've helped each other through some serious problems. You helped me overcome the pain of my mother's death." he says without even flinching. "You've helped me mature and to think this all started out because I saw a beautiful girl about to get hit by a car. I thank god every day that I had the courage to step in front of that car. I would do it again in a heart beat." I blush at my own stupidity. "After all of my problems you're still here strong and in love with me." he smiles and pulls a black box out of his pocket. Oh god. He opens it. Oh god. He grabs my hand. Oh. God. "Jennifer Wolf-" he smiles, "Will you do me the honor of becoming Mrs.Knight? Will you marry me?" he puts the ring on my finger. Jennifer Knight. It sounds beautiful. A grin appears on my face that seems to reach my ears. "Yes. Yes I will marry you Tyler." Tears spill out of my eyes and I jump into his arms as he spins me around. Everyone claps and laughs but I don't notice that much. I'm caught up in this moment, our moment. This will always be out moment and I will always remember it. "I Love you Jennifer Knight." He says. "I Love you Tyler Knight." I say smiling. "Call me Riley." He says as he cups my face in his hands and we share a magical kiss.