fear,
pain
and
regret
are forever with me
they torment me while I sleep
and consume when I awake
I hide
behind masks hoping
you will not see the real me
the me that is damaged
by the misfortunes of yesterday
I awake
every morning
trying to find a reason
to keep on living
today the search will continue
darkened depression lays hold
on my weary mind
and digs its claws
into my fragile psyche
will the sun ever shine
on the darkened days of
my meager existence
with
fear, pain and regret?
if you could see past the façade
and into my anguished soul
you
would gaze upon scars
that disfigure my heart
inside you would find the
mummified remains of
hope, faith and trust.
lifeless objects of the past
how long must I live this way
how long until there is relief
free me from my prison of
fear, pain and regret.